Broken Pieces, L. S. [brene brown rising strong .txt] 📗

is also not aware about it or she isn’t telling me the truth. And my instinct is telling me that my second thought is right. I pulled one of the lingerie’s out of the closet and ran to Nicole’s room. She was lying on the bed, with cucumber on her eyes.

“Nicole tell me the truth, are we really here to be waitresses?” I asked with the obvious anger on my tone

She almost fell from the bed cause I didn’t even knock.

“Geez, don’t you know how to knock?” she growled.

I ignored her angry gaze; I am so pissed being clueless about this whole thing.

“Just answer me”

She sat on the bed and set aside the cucumber on the plate on her night stand.

“I already answered your questions last night. What else would you want to know?” she was pissed.

“The truth” I threw the lingerie on her bed.

She reached the piece of clothing.

“Wow this is sexy, where did you find this?”

“I found that in my closet, that was just one, there is still a couple of that there. You should check your closet too” I said then she gets off the bed and walked to her closet and I was right. Although we didn’t exactly have the same reaction, she was actually excited to try them on.

“Now answer, are we really waitresses here? Or are we here to strip?”

She put the lingerie down and looked at me trying to figure out what to say.

“No offense Nic, but all I want right now is the truth and I’d really appreciate it if you will tell me what is really going on”

She sighed and sat back on the bed.

“Alright, but before anything else I want you to know that I did it because I want you to know that I did want you to be free from that evil” she said referring to Dan.

I listened though I’m still pissed.

“What I told you last night was true. . .” she took a deep breath and rolled her eyes “well partly true. . . When I met Keith in a bar, she offered me a job, she runs this club, not just an ordinary club, it’s a high profile club and he calls it USA club where he collects girls from different states in the country. He was recruiting local girls to work with him the night that I met him. He asked me if I knew someone who would like to work with him, someone who is experience with that kind of work. So I thought about you cause I knew like me you want to be free from our town.”

I shook my head. I do not believe this is happening.

“And you didn’t tell me because?” I asked.

She looked at me I can feel she is nervous.

“I didn’t tell you because I knew you would react this way and it’s going to ruin our plan.” She answered.

“Of course I was going to react this way” I was yelling, I am really angry “I left town because I want to have a new life, a better life and I trusted you cause I thought you want the same but you signed me up for this?”

She stood up and tried to reach my hands but I pushed her.

“Why don’t you just look at the bright side? We’re here in Miami, we have a place to live, a food to eat and we have work. We are having a new life so will you please stop acting like a baby?” she snorted.

“Acting like a baby? Well you don’t really get it do you? I left town because I wanted change, not like this. If it is easy for you to sell yourself to earn money well not me, sorry but I wasn’t born a slut like you.”

Then I stepped out of her room, I don’t know but as soon as I closed my door room tears fell from my eyes. I know what I said was harsh but I am so angry at her for lying to me. I trusted her, even if it was hard for me to trust people. I believed in her, I even imagined some good things that we will do together, but in the end she just tricked me.

I put my things back on my bag and headed out of the house. I didn’t even bother to tell her I was leaving. I don’t know where I am going but what is important right now is that I can get out of this place as soon as possible.

 

I stopped walking when I finally reach the beach, I am not afraid that Keith might look for me. He doesn’t own me; I didn’t sign any contract so I can leave whenever I want. I still hate the way things ended between me and Nicole. For a couple of days that we’ve been together I considered her as the only family I have but I just can’t believe that she will sell us. I knew it’s going to be hard for us; living in a new state where no one knows us, no one will help us but I had plans in my head, I had savings, I planned of us working together to be able to survive life. But I didn’t know that all along she had her own plan.

I sat on the sand, watching the sun to set, the red shadow of the sun on the water is soothing, and I hugged my knees as the cold wind blew to my direction. There were a couple of teenagers like me who are chasing each other on the water. Some are sitting on the sand like me, some are making out and some are starting building a bon fire. A sudden envy feeling grew inside my chest. I envy how normal life is to them. I was never a normal girl; I didn’t grow up in a normal environment, I lost my dad as early as I can even remember, my mom was blinded with her love for a man whose soul is evil. Sometimes I wished, I could be like these people that I can be a normal girl, a girl that can hang out with her friends, a girl who can date whoever she wants. But I know I am that girl and I will never be that girl.

Tears once again fell from eyes; I have never been so alone in my entire life. For the first time in a long time I felt lonely. I have always been alone, no friend, no family. But now that I finally don’t see mom or feel dad I feel like I am the only person left in this world.

“Dad. . .” I cried.

I don’t know where I am going after this, I don’t have a place to live, I can’t even check in a motel because my money is not going to be enough for the whole month.

This isn’t how I pictured myself; I was going to be a doctor, my entire life I have been dreaming of being on the medical field. I will be the resident doctor of St. Louis Medical Hospital, I will marry the director or maybe another doctor and we’ll have our own family. I never wanted to leave town, I didn’t even thought about it not until I was 13. Not until Dan took everything I hoped for, everything I wished for and everything I dreamed of. Now I am sitting here broke, jobless, homeless and clueless on how I will face the tomorrow.

 

 

“She’s alive”

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 “No, she’s not!”

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 “OMG she’s moving”

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“Should we call the police?”

I was awakened with the small voices talking in high pitches on my brain. When I opened my eyes, a bunch of kids came after my sight.

“I told you she was alive”

Apparently, I fell asleep on the sand while thinking about what will happen to me and while crying about how misfortune I was. And apparently, these kids thought I was dead.

I sat on the sand and hugged my backpack; I didn’t realize that I was that pale for these kids to think that I was dead.

“Yes, I am alive” I told them

They smiled at me as they walked towards the beach. The sun is shining really bright that it’s going to be so nice to soak up in the water. I think its noon and as much as I want to swim all day I have a lot of things to do.

I stood up, took my jacket off and put my backpack on. I started walking my out of the beach. Since I don’t have anything right now, I should start looking for a job, although I don’t know how since I am an undergraduate high school senior without any experience or credentials.

My stomach rumbled when I sight a small diner outside the beach, then I remembered that the last time I ate was at Keith’s place.

I still have money to eat something so I went inside the diner to get some pancakes. If I will look for a job I should at least eat right?

I sat on the table near the window and a kind of away from the crowd. I am a complete stranger in this place so I don’t want to catch any kind of attention. Most of the people that were there were teenagers ready to take a swim. I looked around and I can see how life is simple here in this town.

“Can I get you something” the waitress that looks like my age came to me.

She was wearing a blue collared shirt, tattered short shorts, flip flops and a blue apron. Her blonde hair is tied up with a nice ponytail and her blue eye shadow is kind of disturbing.

“I’ll have some pancakes with bacon and coffee please” I said.

She smiled and wrote something on the notebook that she has.

“I’ll be right back”

I watched her walked back on the counter and passed the piece of paper she ripped from the note book to the guy peaking on the small hole or window. I believe that was the kitchen.

I patiently waited for my order to come; I am worried on how my day will turn out. Last night I didn’t know where to go, I sat on the sand for hours until I finally fell asleep on the beach. I don’t know if I can survive that kind of life.

After a couple of minutes my food was delivered by the same girl who took my order.

“Pancakes with bacon and coffee” she said as she put the plate down on the table. “Would there be anything else that I can get you?” she asked.

“I’m good thanks!” I answered.

She was about to leave my table.

“Wait!” I called.

“Yes?”

I took a deep breath.

“Is there any opening here? Maybe you need another waitress?” I asked.

She looked at the counter and smiled.

“Well an extra hand will be very helpful since summer is just around the corner but I am not the one to decide. . .” she said. “Do you see that big guy over there?” she pointed on the white haired fat guy sitting on the cashier. “That’s the owner so he is the best person to ask, but just to give an idea, he’s not very easy to deal with” she warned me.

I nod.

“Thanks! I’ll talk to him later”

“Welcome, by the way I’m Kate”

“Jillian”

“Nice to meet you Jillian”

“Same here”

She smiled and went to the other table to take orders.

My stomach was so happy when I was done eating my breakfast, now I can have my full focus on looking for a job. The owner of the diner is still sitting on the cashier as I made my way towards his direction. He is wearing a blue shirt like the one that Kate was wearing and all the other waitresses that were there and khaki pants. I was hesitant to approach him because he looks like he doesn’t smile at all. His hair is gray and some parts of his head don’t even have hair at