Forever and Always, jenn [important of reading books TXT] 📗

said " ok im going to go order it call you when it gets here" "ok" i said. Matt left the room i just layed there staring at the ceiling. I heard something, not just any something a voice. A voice that made my hair from my arm stand up. i got off my bed to see who the owner of the voice was. i looked out my window and i saw Cameron James! Hes my neighbor! this makes sense now i knew i had seen him somewhere well at least i had seen his back. AWKAWRD. " hey, um why are you just staring?" a deep voice asked. oh god ive been distracted i didn't see that he noticed me staring."um sorry i heard you singing and i just i don't know i just.." oh god im babbling now. im just going to shut up now maybe hell forget it if i walk away. "so your the new kid" he said. When Kyle said that he asked and was sweet but when Cameron said it he kinda just stated it. There was nothing in his voice. i felt uncomfortable talking to him. "um.. yeah i am" i answered. But before any of us could say anything else Matt came in. "Hey pizza's here.... what are you doing?" he asked getting closer to the window seeing that it was Cameron i was talking to. i was expecting a bad reaction of my brother because he is always so protective but instead of a frown or a look he had a smile on his face!!!!!! yes a smile plastered on his face matching Cameron's i was so confused. " wow, Matt your my new neighbor!?!" Cameron asked. "dude this is awesome" Matt said. Then they started talking about football.Like they weren't talking threw my window.AWKWARD. i did a little cough letting them know i was still here. They both look up at me. "oh hey Cameron this is my lil sis alex" Matt said to Cameron wrapping his arms around me. " and Alex this is Cameron my buddy from football camp" Matt explained to me.
oh yeah camp. he left me during the summer to go to camp, thats when everything went down hill. "im going to go eat pizza so nice to meet you Cameron and see you down stairs Matt" i said breaking my own thoughts. i went down stairs eating 2 slices of pizza and passing out in the couch while watching tv.
Nightmare

His hands pulling me down, i couldn't move. "help" i screamed. but no one could hear me. The smell of alcohol in his breath made me quizzy. His hands were rubbing my thighs making me shiver. I felt his hands move to my breasts, he squeezed them making me scream louder. I look up at those blue eyes that i once looked up to but now terrified. "please" i pleaded. Instead of stopping he started to pull his pants down. i felt him trying to do the same to me. i scream louder.i gave up he was to strong. he seemed pleased i stopped screaming. "Thats a good girl' he said.

"Alex, wake up" a voice yelled. i woke up panting trying to catch my breath. i look up glad to see it was just dream. But there were two concerned boys in front of me. "Alex are you ok?" Matt said to me. " uhh yeah i am why wouldnt i be" i said to him. "um..you were screaming your lungs out just a couple of seconds ago" my brother said accusingly. I look at Cameron for an answer but instead i see him looking at me with such a blank face. He stood there staring at me until he asked "Are you sure your ok?" "Oh yeah um.... of course i am it was from that scary movie i just saw i guess i fell a sleep still dreaming about..freddy krueger. yeah i know i am such a baby"i said to the two boys. They both nodded but Matt looked back at me he wasnt convinced. great im going to hear about this later.FREDDY KRUEGER really alex!! wow suave.
i went upstairs to my room i had to do my homework. ugh i hate homework but it kept me busy for an hour or two. i heard a knock at my door and Matt came in. I felt his stare as my eyes where glued to my homework. i really didnt want to talk about what happened earlier. i thought he was going to yell at me or something but instead he spoke in a soft voice " Alex ..do ..do you..are you ok?" "Yeah im ok so whats up?" i asked. He stood there looking at me making sure i was ok. "nothing just got bored" he said. " oh well want to watch a movie here?" i said. "yeah, want to watch the dark knight?" he asked. "sure"
i woke up with Matt next to me on my bed snoring. Haha he looks so cute when hes sleeping. i tried to get off my bed slowly so i wouldnt wake him up. i walked in the hallway it was very dark, wonder if mom got home? i look to peek in her door she was asleep. i walked to the kitchen to get a drink of water. i stood there with a glass of water in the middle of my kitchen with all the light off. AWKWARD. haha i need fresh air. i walked out my door to lay on my lawn. the stars were so bright. "Alex wake up" a voice called to me. i look up and its no other than Cameron James.

Cool night

"Alex what are you doing outside?"asked Cameron. i cant believe i fell asleep outside!! "uhh i just..wanted to um go get some fresh air" i said. "ohh" he replied like that explained why i fell asleep outside. He just stood there for a minute, then he just sat down next to me. It was very quiet but the thing is the silence was nice it wasn't those awkward ones. i just looked up at the stars when i felt his eyes on me. I didn't want to look at him so i just left my eyes on the stars. It was so dark the only light was coming from the moon and stars. It felt kinda weird, i mean i don't even know him and here i am sitting next to him outside in the dark ALONE. " Its so cool out huh?" he said breaking the silence. i didn't realize i was holding my breath until his eyes met mine, i swear i think he knew what i was thinking. "yeah but the cool air feels nice" i said trying to sound normal. He looked at me and smiled i couldn't help but blush oh god

i didn't realize im wearing tinker bell pajamas, with a baggy shirt and my hair is a mess and I have no make up AND i just got out of bed. WOW, what am i thinking i never get insecure for a boy. ALEX just stop he is just a boy a really cute boy thats all, with really beautiful blue eyes.

oh god this wont be easy. i looked down trying to busy myself by playing with the grass. "arent you cold?" he asked. now that he mentioned it i just realized ive been shacking non stop. "um...no im good." "here this will help". Cameron gave me his leather jacket!!!! a cute, scratch that a HOT boy just gave me his leather jacket!! Oh god if my friend jenny from back home were to see this she would be so proud. "thanks" i said atleast i thought i said that but it sounded more like "dwfajs" wow alex suave.. I turn to see he is laughing at me. "dont laugh at me " i said swatting him "haha sorry i just cant help it" he said smiling. we just sat there smiling at each other. next thing i know were so close that i can feel his warm breath on my lips. He lifts his hand and pushes my hair behind my ear thats a good girl

"i better get home" i blurted out. i didnt even give him a chance to say anything, i ran home without looking back.

my new tutor

ring ring rrinnggggg!!!!

uhh i dont want to go to school, i dont think i can look at cameron the same. Will he mention it? or will he be mad?? im stressing out!!!! "Alexxx get your ass downstairs before i leave you!!" matt yelled. "coming!" i yelled as i was getting dressed. "finally" matt said. "whatever" i replied taking his cereal from his hands, he gave me a look, "that was mine" he whined. "lets go to school" i laughed walking towards the door. when we got to school our car was surrounded by matts new buddies. ugh i hate crowds i was looking around for Lacey when i tripped on someones foot and ended on top of someone. "wow, i knew you were going to fall head over heels for me but i didnt imagine it like this,..and... well so soon" blaine said cockly with a smile. " yeah i didnt imagine it like this either or anything at