lost, cristal santos aka dancingmilklover246 [elon musk reading list .TXT] 📗

one she truly loved when her abusive father found out he killed him and blamed it on a car crash he had. I sit there thinking. When I see its 5 minutes before seven I walk back down to my bedroom and open the door slowly. I walk in and I see her standing in front of the mirror, staring. She looked beautiful; her hair was done in little ringlets cascading down her back reaching lower than her waist. The dress they put her in is a blood red dress with a black lace ribbon under neath her breasts. The black high hells made her legs go on forever and her face her beautiful face was almost clear of makeup, except her eyes. They made her eyes shine and dark like her dress, her lips were a glossy red, so kissable sigh outs loud by mistake and she turns around not noticing me there by the door. I blush and she smile lightly. I have a matching red tie with my black tux. For a moment I was compelled to pull her into my arms. I shake my head. No I can’t think that. This marriage thing is stupid. I’m the head football player. I’m perfect jock and I can get anyone I want. I frown and I see her smile turn down and her head avert towards the ground. I go towards her and put my hand out, but she shrugs and walks ahead looking back at me and frowning deeply. I curse myself. As I walk downstairs I see the group of people and Te chatter of everyone.

The night passes slowly. By 8 30 dinner was over and we were in the ball room talking and mingling when Sarah my ex coming up to me. She kissed me on the lips and pulled me into a hug. Violet sees me and walks away. I pull out of Saras grasp and walk towards violet. She’s walked into the library, the most perfect room in this house. I see her sit down and I barge in. “what are you doing in here?” She looks at me and shrugs. I sigh frustrated. I walk up to her and kiss her lightly; I was going to deepen the kiss when I fell her pull away and slap my face. She steps back tear sin her eyes, she looks angry but I get angry, I don’t know why. “Why are you mad?” I huff. The tears pour slightly down and say “I’m getting married to you, the biggest player football captain in the school,” I get even angrier, “what wrong with that?” I’m guessing I hit a hard core because she burst out screaming at me with tears running down her porcelain face. “You know why! Earlier in our room my friends send me texts and upshots of them on their 3 month aniversery.They found there soul mates, they love each other. There happy knowing everyday that they belong to etch other but I don’t get that. I don’t get to fall in love, I’m stuck here. .” she huffs. “That’s why I’m in here.” I look at her and my thoughts go to chase. I blurt his name out before I have a chance. “Chase.” She looks at me hurt and confusion clouding her face. “You loved that boy, chase but he’s gone. Your hurt isn’t you” she starts sobbing again. I blow up when she doesn’t respond. “So what your guilty, it was your fault wisent it! You had to fall in love with him, you new better but you decided not to follow the rules. You know where that got him, loving you cost him his life. It that what goanna cost me, me loving you one day am I goanna find myself stabbed I the back or poisoned?” she falls to her feet clutching for air as she sobs. I knew chase was a touchy subject for her but I couldn’t stop. I wanted her to know I loved her but I was scared so I became a total jerk. “You killed him. You killed him slowly everyday with each kiss you gave him; he could be alive at this second, falling in love with a new girl or graduating this year. But he’s gone. His parents must be devastated! Ha well you caused that” she screams for me to stop but I keep going, thinking of every bad thing I can think of hurting her the most I could until she ran out of the room crying. I stop when I hear her run upstairs and stand there my hands at my sides. Staring at the wall my fist curling up at my sides. My brother and father come barging in confusion on their faces. I push past them walking out the front door instead of driving I start walking. Don’t know were just walking. I end up at peters house my best friend. I walk in and find him watching a movie in the den. I explain OT him how she made me feel and the n the anger and then I told him and he called Chris and max to come over. They let me borrow his jeans and a white shirt, they took me down to local club were all the kids at school always go. I sulk there drinking water while my friends got wasted and danced with all the girls. I tried but my thoughts were focused on violet. When I saw her today I was mad fuming down stairs to yell at my parents for something and I see her and my heart melts completely. I wanted to hold her she was so beautiful it was like seeing the stars at night for the very first time.


Violet pov.

I ran from the room crying and trying hard to breath. He said those things, they hurt I almost believed them. I am so upset my hearts just got broken a second time. I run upstairs ignoring the people who follow. I reassure them I just need some time alone. As I walk into my bedroom I start towards the bed when my head starts drooping. I almost fall but catch myself, the next step I fall and my breathing gets shallow and uneven. I fall into darkness as I close my eyes and leave the world.


Parker’s pov.


A half hour later I gather my friends and drop them at their house. As I walk back home I plug my iPod in and pick the first song that came to mind. I tried texting her I’m sorry.

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can’t see where this is gonna end
They all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
Dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing

[Verse 2]
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I faced her face, that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
Dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing

She said nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
Oh, I got nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Ohm, sometimes love's intoxicating
Ohm, you're coming down, your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
Dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing

She said nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
I got nothing
I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Ohm I got nothing

I got nothing [x3]

I come to my front door and I enter. The party’s gone down a few people mingle with my parents and Julian. I slip by them and start walk upstairs to my bedroom. I walk in to find all the lights on and violet on the floor her breathing shallow. I run to her and pick her up. Her pulse is slow and she feels cold. I pick her up and I run downstairs careful not to frop her. I call her name on the way down but she won’t respond. I run into the ballroom and Julian and my parent’s immediate y come to my side. My mom grabs her keys and we all hurry out to go to the hospital.

When we get there, they put her in a room and oxygen tube in her nose, her breathing has shallower out but she’s cold and pale. The doctor asked if she had medication and if she took them. I knew she does but I wasn’t sure if she took them then he asked the question I had the answer to, ahs she gotten stressed lately, upset emotional? I blush ashamed, “yes she and I had an argument a few hours ago.” The doctor nods his head. “She might not have taken her meds and then the emotion seemed to build up to things. You’re lucky you got here in time. She was loosing oxygen.” He nods at me “you may take her home when she wakes up.” He shakes my hand and walk out of the room. I sit next to her wailing.


Violets pov.

I woke up in a hospital bed parker asleep next to me, I sit up and a nurse come in. she takes way the oxygen mask and hands me some medication. I gulp it down and get out of the bed. I dress and without waking up parker grab my things and walk out of the room. I make it as far as the waiting room when I see Clara Charles and Julian waiting talking softly to them, Clara hugs me and then looks down the hall to were parker was walking down coming towards us. He stands a few