Forbidden Desire, Ritesh Prasad [chrysanthemum read aloud .TXT] 📗

minutes. She answered.

“Hey Jiju….Happy New Year!!!!”

“Same to you my little Princess!!!!! Please pass the phone to Sakshi” I said balancing myself.

She shouted “Sakshi o Sakshi!!!…”.while I could hear the loud music at the background. There was no response. I was still holding the phone.

“I asked her why don’t you go and give her the phone. She might not hear your voice because of the loud music.”

“Okay,” she said and went…. She then voiced back that Sakshi is busy on another call will call you in just few minutes.

“What the hell!!!!!! Ask her no need to call me anymore. She can enjoy talking to whomsoever she is entertaining.” I said and disconnected the call and threw the cellphone on the bed.

“Hey Hey Man take is easy!!!! Is everything all right?” Sanjeev was observing me and was taken aback by my action.

“Nothing is right my friend….. She is changing…. I am telling you Sanjeev and take my words if this continues I won’t thing our relationship will survive more than few months.”

“What are you talking? You are drunk my friend. Please stop and go to bed.”

“Do hell with your advice!!!!!!! Yes I am drunk but that doesn’t mean I don’t know what I am speaking. My relationship is going to end soon. It’s not the alcohol speaking but it’s my intuition that is giving the verdict about the fate of my relationship with her… I bet you!!!! It’s over man.” I said and misbalance and fell flat on the bed.

 

While I was still lying I heard the sound of my mobile ringing… Sanjeev picks the cellphone and says “Its Sakshi!!!! Go speak to her.”

 

I asked him to disconnect. I don’t want her favour but instead, Sanjeev went to the kitchen and answered her call. He came after few minutes and said. I told her that you are very much upset since she is not here with you. She replied she is really feeling bad the way you are behaving now a days. She wished you Happy New Year and asked you to call her when you are in mood to talk.

 

“She is feeling bad because of my behavior!!!! What rubbish? I am the one who is suffering because of all her attitude and carelessness. It was she who spoiled our New Year Party just because to attend that bullshit Vimal’s sister wedding, and you are also blaming me….Don’t you dare take her side.” I said getting up from the bed.

 

“I can understand Rohit...but you also try to understand might be she was helpless and had to oblige to Vimal’s family request.” Sanjeev tried to console me.

Agreed…. I would have had no problem, if she had told me the truth beforehand that she need to attend the wedding there in Kharagpur and will not able to be with me here. But she lied me and this is not the first time she had done this. Despite of my repeated warnings she still keeps on hiding things from me and this is killing me.

 

I can understand Rohit… you are upset. He said trying to calm me down.

 

No Sanjeev…You can’t understand this is killing me from inside…it really hurts. I screamed.

“If she after being with me for four years can’t understand my sufferings, how could you? I am ready to accept and would appreciate even if she comes and confess if she is in love with another guy wants to leave me. I can forgive her for that as well.”

“What rubbish, You are insane.!!!!. Your mind is corrupted with the over drinking. I have known Sakshi for many years even before you came to Kolkata. She is not that type of girl. She is committed to you. Take my words.” He assured me.

 

“I wish and pray what you said is correct and my intuition is proved wrong this time. We have reach so far in our relationship that now it’s impossible for me to take back steps. We were never lovers. I have always treated her like my wife. There is not a single thing that she had not done for that a wife does…except conceiving a child!!!!!. She has cooked for me, she has washed my clothes even my undergarments, and we sat in puja like husband and wife. I have put vermilion on her forehead on one occasion on her insist... So you see we are ritually married, only after this we opened to lovemaking.

 

“I have never check her mobile nor do i ask where she goes, whom she meets who are friends etc etc. But she keeps on checking my calls my SMS. Even if I am talking to any lady from office I need to give her explanations. I have faced this since beginning of our relationship but I never took those things seriously. I have overlooked those because of her immaturity. Forget about having affair with any girl I have not even touch a girl in these past four years. On the contrary I have always given her own space. I have just begged her one thing that is transparency in our relationship….that’s it. So now tell me where am I wrong??? But there has many instances when she has hided things for me. Be it going movies with her college friends, be it her classmates giving her expensive gifts or be it the blunder the Asif’s incident. She had disappointed me every time. Though I have forgiven her always and will continue forgiving her till my patience limit reaches its maximum. But if I found by any means she is cheating on me, I swear Sanjeev I will be her worst nightmare her entire life, she will regret on her this act. I never had an affectionate environment in my family. I always had this lust for true love which I found in Sakshi. I trust her more than myself. If this trusts broken I will be finished.” I said and tears started rolling from eyes.

 

“Comon Rohit calm down stop thinking negative…there is nothing like that. I know her very well. She will never do such things. Let her come back and sort out differences amicably.” He said coming near to me.

 

“Comon lets have dinner, we had enough of drinking.” He said turning the television. We had dinner and I went to bed. I was so disturbed I needed peace badly.

 

I didn’t talk to her for the next two days. But it was on my mind she was supposed to return on 3rd. But when I called on the same date to confirm whether she was coming. Her reply was she will be finally return on 5th. I was already pissed off with her behavior and this statement further sparked my anger.

 

“What the hell is going on Sakshi? Are you interested in coming back or not?? I really want to know now.”

 

“Why are you so desperate about calling me back? I am not running anywhere. I will back day after tomorrow.”

 

“Have you forgotten that our 4th Anniversary is coming? Do I need to remind you on this as well? How could you Sakshi???”

 

“Ohhhh Rohit I know but it’s on 6th and I will be back on 5th ticket is already booked.” She said calmly as if it didn’t bother her in anyways.

 

“Great do as you like. I have noticed you don’t care for me these days. But I am warning you beforehand. If you are not here with me on 6th you dare be ready to face the consequences.”

 

“Rohit calm down, no need to get so hyper. I will be right there with you on our Anniversary”

 

“You better be Sakshi… this day means a lot to me.” I said cooling my breath.

 

“Yeah it’s for both us. Don’t worry I will be back.” She said with confident.

 

“Let see. Time will prove that.” I said and disconnected the call.

 

It was really hard for me to believe. Sakshi was doing this to me. The same person who could not even spend a single day without hearing my voice. It was 5th January 2010, I was so occupied with my work in office so I could not call her the entire day. I returned late from office that day and while in cab I checked my mobile there was no call from her neither any message it was just few minutes left to strike 12:00 am in my watch. My head started spinning I was sure she is not back. Had she been, she would have definitely called me.

I reached home in frustration kept my mobile aside and went to sleep. Just within minutes my mobile started ringing with flashing her name and I answered her call.

8. 6th January 2010: Fourth Love Anniversary

 

6th January 2010: Fourth Love Anniversary

 

“Hey Janu….Happy Anniversary!!!!!!!! I love you so much.”

 

“Stop cajoling! first tell me where are you?? I questioned her straight.

 

“Sorry babbby please please don’t get angry!!!!! The traffic was so bad we got stuck and missed our train.”

“What the hell? You have missed our anniversary. I don’t believe this. How could you be such irresponsible?” I said and was just speechless after that.

 

“Rohit I am really sorry, but it’s because of Vimal we got late. I was insisting him to leave early from home but he said no need to worry. He and his friend will drop us to station in bike. It hardly takes an hour from home and in the midway his bike tyre got punctured and he could not find any garage nearby.”

 

“I don’t want to listen what happened? Whose fault was this? Etc. The fact is that this is our 4th anniversary and you are not with me… Great now I have no words to say.”

 

“Babyyy please stop being hyper, I told you it was not my fault.”

 

“Ohh yes it was not yours… I should be responsible for all this as I allowed you to go there to spend X-Mas for two days and see more than two weeks you are still there. You are such a liar; I will never forgive you for this. You had planned everything intentionally. I have nothing to say now.” I said and disconnected the call.

 

I love her so much but she has really disappointed me badly this time with her behavior. I was sitting on bed while putting my both hands on my head in despair. The next moment my cellphone started ringing again and I answered.

 

“Rohit please listen to me once!!!!” was her voice over the phone almost pleading.

 

“What do you want now? Just leave me ALONEEEEEEEEEEE.” I screamed so hard that I almost lost my breath.

 

“Babyyy please forgive me. I know you are upset with me. But I really really love you.”

 

Sakshi your mere words can’t heal my pain. Do you realize how important is the day for us??

 

I do babbyyy.. I am really feeling bad. Please don’t fight for God sake its our anniversary today. She said crying.

 

“Yes that is why I am feeling worse. You ruined our party I didn’t say anything but today you ruined our anniversary. What do you expect from me? Shall I dance???” I said with frustration.

 

“Okay…why don’t you come here catching the morning train? You will reach here by evening. We can still celebrate our day.”

 

“Yes it’s simply said and done. As if I am sitting idle, I work somewhere Sakshi