Forbidden Desire, Ritesh Prasad [chrysanthemum read aloud .TXT] 📗

and I have some responsibility.”

 

“Even if I come there… we can’t get the returning train. So I need to bunk office for two days. It’s hardly just been few months and you want me to bunk office for two days. Do you realize that can cost my job?” I shouted.

“I am really sorry babbyy.” She pleaded again.

 

“Stop!!!! Your sorry can’t bring our day back. You have ruined our day that’s a fact and I am not going to forgive you for this. You said I was over reacting, getting hyper, I am insane etc… I promise I will not say a single word, come whenever you feel like returning. Happy Anniversary!!!!! Though there is nothing happy about it.” I said and disconnected the call. She called me back but this time I switched off my mobile.

 

I was in so much of frustration. How could she do this to me? I just became dumb and sat there on bed. Instead of being happy on our 4th anniversary I was mourning.

 

I didn’t call her after that incident and few days passed in similar fashion. One after I was lying on bed watching television my mobile ringed and it was Nisha calling. I picked up the phone and answered.

 

“Hey Rohit!!!! How are you doing?” She enquired

“Fine.” I said in crisp.

“Why are you sounding so low?? Is everything okay??? Did you have fight with your girlfriend again???” She asked too many question in one breath.

“Yes. I am little upset these days.”

“So I am right you had a fight with her? I am sorry I can’t recall; what is her name? Though you have told me several times but every time it gets out of mind.” She said in hesitation.

 

“You don’t need to sorry, it happens sometimes with people. Her name is Sakshi.”

“Ohhh yes Sakshi!!!!. I will try to remember this time for sure. By the way how she is? And why did you have a fight?”

I narrated her entire story how she faked me and went to attend Vimal’s sister wedding and till date she is not back. I further said I have not talked to her since 6th January the day of our anniversary.

 

“Ohhhh so you are upset because she was not with you on the anniversary day. Common Rohit!!! There might be some genuine reason.” She said trying to console me.

“How come Nisha….do you still believe her words even after I narrated everything that happened till date. You are a girl too you can better understand this.” I said questioning her back.

“Hmmmm Rohit… I agree with you…though it’s hard to believe but not impossible. That’s all I can say, because I don’t know her personally but after listening to your narration of the entire incident one thing that comes to mind is, she is now taking you for granted, though I can’t assure you but situation is indicating the same and the best way to find out this is, you should have a word with her in this regard with cool head.” She advised me.

 

“Yeah even I am thinking of the same plan of action. Thanks Nisha you are the best person to consult when I am trap in any situation.”

 

“Ohhh Rohit, it’s nothing like that, stop flattering me.” She said laughing and we diverted the topic from Sakshi to something else.

 

I tried to keep myself busy with my office and friends. Though I felt like calling her couples of times but somehow I managed to resist my temptation. It was almost a week we had not talked to each other.

 

It was 16th January I was still on bed. I heard my phone ringing I checked it was flashing Sakshi’s name; and I answered.

 

“Babby I am back in Kolkata…Hope you are happy now.” There was a voice from other end.

“Ohhh great so you are finally back. Thanks for coming. I had thought you wouldn’t be back before two months like last time.” I said taunting her.

 

“Ohhh Rohit… please don’t start it again we already had enough of this over phone and if you still want to hold grudges on that then its better I should disconnect the call.”

 

“Don’t you dare do that? Sakshi I want to talk to you and I want you to reach my flat as quickly as possible.” I dictated her.

“Okay fine…even I need talk with you. I will be there in afternoon. She said and disconnected the call.

“I strangely looked at the phone and was about to call her back but then thought let her come I will talk to her face to face.”

 

Around 4 pm in the evening she entered my flat kept her handbag aside and sat near the rear of my bed. Without paying much heed to her presence I was there on bed watching television and still surfing channels. She stood moved forward and switched off the television. I didn’t say anything on her this action and stood and went straight to kitchen to fetch the match box and lighted one cigarette and then stood by the window while she was still sitting on bed. We kept silence for few minutes in the same position.

 

“So what is your problem, tell me?? Why are you so quiet now? I am here to listen everything.” She said staring at me.

I looked at her and then drifted my face outside without uttering a word.

 

“What happened? Don’t you have anything to say??? When I was there in Kharagpur you were behaving like a paranoid. What happened now? Speak up Rohit!!!!” She screamed being irritated by my act.

 

“What should I say? I am not finding words; you have already done the damage our anniversary celebration was ruined just because of you.” I said turning my face towards her

 

“Rohit I have apologizes several times for this. You know very well I didn’t do this intentionally. It was just I had to obliged to their request.”

 

“But you said marriage was on 3rd and you are now returning on 15th. What the hell were you doing still for so many days?” She just kept mute looking at the floor.

 

“Speak up now what happened to you??” I said trying to be as calm as possible.

 

“Rohit I was about to come….” She was about to continue but her mobile rings, she takes the call and goes to kitchen, I didn’t say a single word to her and stood in same position for couple of minutes waiting for her to come back, but she didn’t and my patience crossed its limit. I rushed in the kitchen and found she was engrossed on her telephonic conversation with someone and laughing with her back side facing me. I went straight and snatched mobile from her hand, I checked the screen was flashing with Vimal’s name. This really pissed me off more and I slammed her mobile with full strength on the floor and it shattered into pieces.

Damn it!!!!! I shouted and “Thassssssssssshhhhhh”, there was sound of a tight slap on her face and pin drop silence after that moment. I came near her looked straight in her eyes and grabbed her by her arms and shouted “What the hell is going on between you and Vimal??” Her left cheek had turned red and tears slowly started rolling out of her eyes but she didn’t utter a word.

 

I jerked her once again holding her arms, “Speak up Sakshi???” I shouted.

She said, “Rohit please leave my arms, you are hurting me badly and started crying profusely and I loosed my grip.”

 

This was the first time I had turned so abusive and violent. I have never acted so insane ever in last 4 years. Though we used to have arguments and conflicts but today it happened something extreme. She was leaning on the wall with her swollen face and looking outside the window and I was there standing like statue. We were there in the same position for couple of minutes. Then I don’t know what happened to me I went straight to other room and started searching for something madly I ransack everything while she was still in kitchen. I found what I was looking for, I took the new blade it was shining like sword as the evening sunset rays fell on it and then i looked at my right palm and closed my eyes. I placed the blade there and gripped my fist tight and stood near the window like that. There was complete silence…. no noise of screaming or crying from anywhere.

 

Few moments later she entered the room and gave me a look before turning and went straight near the bed bended forward to pick her handbag. I was looking at her all this while standing near the window. Her eyes met the white marble floor which was now wet with red liquid. She looked at me and screamed “Rohittttttttttttttttttt”   running towards me and she took my hand tried to open my fingers which was still in grip and blood was running profusely. She was crying and screaming “For God sake open your palm” I was just numb. It was so strange that I was not feeling any pain that moment. She repeated again “Rohit pleaseeeee open it” and I did. The sight of my palm was horrific the blade was stuck and hanging in my middle finger. She pulled the blade with a jerk and the blood started oozing more her white kurta drenched completely with my blood and turned red, my jeans was also partially covered in red. I started feeling pain suddenly and she was madly looking for a cloth to tie my finger. She took out the handkerchief from her handbag and came rushing towards me.

She was crying and tying the hanky in my finger and somehow she managed to stop the blood flow. The pain became unbearable for me but still I stood in the same position. She pushed and put me on bed.

 

“What the hell is wrong with you? Do you want to kill yourself???” She said still crying.

 

“I hurt you with the same hand so it deserved to be punished.” I said smilingly.

 

“You are really crazyyy…. Only insane people act like that.” She said checking my palm whether there was still any blood coming out of it or not.

 

“Come let’s go the Doctor’s clinic. It might be hurting you badly. They will do the dressing on your finger.” She said pulling me slightly.

 

“No its fine… I can bear the pain. I should make myself realized what it feels like hurting someone.”

 

“Stop your foolish arguments…come lets go.” She said pulling me again.

 

“Comon Sakshi it’s just a minor cut, doesn’t needs a dressing, it will heal on its own in few days.” I said pulling my hand back.

 

“You call this a minor almost a litre of blood is lost from your body, the white marble floor was almost red.”

 

“Ohhh Stop exaggerating, I am totally fine.” I said with a smile.

 

“You are impossible and you will always be like this….. Arrogant and Adamant. Have you listened to me ever that you will listen today? Do what you feel like doing.” She said and went to kitchen and bought a bucket filled with half water and started cleaning the floor which had turned red with my blood. I sat on the bed watching her. She finished her task and came back.

 

“What the hell shall I do with my dress? Mom will kill me if she finds what just happened. It’s all because of your stupidity.” She said staring at me.

 

“Go change your clothes in the bathroom and check some of my old t- shirts it might serve your purpose.” I said smilingly.

 

She gave a dread look and took one of my old red t-shirt and track pant and went to bathroom to change.

 

In the meantime I called Sanjeev and explained him everything that just happened and asked him to go aunt’s house and get a dress of Sakshi very shrewdly with the help of Raju. I reminded him twice that he needs to be careful if aunty catches them, we all might