Forbidden Desire, Ritesh Prasad [chrysanthemum read aloud .TXT] 📗

answer from you. You can’t dump me this way giving silly excuses.” I screamed.

 

“Rohit those were the most beautiful moments of my life that I will cherish forever.” She said looking straight with her moisten eyes.

 

“Is this your final decision Sakshi?” I said holding her arms and looking into her eyes.

 

“Yes Rohit…. Believe me it’s not your fault. We were destined to be parted this way. You will forever remain in my heart.” She said drifting her eyes.

 

“If that’s true…why can’t you say that looking into my eyes?” I doubted her statement.

 

“Rohit I mean it…its over, we will never meet after today.” She said and turned towards door to leave.

 

“Okay fine, you are free to go but only on one condition.” I said holding her wrist.

“What??” She said turning back to me.

 

“Sakshi slap me hard twice before you leave forever out of this flat and my life!!!!!” I said with tears rolling down my cheeks.

 

“What!!!!! Are you crazy??? I can’t do this.”

 

“You will have to do this! Go ahead and slap me twice on my face. It should be so hard that my heart should feel the pain and doesn’t ever dare to fall in love ever. Comon do as I say.” I said and closed my eyes.

 

“No I am not going to do anything like that. Wish you all the best for your life ahead.” She said and was about to leave.

 

“Don’t you understand, Damn I mean it !!!!!! You can’t leave from this room until you slap me tight.” I said and went ahead and closed the door from inside.

 

You forgot everything so easily because you were pressurize from your family. You have no right to ruin my life this way. Why the hell you took so long to take such decision then??? We announce our marriage almost two years back….right??? You had time of the world to confess this to me earlier. Why at the last moment?? When everything was going so perfect. I am feeling so guilty that I have involved my Mom in this and how she will bear this shame when my family members and relatives will start questioning her about my marriage. Have you ever realized that???

 

“I wanted but could not courage myself enough to confront this earlier. I tried to behave weird and act rude with you intentionally, hoping that you will start hating me and eventually leave me, but u didn’t. Rohit, please let me go now.” She said pushing me.

 

“Sakshi I am not like you, I didn’t love so madly to leave you one day like this. Sakshi If you want to get rid of me completely than go ahead and do as I say. Your slap will always remind me of my blunder. It might be easy for you to forget everything but for me it’s impossible. God has given you women a soft body but a strong heart but Men though tough by body are very fragile by heart. You women are so strong by heart that you can overcome any sufferings but for men it’s very hard to handle heartbreak. That is why at the end its men who suffers. I deserve it Sakshi, common slap me.” I said pushing her near to my bed.

 

“Okay…..if this will pacify you then it’s fine. She said and slapped me twice quickly”

 

“No Sakshi…I didn’t feel anything it should be so hard that not only my body but my soul should feel it.” I said and sat on bed with my eyes closed while she was standing in front of me.

 

Thaaaassssssshhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! There was complete silence and then I turned my face for the other Thaaaaaaaaassssssssssssshhhhhhhhh!!!!. The second slap. I felt warmness on my both cheeks. I opened my eyes; it was really hard to believe that she actually slapped me so hard. This proved that she is determined and prepared to leave me now at any cost no matter whatever the reason may be. I sat like there in the same position there were no more tears in my eyes I was gazing the wall steadily.

 

“Take leave from office for few days and go home. Spend some time with your family you will feel better.” She said and turned back to leave.

 

“Sakshi for the last four and half years my life revolve around you only and suddenly you are leaving me. I understood very well with your two tight slaps that you are out of my life forever and it doesn’t affect you much, but my heart won’t understand that easily it needs some time to adjust. Promise me you will receive my call whenever I get impatient, because I know I will miss you badly soon after you leave my flat.

 

“Rohit I promise …. We will always keep in touch.” She hugged me lightly and was about to kiss.

 

“Nooooooo!!!!!!. I said drifting my face to other side not allowing her to kiss me.

 

“Rohit!!!!! Won’t you allow me for the last time” She said holding my face in her palms.

 

“Just leave immediately Sakshi!!!!!!!Before I lose my patience and become a devil.” I said drifting my face and pointing my finger towards the main door.

 

“Okay fine….Bye and take care of yourself!!!!” She said… opened the door and exited in seconds.

 

“Those were the last words I heard from her.” I was still sitting there on bed helplessly. It felt my world crashed with a thunder. It was still hard to believe she was no more in my life.

 

It was afternoon, I can still vividly remember that day, and it was the longest day of my life. That entire afternoon I passed viewing our snaps and videos and it reminded me of our old days together. It was hard to believe everything was history now. In the evening I bought I large bottle of Royal Stag whiskey and a packet of cigarettes. I came to the room and switched on the television and started surfing channels but it didn’t interest me so turned it off. I bought the glass and started having one after another peg. In the meantime I kept on checking my mobile hoping that she would call me but every time I was disappointed, within few hours the bottle was three quartered emptied and I don’t know when I fall asleep.

 

I had a very tight sleep that night and when I woke up it was around 11 am next day morning. I thought of going to office but the next moment I discarded the idea. I got up from bed and the first thing that came to my mind was her face. The way she used to text me “Good Morning Babbyy” every day, with the same hope i checked my mobile, but there was none. I felt like a sharp pain within every time I realized it was over. I blamed myself for our breakup. Why she left me, it was still unclear? It was hard to digest her statement that because of family pressure she quit the relationship. So many thoughts kept hitting my mind, was it because of my hyper attitude that she always complained the reason of our breakup?? Yes it was true; sometimes I was very rude with her. I was in so much stress and I vented all my anger of my failures on her. But that was a years back now everything was fine and had she been unhappy she would had never agreed on my marriage proposal. I thought of Vimal, was she having affair with him?? But it was hard for me to raise finger on her loyalty. She had vouched of her late Dad that she was not having affair with anyone. She can’t lie to me to this extent. So I dropped that thought immediately. I kept on thinking but couldn’t get into any conclusion. May be it was true, she was actually scared of the family pressure so decided to quit, I said to myself. I shouldn’t have let her go like this way; I was weak on convincing her. I should have given this one more try. With all those thoughts I got up from the bed.

 

I didn’t felt like cooking or eating. Every corner of my flat which had witness 3 years of our courtship taunted me of her presence everywhere; in the kitchen, bathroom , balcony, on the bed and in everything thing I did, while eating, sleeping, bathing, cooking, watching television in everything. There were so many memories of some many things it was hard to erase. When there was a slight buzz in the main gate, my heart felt it was her, whenever my cellphone had a beep tone I thought it was her message, or when it ringed I felt she was calling. The effect of her absence made my life miserable; it was true I was addicted to her love and care. I have been emotionally dependent on her to such extreme level that her absence was killing me from inside.

 

Why the hell I was so much dependent on her? Two three days I spend in similar manner. I didn’t even step out of my room I didn’t answered anyone’s call. I was confined to my flat. I went out only in the evening to buy whiskey and cigarettes. In these last three days she neither did call me or text me. The third day evening I was drinking as usual and watching our old videos which I had captured during her last birthday; same day when we announced our marriage. After watching it I felt her need so badly that I could not resisted myself from calling her. Finally I dialed her number and it ringed but there was no response, I tried again there was still no response and I madly kept on trying still there was no answered. I got frustrated and kept my mobile aside and started drinking again. After a while there a beep in my mobile, I checked.

 

“Please don’t call me anymore. I have moved on with my life.

I wish you all the best for your future.”

 

Damn I said. You have made my life hell and then wishing me all the best. I dialed her number again and it ringed still no response, I tried again and this time she answered.

 

“Why Sakshi, why are you doing this to me.” I said straight.

 

“Rohit, everything is over and you need to come out of the past.” She replied.

 

“It’s not easy said and done. I can’t Sakshi I want you back at any cost.”

 

“Rohit that is impossible I told you repeatedly.”

 

“How can you do this to me? I can’t live without you. Please reconsider your decision.” I literally begged her.

 

“Rohit you are getting insane. Please don’t irritate and let me sleep I am feeling very tired. I have office tomorrow.”

 

“Do hell with your office, I am completely ruined and you are bothered about your office.” I yelled at her.

 

“Rohit stop it!!!!!! And do mind your language stop behaving like roadside rowdies. Its late night and all my family members are sleeping.” She said being irked.

 

“I am sorry Sakshi; I don’t know what is happening to me. I think I will get paranoid if you are not there. Please give my life back.” I said in desperation.

Sakshi tell me honestly, are you having affair with someone??? For God sake tell me the truth.

 

“No I am not and I neither do I have such plans. Now happy, please let me sleep now.”

 

“Sakshi wait please don’t disconnect!!!!!! I want to talk to you.”

 

“Rohit, if you kept me calling like this you will never come out of this. Don’t call me ever again. It will be good for both of us. Good bye!!!!.” She said and disconnected the call.

 

I tried her calling back but it was switched off this time. Then I dialed Sanjeev’ s number and he answered.

 

“Hi Rohit, What’s up Man???” Is everything fine?

 

“No Sanjeev nothing is okay, my world has been shattered. Sanjeev please come to my place otherwise I don’t know what I will do to myself.”