Forbidden Desire, Ritesh Prasad [chrysanthemum read aloud .TXT] 📗

I said and started crying loudly over the phone.

 

“Hey Rohit what happened?? control yourself and stop crying. He said being astonished after hearing my voice.

 

“You just come quickly, if you want me to see alive.” I said in hiccupping voice.

 

“Hey Bro calm down, take it easy. Don’t worry I will reach there in few minutes.” He said and disconnected the call.

 

Within half an hour he reached my place. I hugged and started crying profusely. I narrated him the entire incident.

 

“What the hell??? So much happened in the last few days and you didn’t bother to inform me. Does Kaushik know about this?” He enquired.

 

“I don’t think he has any idea regarding this, if he had then would have definitely called me back.” I said wiping my eyes.

 

“I still could not believe a girl like Sakshi could do this.” He said with a shock expression.

 

“Sanjeev I want to get out of this quickly, please help me!!!!!” I begged him.

 

“This is just a bad phase, Don’t worry Rohit, with each passing day you will be fine.”

He had never in his wildest dream thought that he would find me in such pathetic situation. Sanjeev stayed at my place that night and I felt a bit better.

 

I tried to call Sakshi on few occasions after that day but her number was not reachable, I even send her few messages but she never reverted. I knew she was ignoring me now and slowly I also started accepting this. Love is nothing but an illusion and when you are in love you live in dreams and when this dreams shatters one day you feel like life is hell. It takes time to overcome this, it may take days or months or sometime even years to come out this fantasy. I tried my best to overcome my misery, I started going back to work again and tried to keep myself engaged as much as possible. I met Ankit in office and told him about our breakup. He was shocked to know this would ever happen to me. During weekends I would spend most of the part of the day with my friends. But at nights whenever I returned home, it haunted me with her memories. So I started drinking regularly to beat this stress and to have a peaceful sleep.

 

Life kept on moving and soon two weeks passed. It was Sunday evening I was having my drinks as usual and watching television and my cellphone ringed flashing Avani’s  name. I was surprised; what made her call me now when everything is over. First I thought I should avoid her call, what is point of having any terms with Sakshi’s relatives when we are no more in relationship. But the second moment I recall those sweet mischievous moments I had spent with Avani, she was always nice to me then why should I be rude to her, just because I had break with Sakshi? It was not justified so I answered when she ringed me second time.

 

“Hi Jiju….. Where are you?? Not picking my call.” She said as usual with her bubbly voice.

 

“Stop calling me Jiju anymore…Avani.” I said in straight tone.

 

“Hey… What happened???? Why are speaking in such low tone.” She enquired.

 

“Avani, aren’t you really aware of what had happened or you are pretending to act like this.” I said being irate with her such questions.

 

“No Jiju… I am really unaware; I was in Mumbai for couple of weeks visiting my Grandma’s place and returned just day before yesterday. Now tell me what exactly happened. Did you again get into brawl with Sakshi?? ohhhh Jiju now you both should stop fighting you are getting married in few months.” She said in her as usual talkative accent.

 

“Avani we are not getting married anymore… We had a break up.” I said raising my voice.

 

“What???? Are you serious? No this can’t be true…You broke up with her??? Why Jiju…what made you do so.” She replied in shock.

 

“I didn’t…she was the one who decided to end this because her Mom and Mahesh Uncle pressurize her to do so. “

 

“When did this happen??? Tell me in details.” She enquired further.

 

“Just two weeks back and I narrated her entire incident.

 

“I can’t believe this. I spoke to her over phone couple of times when I was in Mumbai but she never told me anything about this, in fact she was so normal while speaking that I never hinted anything like this would have happened.”

 

“What???? Are you sure??? You have spoken with her in between these days. I was awestruck… how Sakshi could not tell her anything about our breakup.

 

“Yes Jiju, in fact we even spoke when I was in train returning to Kolkata. But Jiju I am not that much surprised… I believe she can do this.” She said the very next moment and became quiet.

 

“What do you mean by that??” I got anxious.

 

“Jiju….. The reason that she gave you for breakup is all rubbish, how could you buy her statement so easily. Everyone knows that you too were getting married this year and suddenly her Mom and uncle are creating problems…it’s hard to believe. I know how and why this happened.

 

“Avani what do you want to say.” Please make it clear.

 

“Jiju….Its Vimal….. She ditched you because of him. As simple as that.”

 

“Stop Avani’s don’t put baseless allegations on her. Vimal is only her good friend and she is not having affair with anyone. She said to me swearing her late Dad.” I said countering her statement.

 

“You know that Vimal stays with us after joining his new job. But I am not sure if you are aware Sakshi visits our place quite often these days.”

 

“So what’s the big deal??? She used to come to your house even before.”

 

“True…but not that often.” But since Vimal started staying with us, she visits our place regularly and they go out together always when she is here. I am really sorry Jiju I should have told you about this incident much earlier. But I got so busy with my board exams preparations I could not call you.”

 

“What incident Avani?? Tell me clearly.” I asked being aggressive.

 

“It’s few month back incident when they had not joined this job. Sakshi had come to stay with us for few days, and accidently one night when I was preparing bed for sleep, while Sakshi was in bathroom taking shower and her cellphone ringed flashing with initial “V” I looked with surprised who is the V calling her at late night. I answered and the person on the phone enquired about Sakshi and I told her she is in bathroom. This “V” was none other but Vimal. She had saved her number with initial “V”. I asked him why you are calling her at such late hours. He didn’t responded well and disconnected the call saying ask her to call me when she is back. I don’t know why but I felt checking her call details and messages and but before I could do so Sakshi got out and asked me what I was doing with her cellphone. I told her it was Vimal over phone and has asked you to call him back. She took the phone from my hand and went out of the room, it was already past midnight and they talked over phone for around an hour that day.”

 

“What rubbish Avani!!!! I can’t believe you… Sakshi is not like that.”

 

“Yes even it was hard for me to believe. Then when she came back I confronted her, what the hell is going between you too. What is the point of you talking with Vimal at this odd hour for such long??”

 

She replied “it’s nothing like that and we are just good friends discussing some office issues .”

 

“I even told her why you are doing this with Jiju. Are you planning to ditch him?? And Jiju you won’t believe I was shocked with the reply that she gave.”

 

“What did she say??” I asked gulping the whiskey from my glass.

 

She said, “She now feels she took the decision of getting married in haste and is now feeling trapped.”

 

I rebuked her, “What the hell are you speaking, now when you both are about to get married in few months, you feel that you are not ready for this?? Are you out of your mind???”

 

“Ohhhh Avani please stop being dramatic!!!!! I have not ditched him in any case. You are just a kid and you won’t understand such things. Marriage is a very major decision can’t be taken just emotionally. It’s too late you go to sleep.” She said and turned to other side.

 

“Avani” I can’t believe a single word of your sentence. You must be mistaking. Even if God comes in front of me then also I will not agree to this. She loves me so much, and I know she is doing this because she is being emotionally pressurized by her Mom and uncle. You don’t know that her Mom has threatened to commit suicide if she marries me. Even I made blunder my doubting her intention and you can’t even imagine how bad fight we had on that day when I caught him talking with Vimal over phone.”

 

“I know Jiju…you slapped her on that day when you found she was talking with Vimal and later cut you finger with blade and she bandage your finger and cooked dinner and feed you with her own hands. I know that incident as she had narrated that to me in details. But what I found was few weeks later after that. I am not sure but there is definitely something brewing between the two. I doubt that her intimacy with Vimal could be the reason for your break up. I have seen a lot of snaps of them together in her mobile, I wanted to investigate more in details but I guess she knew my intention. So never leaves her mobile when she is here.”

 

“Avani…you are exaggerating their friendship. They are just good friends beside Vimal knows everything about our relationship. If there was something she would have confessed me. I have asked her several times.”

 

“Fine Jiju….if you can’t believe my words … please at least check her mobile once. You will find the truth on your own. I am sure there would be something that would break your false faith on her.” She asserted.

 

“Okay, if you say so, I will do that today itself.”

 

“But Jiju there is one request… please don’t reveal my name in all this. You know what I mean. It will create unnecessary tension between two families.”

 

“Ohhh sure Avani. You be rest assured. Thanks anyways my little princess.” I said and disconnected the call.

 

I poured whiskey in my glass and gulp one after another 3 shots. Last two weeks after our break was hell for me, I hardly have live a single moment of peace after that. I have kept on cursing my short temper and my erratic behavior for our break up, I was ready to go the extent level to bring her back in my life, even times I felt suicidal. Did she really cheat on me???? Can Sakshi really do this to me??? I said to myself. Whatever Avani said was hard for me to believe but I could not discard that completely as well. I had witness their closeness even during her birthday and the way she was busy texting him last time when she came here before she broke all ties with me. I again poured whiskey from the bottle in my glass and gulped it in one shot. All my answer will be in her phone; I said and checked time at the wall clock. It was about to 9 pm. I got up and looked for the main keys door. I put on shirt and jeans and went straight to her home. Aunty opened the door and was surprised to see me.

 

I asked her about Sakshi and she replied she is not yet back. There was nobody in home except me and Aunty,