Talking Eyes, Mia Lafreve Pedretti [beach read book .txt] 📗

you or lay his eyes off you, though he should act indifferently. Even if he never confessed to you, his fans understood however that he was and are even now in love with you. Because his eyes never stopped talking for him. For all this time. It's just that I noticed it too late." He revealed without breaking eye contact with me. It was as if he read in my mind. Creepy!

Yumi looked even angrier than before. "W-why would he act like that?" She asked him, like I wasn't there, but I knew she knew that I was there. In fact, while she kept talking, she gradually stopped to stare at him and turned her gaze on me. "Why he let me believe that he didn't feel anything towards me? Why? Why KWON JI YONG?" She used to call me by my name only when she was deadly serious. And now she was damn serious and mad. I could hear not just the anger, but also sadness in her voice. She stood up from the chair and towered over me.

I looked at her from below, a little scared that she would have kick my stupid ass. "Well..B-because of the fans." I whispered.

"The fans?" She got closer my chair.

I sighed, frustrated. "Yes, My lovely fans." I said at low voice. Just thinking about them, made me mad. Since they started to interfere in my private life, my life became a mess. Since they started to interfere, I didn't succeed in finding for myself a single girlfriend after the story with Kiko. The girls I hit on in the clubs, didn't stay with me too long, because they always ended up to avoid me after a few days. All because of my adorables fans had targeted them. Everywhere and anywhere they went, the sasaeng fans followed them and threatened them on the web and in the real life too. In the end, I never saw them again. I should have stayed single for my entire life according to their wishes. What kind of fans would want his Bias depressed and all alone? Just cruel people. If it wasn't for them, I would have already confessed to her and hooked up with the girl I liked, but they didn't let me be with no one. Don't misunderstand me I loved them, but they were such a pain in the ass, when they acted like that. You can't imagine.

The president tried to catch back her attention again, and calm her down too."Yumi." He called her. "It's what I was trying to explain earlier." She took her terrible gaze off me and laid it on the boss. "Ji Yong's fans can get really jealous, mad, and dangerous to any girl that goes too close to him. Or in your case, spend too much time with him. That's why he acted like that with you. That's why he treated you like a friend, but unfortunately they didn't fall in his trap. Don't get too mad at him and try to understand." He invited her to think on it. Luckily she calmed down, did as he said and she sat back on her spot.

Well, It hasn't been a bad idea that he stayed here after all. I thought thanking him with a smile. He sighed tiredly, but smiled back too.
 

 

YUMI

There had been a time that I believed he liked me back. A certain night, when he came to our dorm, with Choi Seunghyun Oppa. That night he questioned me about my past love stories and shamelessly flirted with me. It's just that, during the following days, weeks and months, he totally ignored me and acted as if nothing happened. He treated me like I was just an acquaintance. He visited me at nights, like he used to do, but it was like he wasn't really there. When I caught him spying on me, or sending me weird glances, he quickly turned his head away from me. And when I went to ask him why he was secretly looking at me, he made up lame excuses or just denied it. That thing got on my nerves. For all the time I kept asking myself if he was really interested in me or I was just imagining things. Luckily, now it all made sense. People don't stop to talk to you from a day to another. His cold attitude towards me has been all an act to protect me from his crazy fans. One side of me was angry at him for making me suffer for such long time, while on the other hand, I was...overly happy. He did all this stuff to protect me, because he likes me. I wanted to be sure thought, before jumping out of joy. "Is he telling the truth Ji Yong?" I asked him looking him directly in the eyes.

"Yes, it's true." He replied without breaking eye contact with me. He even smiled as to forgive himself for the bad attitude he had towards me.

I was breathless and wordless. And in disbelief too. Yes, really in disbelief. "Then that mean that.." My heart was already beating too fast to pronounce the following sentence. "That mean that you are in love with..me?" I felt my hands and back sweating like never before.

He smiled. Not a friend-smile, but like he did that night that he shamelessly flirted with me. It was the kind of smile the boys give you when they try to hit on you. I wasn't prepared so I blushed redder than a tomato. "Of course." He said like it was the most natural thing in the world. "I can't tell exactly when it happened.." He tried to remind me, pausing. "Our first meeting certainly had a big effect on me...I will never forget that day, but I think it happened slowly. And that night that I visited you with Choi Seunghyun it hit me. I realized that I wouldn't have like to stay just a friend to you." He said shaking his head. "I mean, I got jealous at every guy, Choi Seunghyun included, that got close to you. Or even touched you. I didn't understand why I felt so angry and jealous till that night." He confessed blushing. Wow. "Then I shamelessly flirted with you and wanted to do more, but Choi Seunghyun warned me that it would have been too dangerous to date you." He revealed. 

"I tried to stay away from you to protect you, but apparently it didn't work." He sighed frustrated. "It seems that staying away from you it's more difficult than I thought.." He said, then got more closer to me and touched my left hand lightly, which was resting on my legs. That simple touch made my heart skip a beat. "..It's strange have the chance to touch you so freely without cameras around.." He said continuing to caress me. But then he remembered that we weren't alone, so he stopped doing it. "I can't tell you if it's just a crush or actually love though..sorry." He apologized for not knowing his feelings for me.

But I didn't really care about that in that moment. Well, I cared a little, but not so much in that moment. What mattered to me was being sure that he liked me. We would have lots of time to discuss if it was just a crush or actually love. "Then you really like me? I'm not daydreaming am I?" I asked a little worried. I pinched one of my kneels to be sure to be awake. Yes, I'm awake..and that hurts, but it's ok.

"No, you're not daydreaming." He answered smiling amiably to me. "I really like you Lee Yun Mi." He said, blushing a little bit. I waited that he could add something cruel like. "I'm kidding you idiot! Who do I like? You? You're kidding right!?" But luckily he didn't say nothing like that. He just stayed there, waiting for a reaction from me. It was a little late because I was shocked. Ji Yong is in love with me. For real. I'm about to faint, I can feel it.

I detached my red face from him, and looked at the floor. Ji Yong was really right when he wanted the president to give us some privacy. But now it was too late to complain. Even if I was embarrassed till death to say this thing in front of him, I had to take some courage and spit everything out. He's waiting my reply after all. I kept torturing my fingers before lifting my head and looking straight at him, while confessing my feelings for him. "I..I always liked you too Kwon Ji Yong. Since the first time I saw you." Why It was so difficult yet so easy to confess to someone?

He smiled embarrassed and happy. "I knew it." He replied.

"Everybody knew it." The president added, speaking after a long period of silence.

"Well..I tried really hard to hide it." I defend myself in a winny voice.

While the president shook his head unconvinced, Ji Yong kept smiling at me lovely. "I think I'm better at acting than you." He said, smiling innocently, without arrogance in his voice. So I smiled too.

"I think you're right." I replied.

And so we smiled at each other. He's really in love with me. I still can't believe it. I didn't know either if it was just a simple crush or actually love, with capital L. But we will have had a lot of time to find out what it was. All I knew now, was that I was happy. Completely and extremely happy. I think I started liking/loving him, when I had a panic attack on what seemed to be a normal day. That day we were reading mangas in the living room, and the girls were in the kitchen doing something. At that time, I thought that he just wanted to be friendly with me, so I didn't took him too seriously. When suddenly Yang Suk Ki screamed and said that she cut herself with the knife, I totally panicked When I saw the blood flowing out of her finger. The sight of blood started to freak me out ever since I had the car accident, and it had always provoked me with anxiety and panic. He had been the first person who came to comfort me. He held me in his arms and whispered sweets words to calm me down. He kept comforting me with sweets words and caresses till I calmed down. And there, in his arms, I realized I would have loved to stay like that forever. That's how I realized it. And now here I was, staring at the guy I liked/loved, and he liked/loved me back. Nothing could have stopped me from jumping out of joy like a mad woman. Yes, I really want to jump now.

That's what I thought.
 

 

 

02. I'm fucking tired

 

 

 

 

YUMI

I have never, not even once, thought that my friendship with Ji Yong would have one day turn into love. With all the contrasting messages he kept sending me, I was confused all the time. Like when he flirted with me one day, but acted like nothing ever happened the following days. Now everything has sense. It wasn't a one side love.