Many Dimensions, Charles Williams [black authors fiction TXT] 📗
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several other occasions in the last few days what the Hajji had meant
by saying ‘that the Name was upon her forehead. The Name of the God in
which she and Lord Arglay had decided to believe? What did you do if
you had decided to believe in God? So far as her early training served
her, she thought you gave up your will to His. _Non est enim rex ubi
dominatur voluntas_—for where the will rules there is no king. But
Bracton—damn her stupidity!—had been talking of feudal law, and yet…
She wandered slowly back and lifted from her handbag the Type of
the Stone that she carried, to lay it under her pillow for the night.
“The End of Desire ……. the Stone which is between you and me.” You
gave up your will, did you? Your will by itself produced pretty poor
results, it seemed. Attribuat igitur—let the king attribute to the law.
…But how to find the law? “The Way to the Stone which is in the
Stone.” The Stone, Lord Arglay, God, the End of Desire. Was this then
what her absurd childish prayers meant? “Our Father which art in
heaven,” she thought, “Hallowed be Thy name, Thy kingdom come, Thy will
be done on earth as it is in heaven”—and what did that mean?
Of course if it all did mean something it was quite easy to believe she
hadn’t yet understood, but in that case she wanted, wanted very much,
to understand; and very much indeed, with her body and mind and
everything else, she desired the End of Desire. Still thinking about
it, still trying over to herself the first few phrases of that august
ritual of intercession she got into bed, laid the Type of the Stone
under her pillow, settled herself to sleep.
Or to think. But bed, as Chloe had on other occasions discovered, is
not really a good place in which to try and do both, even sequentially.
When she decided that she had thou thought enough and ought to go to
sleep, for fear the next day should find her making a muddle of more
quotations, she found it was too late. Bits of her previous thoughts
half imaged themselves to her, and disappeared before she could do more
than recognize them. She thought of getting up and reading, but she
couldn’t think of any book in her rooms which she wanted to read—not
even Mr. Ford Madox Ford’s novels or the life of Sir Edward Marshall-Hall (which, a fortnight before, had seemed to her to
unite law and interest—Chloe had never quite freed herself from the
idea that she ought to read in her leisure something that had a bearing
on her work). And an how—
She lay very still suddenly. Something, surely something had sounded.
Only the door-handle. But it had, ever so faintly clicked. Doors did
make noises in the night—but door-handles? She felt hastily round to
see if she could remember a door handle clicking. Was there somebody—had somebody come for the Stone? She thrust both hands under her pillow
in a panic, and her fingers closed about it. The moonlight came half
across the room, alongside her bed; surely no one at least could reach
its—and her—head, and the Stone, unseen. She began to strain her eyes
towards the foot; then she shut them, in case there was anyone, and
that she might be thought asleep; then she partly opened them that she
might see what was happening. There was a faint movement somewhere, as
if of a breath being loosed, then another silence. Chloe’s right hand
grasped the Stone; her left held the bed-clothes tightly.
What, what, if there was anyone there, was she to do? O for Lord Arglay
now!
She remembered suddenly, still desperately watching, what he had said,
“Come to me”-yes, but how was she to come?
O why wouldn’t he come to her? “Come to me.” But how—but of course the
Stone. She only had to make use of the Stone and all would be safe. In
the thrill of assured safety she all but made a face at the unknown, if
there were an unknown. And there was; for one second on the edge of the
dark an edge of a finger showed. Something was moving towards her in
the night. Well, that was all right; they could go on moving. She had
only to will and-She had only to will… to use the Stone. In a
horror of anguish she understood the choice that was presented to her.
Her thoughts went through her head like Niagara. Lord Arglay had told
her but even Lord Arglay didn’t feel like that about the Stone and she
had said to Frank she wouldn’t use it if she were starving and what was
the man doing and what would he do if she screamed and even if she did
perhaps Mrs. Webb wouldn’t come down this time and what could she do if
she did? O it wasn’t fair, it wasn’t fair! How could she use the Stone?
yet how could she bear not to if whoever it was came nearer? He was
probably trying to see if her hands were empty; well, they weren’t. He
won’t know if I ve got it in my hand or not, she thought. Could she sit
up, switch on the light, and with the Stone in her hand dare him to
move? No—it was too risky; he’d think of something she wasn’t prepared
for and perhaps snatch it from her. Then she would use it; after all
she was using it to save it. She was doing for it what it could not do
for itself. She was protecting it. Not being a reader of religious
history Chloe was ignorant what things have been done in the strength
of that plea, or with what passionate anxiety men have struggled to
protect the subordination of Omnipotence. But in her despair she
rejected what churches and kings and prelates have not rejected; she
refused to be
deceived, she refused to attempt to be helpful to the God, and being in
an agony she prayed more earnestly. The God purged her as she writhed;
lucidity entered into her; she turned upon her face, and with both
hands beneath her pillow holding the Stone, she lay still, saying only
silently in her panting breath: “Thy will,… do… do if Thou
wilt; or”- she imagined the touch of the marauder on the calf of her
leg and quivering in every nerve added-“or… not.”
In the darkness the Prince Ali almost made a movement of delight. He
had got into the house, by the aid of certain hangers-on of the
hangers-on of the Embassy; secret service, from which even a minor
Embassy is not entirely exempt, sets up connexions which are useful at
times, and judicious inquiries that afternoon by a gentleman in search
of lodgings had let him know which Chloe’s room was. The actual seizure
of the Stone he had not dared to entrust to anyone else, but he had
been disturbed to find Chloe still awake. He had reckoned on sleep,
darkness, and chloroform, but he had not dared cross the moonlight
while she lay awake, for he had some idea of how swiftly the Stone
would work and he had no wish to be confronted with an empty bed. Now
that she had turned on to her face, however, his opportunity was at
hand. He felt very carefully for the chloroformed pad, and at that
moment a cloud began gradually to obscure the moonlight. The Prince
hesitated and determined to wait for that fuller darkness; while he
waited he took out his electric torch with his left hand, and rehearsed
his movements. A few quiet steps to the top of the bed, the torchlight
on her head, the pad over her mouth. He was practically certain that
the Stone would be under her pillow—or perhaps in a bag round her neck;
at any rate once she was unconscious he would be able to search at
leisure, with the room light on. It would, he felt, have been more
satisfactory to his outraged creed to destroy the woman who had done
dishonour to the sacred thing even by possessing it, and to avenge upon
her the insult offered to his God. But this relief he could hardly
allow himself; Allah himself must punish. The moonlight had
disappeared; the room lay in darkness, he stepped forward, his finger
on the switch of the torch.
When Chloe had heaved herself round with that last movement her heart
had been beating wildly, and her breath coming in quick pants. Now as
she lay she felt both of them beginning to move more quietly and more
largely; she drew long and deep breaths and her heart composed itself
to a corresponding rhythm. She still saw before her mental vision the
edge of a finger against a darkness, or rather not now the edge but the
finger itself, and at its back an indeterminate shape as if it were
thrust a little forward from the whole hand; and she realized that it
was not the same finger which she had seen a few moments earlier.
Between these two palenesses therefore she lay, the one remembered, the
other beheld, yet both present, and, almost as if in the uncertainty
before sleep, she was vaguely conscious that the two came together and
formed one stream of pale but increasing light. From somewhere beyond
her, where her hands clasped the Stone, that narrow line of light
emerged; she lay within it and it passed through and about, her without
hindrance. The more clear it grew to her knowledge, the more clearly
within she enunciated the formula she had shaped with such pain and at
last unconsciously abandoned the formula itself for the meaning that
lay within it.
“Do, or do not,” she silently uttered, and fell even mentally into
stillness in order that unhindered that action might or might not take
place. The light grew suddenly around her; some encumbrance for a
moment touched her mouth and would have interrupted her appeal, had it
been vocal; a vibration went through her,as if a note of music had been
struck along her whole frame, and far off she heard as it were a single
trumpet at the gate of the house of Suleiman with a Prolonged blast
saluting the dawn.
The police-constable on his beat outside had come slowly
down the road, and from a few yards off saw a dark heap at the door of
Mrs. Webb’s house. He broke into a run, bent over it for a minute, then
straightened himself, and blew his whistle. It was the body of a man
that lay there; they found afterwards that it was burnt as if by
lightning and broken as if cast from an immense distance. The
constable’s whistle sounded again as if with a prolonged blast saluting
the dawn.
THE POSSESSIVENESS OF MR. FRANK LINDSAY
Neither Mrs. Webb nor Miss Burnett were of much use to the police in
that morning investigation. Neither of them recognized the body, and
though it had lain huddled against the front door of the house, there
was nothing to show that, alive or dead, it had ever been inside the
door. Besides which, burning and breaking, as that body was burnt and
broken, are not injuries which the two women seemed very capable of
inflicting, and the inspector in charge leaned to the idea that it had
been brought from a distance and dropped at this spot. The usual
inquiries were set on foot, with a casual jest or two about the
possibility of the Rich Stone being responsible. But Miss Burnett was
not prevented from departing to her employment, though some care was
taken
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