Gone, K K [the first e reader txt] 📗

I couldn’t breathe. I knew air was going through my lungs but it didn’t register in my brain. I dropped the phone which mad a loud clang in the silent night air. All I could process was shock.I zoned out most of the one sided conversation when she said they were dead. I lightly remember the words fire and trapped in the second floor. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t think. I couldn’t see. It was like I was surrounded in a blanket of darkness protecting me from reality. She must have been lying. It must have been a prank call or something. They couldn’t be gone. It just wasn’t possible. I never got to say goodbye. The truth finally sunk in making my knees weak and me sinking to hard cold granite floor. I couldn’t see my best friend leaning over me. I couldn’t feel my boyfriend shaking my shoulder. I couldn’t hear them both calling my name. All I could see was their faces. All I could remember was the last time I spoke to them and the last words I said to them that will probally haunt me forever. We were in a fight about who knows what and I screamed the last words I will ever say to them face to face. I hate you. I stormed out of the house then hearing my mother’s sobs and my father reassuring her I didn’t men them. I really didn’t but at the time I was so mad. The tears finally came. I knew they were going to come and I finally let out all the sadness and anguish that was bottled up inside my soul. It seemed like they never stopped. They kept coming but I didn’t try to wipe them away. Somewhere in my mind I knew more would come. Even when it seemed when I couldn’t cry any more , they would come. They were gone. No, they are gone. It felt like my tounge was made out of lead and my mouth was trapped shut. The only sound coming out was sobs. Somehow I managed to get out the words that made all this a harsh reality, “They’re gone.” Only then could I feel Jason’s arms wrapping themselves around me. Only then could I tell I was ruining his t-shirt with my bitter salty tears. Only then could I hear him softly whisper,” It’s ok. Everything will be ok” But it wasn’t and I didn’t know if it ever would be ok again.

Publication Date: 12-17-2013

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Dedication:
To all those who have lost a loved one. I know I have.