Love isn't bought, Lauren [motivational novels .TXT] 📗

A pool of guilt flooded my heart. The things I have done and the people I've hurt, haunted me for some time. Things were so simple before.

I was Monica stavell, the most popular girl in school but not the most liked, people were afraid of me. My own mother didn't love me, she adored my baby sister Molly and my father had split up with my mother. The divorce was messy, my father wanted Molly but not me, he did love me but he want to do anything that would stab my mother in the back. My mother wouldn't even fight for me but she would for her precious new " Monica" she wanted to call the baby that but I was called Monica. She settled for molly but at night I hear her cooing to the baby calling her Monica. She loves that name but she won't love me with that name. My life isn't that bad, I'm given money to make up for no love and I have lots of friends but none like them for me, really they just want to be popular. My mum is perfect looking, perfectly styled blonde hair, nice even tan, manicured nails and designer clothes. She refuses to let me out the door if I don't look perfect, so I have to go through the treatment of tanning, waxing, having my nails done and having my hair done too. After all I'm just a mascot, an old version which is out of date and molly is the perfect new version. I decided to wear for school today, a black Prada skirt and a matching headband with a bow. A white low cut blouse and Gucci heels. I looked in the mirror, my hair was a dark brown, my tan was light and my brown eyes looked honey colored.

My life wasn't great but it didn't matter, I had lots of friends even if they didn't really like me. People have called me cruel, cold hearted and many other things but the world isn't fair so life isn't fair. The girl I'm always mean to, Isn't that pretty or rich but at least she is loved. That's why I'm mean to her, but now sometimes I think I'm too mean, like the time I was on the stairs with Jennifer and Gloria, I was giving her a hard time and slapped her but she fell down the stairs. I didn't mean for her to fall down the stairs, it was only because I saw her with my boyfriend brad and she was flirting. I was jealous and she was tutoring him and I know guys like brad don't do tutoring. I only just found out the reason why today, brad's father said he needed to get a B on the science test or he wouldn't get a car for his birthday. I feel so guilty and I never meant for her to break her arm. I'm still angry at her but also angry at myself, at least her love isn't bought, my mum pays me money for the lack of attention and love.


I went downstairs my heels clicking on the wood. My mother was showing the baby off to guests, they looked amused and then my mother said" here she is, come down Monica, there are some guest for you to meet"

I slowly came down and looked, there was a man in his early forties and a woman in her late thirties and they were smiling. I gave a suspicious smile back, who were they?

They were all sat down on the sofa and with coffee, an empty seat waited and a coffee, heavy on the sugar and milk just the way I like it. My mum smiled and sat the baby in her cot, then put her hands in her lap. "this is Mr and Mrs Kindersly, it's hard to explain but your father's family owes a debt and now we have to pay for it, by we I mean me and your father,"

I was frozen to the spot, unable to let out a choked out reply, I said quietly" what debt? how old is the debt ? " my mother fidgeted and looked at Mr and Mrs Kindersly. " well the debt is and old one and it involves you, it's not so much about money," I must have looked horrified because Mrs Kindersly said" my name is laurel, calm down love and don't you know about it?"

Then my father came and sat down and said" Helen why didn't you tell her, we agreed that you would,"

I looked between them in confusion, this was frightening now and I didn't like it at all.

"what is the debt!" I stood up and put the coffee on the table. They all looked awkwardly at each other then looked at me.

My mother looked at me and said" honey sit down please and we will tell you about it," she never called me honey, it must be some debt.

" the debt is actually over eighty years old but we have decided for it to be paid back now, the debt was a large sum of money for a arranged wedding but the bride ran away and married another man, the family had another son and the family line continued from there," Laurel sipped her coffee and continued" and from this family line you are the first daughter and a wedding is what the family paid for and a wedding the family shall receive, it would dishonor us if you said no"

I choked out a bare whisper " a wedding.....to who"

" our son of course who else, he is graduating from school soon just like you and then will work for his father, our family is very wealthy more than you can imagine, we will pick you up at six be prepared with all your luggage,"

" what!" me and my dad said in unity.

" your moving in with us, you will have your own room of course and the wedding will take place in under a month,"

The room began to spin and I said" no, no , this can't be happening, I don't even know him and this is a modern era no one has arranged marriages,"

Mr Kindersly stood up and so did his wife" count yourself lucky, we could have kept this behind your back and you wouldn't even meet him till up the isle but this way you get to know him," and then they left.

I couldn't breathe and I went to my room.

four hours later.....

(Helen {Monica's mum} p. o. v)

I couldn't hear Monica in her room so I decided to check on her and then I found a note on the door saying:

Sorry

love is precious and isn't bought

I barged in and saw a bottle of pills on the floor close, leading to the bathroom......


Blackness was all I could see, is this what death was like? I was unable to move, my whole body felt like heavy weights, my blood felt as hot as lava reaching to my core. Faintly I could hear murmours, like the swishing of the tide almost calming but the burning ruined all chance of being relaxed. Everywhere ached, my teeth hurt, my arms, my legs, everywhere hurt and even my hair ached. I had the most awful ram thing inside me, It felt like a slimey snake wriggling down into my stomach and filling it with poisonous venom. Bright light pierced my eyelids, slowly I opened my eyes even though it was like trying to lift heavy iron weights. The bright light flickered, moving from eye to eye, suddenly the snake emerged from my body. My relexes made me turn to the side and vomit. My throat burned but I felt better.

Publication Date: 11-13-2011

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