Split Second, Sarah Eva Casey [most read book in the world txt] 📗

Nothing is quite like it seems, some things so small, so inevitable they can eat up your insides while on the outside your sitting there content with all this misery and confusion stuck lingering within your soul. If only emotions didn’t control your attitude and if your attitude didn’t control your life, because the way you feel on the inside is the realness your too scared to feel outside yourself, it’s a circular pattern which persists throughout your life in one way or another.

It all started with the last year of high school, everything was going grand, the opportunities were flying by and the only thing missing was the least bit of malfunctioning or depression. Oh what a time. Those best times are equivalent to the childhood memories which stick like duct tape, so hard to tear away. It seems as though the atmosphere throughout the grad hall could stay that way for centuries, the music, decorations and those who made an impact would barge in the doors, making sure there presentation came noticed rather than ignored. Life could of gone on forever this way. But life is full of surprises full of experienced and things you are destined for, life knows all secrets, it is capable of changing a life or direction in a split second.

I came to this conclusion while I was driving, going around a well known corner for it’s angular slope, it was an innocent car ride back to school, I thought nothing at the time of the future and what dangerous position we could potentially be in. For, I have driven that road many times and each, successfully. It was so strange and new, yet traumatizing, the minute I lost control of my silver, unscratched ford focus hatchback, my first and only car, hydroplaning of the easily mistaken moist road, these thoughts of life’s purpose and how precious it is in reality hit me hard in fast motion. Nick and I, hit the ditch at 80mph, crushing down bushes, grass anything in the way until the car suddenly stopped with a halt and all went black.
I wasn’t sure if it were a nightmare or not but I recall vividly losing control, knowing we were to end up down that bank, I was so scared for the both of us but I did not want to scare him, so I kept quiet. The tall bushes came flying at the windshield and as I shut my eyes, grabbed Nick’s hand, I cursed in my mind at myself for driving irresponsibly. The time unconscious seemed like a lifetime, even though it was minutes, it felt like we were never going back to school, nor reality and it was all my fault.
I woke up unable to make sense of what had just occurred within the milliseconds. My eyes took a couple of minutes to adjust to the world surrounding us and beautiful mother nature who had nearly killed us if we were to skid two more feet, down the bank even further.. Immediately looking down seeing the passenger side of the car on the ground, crushed and the windshield along with ever other window, shattered, I freaked out, my heart pulsing seeing him lay there still after such a confusing situation which was so unavoidable. So many emotions filling my head with a cluttering mess. I had no idea what to do.

The smoke suffocated us trapped in my ford focus hatchback and I was beginning to wonder discreetly whether I’d get out alive. It was at the moment when it was so foggy from the smoke when I saw Nick stare at me horrified! I felt numb to move even to speak, I felt like a failure, liable for the damage to the car and ourselves. Reassuring I was alright in a terrified yell, Nick stood up over top of me, I undid my seatbelt but fell brutally to the ground. Now it wasn’t guilt, panic overcame.
The smoke was responsible for the urgent affliction which was playing mind games with us. Was the car about to be blown up? Are we going to die? It was such a terrifying experience that still haunts me in every thought. Trying desperately to get out of this scene I no longer wanted to witness, I repeatedly failed. My arm and leg numb, mind numb in shock and finally I coughed telling Nick to open the door instead of attempting to punch out the glass. There was an eerie silence to the situation, even though the techno music playing continuously in the background, it was dead quiet. It could not be disturbed nor described, time had stopped and thoughts filled up this silence, as if they were all having a conversation.

My thoughts began thinking of how precious life really is and the value so many people take advantage of. Who knows what would have happened two feet more, I could be paralyzed, he could be dead, but out of the whole experience I learnt, everybody is here for a reason and these blockades are here to persuade you to the right direction, even if it feels like rock bottom. To climb back up to the top takes a lot of power, will and determination. Whether one fulfills his/her destiny, what they are meant to do here on earth or whether there time is over and now remembered, life is about the choices you make, the possibilities which occur out of them. If you give up on hope or faith itself, those will be your own consequences, no one else’s and no one but yourself can change them.

Publication Date: 02-09-2011

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