Whatever Happened To My Rock n Roll, Hestrin Zantya [epub e reader .TXT] 📗

You got F in several important subjects so you're in a serious trouble I guess." I was shocked with the words that he just said to me, I didn't even listen to Mr. White when he said all those things to me so I asked him if Mr. White said something to help me and he said "yeah he asked if you are okay if you have to study with me at night?", I was so confused because I didn't know much about it, it's because I just came here for having fun not studying, and I knew that I got F in many subjects but to study together with him at night? That would be awesome. "Are you asking me out? Really? I don't even know your name yet." I replied with a happy voice because I thought it was a date. He was confused and said "excuse me, it's not a date it's called night class, you and I will study at night here." I just realized how stupid I was, "umm may I know your name?" I asked him. "Yes sure, my name is Jason Mirozza but just call me Jason, ok?" he smiled and I felt so much happy, "so what is that? I mean night class?" I asked him again, "Yes it's for students who get bad grades and they need to fix their grades in night class, it's from seven to nine just on Friday", he explained with a sweet raspy voice. I knew it would be suck to be here at night, and I could imagine my dad would give me a frown on his face if I told him about it, but Jason would be with me all night long and I knew that we could get closer, so I thought that's a nice opportunity for me to be with him longer than anyone else. Chapter 5 - Life

One night after we had our night class he asked me to go with him somewhere. We went to a pub and we talked about lots of things there. "Well Alex, I got a question for you", he said. "Ask away!" I replied and smiled. "Why did you get so many F's" he giggled, so did I but then I replied "Because I don't like school and Dallas, and what about you? Why did you have to study at night too?" I asked him. "Oh Alex,, my life is not fantastic", he said, "well that's why we call it life, right?", I said and smiled at him. I could see that he smiled too and then he smoked a cigarette, so did I. "Nice to know you Alex, I don't like school either. And I guess nobody likes me here, they see me as a garbage, with lot's of problems and bad behaviors, I have no friend here and I don't give them anything either, they're just mannequins to me, they're not living their lives off", he said. I could see a pain in his heart when he said that, that made me feel so bad too. "But I would like to help you", I said that when I saw his face looked so bad and I could feel a tear was about coming down his face. "How to help? I am out of luck, my parents don't even care about me, they're rich but I am not proud of them that's why I left them in L.A and started my life here, I have a band here and we do the gigs every Wednesday and Saturday and I am working in the morning on Monday, Tuesday and Friday from 8 to 5 every week, and I have a baby girl too", he said. I was shocked when he mentioned about the baby girl, I thought he was not married yet. "Are you married?", I asked him. He laughed at me and said "Married? I could not even imagine being a husband and living with a woman, she's not my biological daughter, and no I'M NOT MARRIED!". I was so interested in his life, so I kept asking him questions. "I know you're not going to believe me, are you?", he asked me. "No. I mean why would not I believe you Jason?" I answered. "Because I told you about all the shits in my life, now you'll think I am a loser", he said. I wanted to kiss his cheek so bad but I knew it would ruin his feeling if he didn't expect a kiss from me. "I don't think you're a loser, because I have shits too in my life so you're not the only one!" I replied. 

 

"That baby girl belongs to my ex-girlfriend Alex", he said with an unhappy voice. I just listened to all his words carefully and patiently because I wanted him to tell me all about his life. "She slept with another man and last summer she came to my apartment and put that baby at my door, she was pretty sick, huh?" he said and giggled, I just listened and got no more questions, "Alex, I was so confused because I have to take care her baby now, but I can't just kill the baby or give her to somebody, she deserves a good life, so I decide to work for her life, I feel like she's my own daughter actually", he said with a sad face. I knew it was so hard for both of them, I knew that he needed a help, I knew that he could never study properly because of that baby, so I told him that I would love to help him, he said "I don't have enough money to pay a baby sitter and I think there is no solution here, I might just leave college and focus at working and the baby". I touched his hand and gave him a hug, "Jason, you are not alone here, I know that we have to do it together, I promise that we can do it, and we can show them that we're not idiots, let's rock and roll it out!".

Chapter 6 - Rock n Roll

We have seen so many bad things happened in life, we know it's so hard for us to survive but at least we still have the spirit to get up and make it better. So I was so happy that I could help Jason taking care of his life. We made up the schedules for our night class and babysitting time. Jason brought me to his apartment, and I met the baby there. She's a cute baby and I could see so much love in her big brown eyes. Jason showed me all his activities when he was taking care of the baby, he fed her gently, took her for a bath, put her in the box and read a bedtime story with his sweet voice. 

 

I was babysitting her for couple of weeks until Jason finished his final assignment to fulfill his bachelor degree requirements. I had already took mine last week and Jason was so enthusiast in his final assignment, so I slept at his apartment too if he had a gig with his band at pub. We're getting closer day by day but he never said anything about his feelings about me, and I could not tell anything either. I really enjoyed my time with him and the baby and I didn't even want to ruin it so I didn't say anything about it to him. It's so difficult to keep this feeling inside, I couldn't control it anymore so I would tell him about it on his graduation day.

 

November 28th 2004, he finally got his degree and graduated from college. We're so happy; I could see his face was shining like the stars. He looked just perfect and handsome as I first met him couple of months ago. He touched my hands and said "Alex, Thank You for all the things that you've done to me, they meant a lot to me, I really appreciate it, I really do". I just gave him a hug and smile because I felt so happy when he touched my hand and said those sweet stuffs to me. He took the baby girl from my arms and asked me to go with him to celebrate it at the pub. I would love to do that but I have prepared a little surprise for him at home so I told him that I would come to his apartment at the afternoon. He said that he would meet with his friends at pub and bring the baby there just for an hour and he would come home to meet me. 

 

Three days ago I bought little things for him and the baby as his graduation gift; I planned to give the gift before his parents came from L.A because I didn't want to meet them. I bought a little cute baby t-shirt with the funny words on it and a cool black sweater for Jason. I was so happy that finally I could tell him about my feelings. I went to his apartment with a happy face and brought the gift for him and the baby. I saw him and the baby at the front door, they were standing there I saw him with the baby and a pretty lady, she wore a sexy dress and Jason gave her a kiss on cheek, he let her holding the baby in her arms. I couldn't believe that, I was almost there, but he seemed so happy with that lady. They all seemed happy even the baby was laughing when she tried to make a silly joke and Jason was helping her there. I didn't want to go and talk to him that time, I just hated it, all the things that I've seen there. I waited up until that lady went with a fancy car, and Jason carried the baby inside. I put the gifts at his apartment door and left that building with the tears in my eyes, I went and locked myself in my room for a week. My dad and Jimmie were worried about me but they knew me well. I got a call from my aunt in New York and she told me that I could work with her there. She worked in a magazine publisher and they needed a graphic designer to draw the covers for their magazines. Lucky me it was a music magazine, and this is