Violet Scarlett, Beky Cybille [read 50 shades of grey .txt] 📗

you know?" her mate asked her. I just scowled looking away from the stares but my stare went towards Derek who just looks dumbfounded.

'What just happened?' he mind linked me. ‘You know how I always stay away from witches?'

'Yeah, which doesn't make sense since you're half one yourself' he chuckled in amusement.

'Well you could say that the witch world was on the lookout for me since I was pretty much missing and all. So a spell was casted so that they will be able to feel my presence and know who I am at touch' I sighed.

'Anyway, I was wondering where I recognized the name Merideth. Remember one powerful witch who was mated to an alpha?' I asked

'That’s her?!' He asked in surprise.

'Yup' I answered. You see witches also have mates, most of the time amongst each other and vampires (Which are pretty much extinct) but it’s rare to be mated to a werewolf, especially an alpha. There are probably only about five hundred werewolf and witch mates, yeah that rare. Merideth however is one of two witch mated to an alpha right now making her powerful since she was a pretty strong witch and now mated to an alpha and being Luna having all senses and power coming with it, she is a really powerful witch.

Which is how she was able to force me to shift, she's very powerful much more powerful than me, well my witch side anyway I need to practice my magic. Though her magic and mines are pretty much different, I use black magic.

"Hello" a hand waved in front of my face. 

"What" I snapped at the person who interrupted my thoughts to only see Derek.

He just started at me in amusement already use to my ways. "Their talking to you" he raised an eyebrow pointing at the pack members behind the alpha, Merideth and if I remember correctly her mates name was Stone.

I sighed and looked at them expectantly. "Yes?" I asked as they remained silent.

"Sorry for disrespecting you and all" The alpha spoke rubbing the back of his neck nervously. "My name is Jake by the way" He held out his hand.

"My names Violet and that’s Derek" I gestured towards Derek. “and it’s alright" I didn't bother shaking his hand, he got the message and put his hand down.

"We should discuss this inside, why don’t we go back to the pack house" Alpha stone stated.

Maybe I can get out of here before anything else happens.

'What’s the point you, we cannot escape this. Not only do they know we are nearby but they know who you are and your magic won’t really work when Merideth here can easily repel it. Face it its inevitable and has been from the beginning.' my wolf spoke.

I sucked in a breath. I don’t want to be alpha, I can’t be alpha. I felt a hand on my shoulders and turned to see Derek with an encouraging look on.

"You coming" Jake called out.

"Yeah" Derek followed dragging me with him. We got to the pack house much faster than I wanted.

As we walked in the packs demeanor from before changed. From hate and disgust to respect and awe. It’s sickening how many people judge others from looks, power and reputation.

Although, they may have pretty much right about me. 

"Where have you been all this time?" the former alpha stone asked me.

I cleared my face of any emotion not wanting to think of that disgusting pack. "It doesn't matter"

"It doesn't matter?!" asked Jake shocked. "Our rightful alpha was out there, we didn't really know if you were alive or dead, your pack needed you and it doesn't matter" he growled at the end.

Now he was annoying me but I understand where he’s coming from. I sighed taking off my leather jacket trying to ignore the tension, and the fact he yelled and growled at me.

"How did she end up somewhere other than here?" Derek asked curiously, honestly I was curious too. I mean it ended up with me living a big lie and not a good one either.

"Well during the ceremonies to bring her and her sister down to Earth, we were interrupted, attacked." Merideth said glumly.

"They disrupted the balance of the gate as you came. The White Moon Pack managed to save your sister but it was too late for you resulting you landing in a different location." She continued.

Ah the White Moon Pack. Another pack I avoided, they would have known who I was that and it’s my sister’s pack.

The White Moon pack is the one pack other than this one with a witch mated to the alpha, you could say she's just as powerful as Merideth thus another reason to avoid them. Word is the alpha couple are on a long vacation though, when I say long I mean long.

"Well it doesn't matter anymore, all that matters is that you have returned and we finally get our true alpha" Stone stated. My head snapped up at that. "I never said I would become alpha." I narrowed my eyes at them. They all froze in the spot.

"What?" Merideth spoke softly breaking the silence. "Why!" Jake demanded.

"Because I don’t want to become alpha" I growled. I can’t become alpha.

"But the pack needs you, the world needs you!" he stated. Trying to guilt trip me, good luck with that.

I got up turning towards the door. "What’s that on your back?" he whispered in shock. I froze on the spot.

Damn I forgot to put my jacket back on and now they see it. I got a tattoo about a year ago on my left shoulder. It was my signature mark.

"Nothing" I stated hoping he would drop it as I put my jacket back on. No such luck.

"Is that why you don’t want to be alpha?" he asked in anger, "because you want to continue going around killing rogues living a rogue life!" he was yelling by now.

"Son calm down" Stone tried to calm him. He just ignored his father while his last statement made me boil in anger. "That is just selfish" disgust and anger clear in his tone.

I was angry, He already disrespected me but this crosses the line. "Violet calm down" Derek tried to calm me but it was too late.

I already had Jake against the wall my hands around his neck. He gasped in surprise but froze as he looked into my red eyes.

"Selfish you say? You have no idea what I am doing for you." I spat angrily tightening my grip on his neck.

"You have no idea what I've done in the past, for some of those things nothing can redeem me of them. I have some other people after me for revenge and what not, I've developed blood lust and from the things I've done I don’t deserve to be alpha, I shouldn't be alpha." I whispered the last part. 

My wolf was whimpering in shame of what we've done. Jake and everyone else stared at me in shock.

"You know, this pack would do anything and accept their alpha no matter what. They've waited for a long time just for you, no doubt they will do everything they can to help you." Merideth spoke softly. "We would do everything we can."

I released Jake stepping back feeling sadness creeping in.

"Do you really want me as alpha?" I asked with my head down. "Do you really want an alpha such as me?" I lifted my head to stare at them all letting my emotional facade fall.

They gasped as they saw my eyes. I know well enough the girl they see now is different from the one they 'met'

Over the years I've learned to show emotions even if I am not feeling it, I don’t really feel it. It’s my facade, my emotional facade so no one knows. The only one who knows what I'm really going through, who I really am is Derek.

To everyone else I seem pretty much normal, But when the facade is down I know very well what you see. Eyes void of any emotions that was shown.

No emotions at all.

They say that your eyes are the windows to your soul. My soul is broken, but I control it and make it so that what everyone else sees is an illusion created by me. I can make myself seem happy, it will even reach my eyes when all I feel is nothing.

"Child...." Merideth came up to me putting her hands on my cheeks looking into my eyes. "Do you really want an alpha such as me?" I repeated my question in my emotionless tone.

She flinched at my tone but still kept her hand on my cheeks. "What happened to you" She spoke tears coming to her eyes.

I just stared at her blankly not really feeling a thing, I didn't bother putting up my facade.

Suddenly Merideth was crying hugging me. "Your soul, its light has deemed, it’s fallen to darkness it’s broken." She whispered on my shoulder as tears ran down her face. "I know" I whispered to her staring at her blankly as she cried on my shoulder.

I looked around to see everyone watching our little exchange with sadness in their eyes.

"If I barely feel any emotions or care for anything than how can I run and care for a pack. I just can’t." I shook my head at her as she pulled away.

They were all silent their eyes glazed over meaning they were speaking through the mind link.

"You are quiet the trouble" Stone stated.

"And a mess" Merideth also stated.

I took that as my cue to leave. Turning towards the door I was about to opened it but stopped as a hand covered mines on the nob.

"But that doesn't mean we won't try and help you." Jake said in a soft voice. I was shocked.

They were willing to risk, their pack, their lives and waste their time on me.

Trying to save me.

But am I willing to let them in?

I turned to look at Derek who was by me, he smiled nodding at me.

For the first time in years I was happy, I was truly happy.

For the first time in years I smiled, a real smile.

Chapter 7

 

Violet

It's been three years since I joined the pack, and an official five years since I left the Tritan pack.

I moved on from them, more or less. But now my life is my own pack, the Dark moon pack

I still couldn't be their alpha for about two months but I took charge of training and our rogue problems. They kept their promise, they never gave up on me.

I'm able to feel much more emotions but that doesn't mean it's easy to show it. To me showing emotions is weak, it's like wearing you're heart on your sleeve, and it makes you vulnerable. Their trying though, key word trying, but I know this is the one thing that they won't succeed in. Showing emotions.

However they nursed me back to emotional health- Merideth's words not mine.

She's been teaching me magic while Alpha stone worked with me and my wolf. I learned some light magic but it since I'm a dark witch I do best with dark magic.

I've got to watch when I lose my temper though. You have to really anger me for me to lose control and kill you, but I'm very patient....... half the