Life, Lilac S [book series to read txt] 📗

Have you ever just sat down and thought to yourself "why did i do that"or "why am i such a failure" Thats wat i think everyday, ever since i was 12, ever just wanted to disappear from the world and move away from everyone you know and start life over, thats my life.

Im 16 years old and all i wanna do is leave my life and move to another suburb and start my life over from the begining, make new friends, go new places and be HAPPY!

My life at the moment sucks and i just want to leave and start over, there are many others like me who just want to run and never stop.

In 2 years i have this plan to just go, start running and never stop because i just want to leave and never come back to this life of mine.

I feel trapped and cant cant out, so i keep on living and pray one day life will get better.

I pray when i leave and travell on that life will get better.

I look at others around me and wonder if they have amazing lives or feel the same way i do :/

People with amazing lives dont want the life i live.

Others have it worse off then me and i have acknowledge this, but we all feel the same, so down in the gutters and blue, but others are not as bad.

so ive been thinking these past few days that life can have its up and downs but you just have to go with the flow of it. 

Ever sat down and decieded howy you wanted your future to work out and how amazing you can see your furute in your mind, but ever sat and thought that its just a fanticy that you want to be in, i just want to escape and basically start life over because i feel in the future i will try my hadest to make my life the best it can be and never be sad or feel down ever again, but things in the future will get me upset example if a family member dies or i lose an animal or anything else that can happen and to that i say "its just life, and you can control it or make it go your way all the time" 

The only way to a happy life is to smile and be positive, which i do niether of, i wear a smile on my face so my fellow peers think im perfectly fine but life these past days have just gotten worse as people were there and now just gone :/ i guess its life and people and family cant always stay around you. 

 We all have our inspirations, we love to look up 2 them and love them for who they are etc. who make us happy well something my inspiration doesnt as sometimes i feel she hates me ( i wont say who she is as its my infomation and dont wanna say ) 

Anyway shes amazing and sometimes makes me wear a proper smile on my face but other days she dont and thats pretty much the only time i do wear a real smile :)  

well to all you people who have read my book thanks for taking your time and hopefully my books will get better as i write :P 

thanks :)

Publication Date: 05-21-2013

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Dedication:
Cover of my book was ceated by the amazing nina