Nevaeh, Hope Moss [bts book recommendations .TXT] 📗

didn't I " again she nods.The drugs are starting to take effect, she wishes she could stay asleep forever.
Tamara awakes to someone putting sometime on her arm. " Goodmorning, My name is Cintra and I'll be your nurse for this morning" the nurse smiles and takes Tamara's temperature and blood pressure. When the nurse leaves Jason walks over to the bed and kisses Tamara forehead.
"Goodmorning Sleepyhead" He smiles at her " Ma you had me so worried, When they called me yesterday I almost freaked, Ma please don't scare me like that again. I don't know what I would do without you" he kisses he tenderly on the lips.
' I have something for you" He pulls something out of his pocket, it's wrap in colorful paper, he hands it to Tamara. "Sorry I didn't have a chance to wrap it properly, I bought you this for our anniversary next month but I decided to give it to you now to show you how much I love you." Tamara's hands shake as she unwraps the package, she cries as she holds it up. It is the most beautiful necklace she has ever seen."
"BJ, I love this, thank you so much."
"Wait, let me show you something, he takes the heart pendant out her hand and opens it. It is actually a locket and inside is the family portrait they took about six months ago. She starts to cry."Oh Jason it is so beautiful" she leans forward so he can put it on her neck. Jason kisses Tamara, "Ma, I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry for hurting you. I promise things are gonna be better Ma I promise," he is crying openly. Tamara reaches for him, he stretches out in the bed next to her and they cuddle.
"Jason baby it's okay, I love you"
"I love you too Tamara, You are everything to me."
They both fall asleep, Later Jason helps Tamara wash up before he picks up her mother brings the boys. He even lets Key in the room though he leaves when she arrives. Nobody was gonna keep LaKresha away anyway.
"Key look what Jason gave me" She shows Key the locket.
"I guess that's what a ass whipping is worth nowadays huh? she looks at the pendant unimpressed.
Tamara ducks her head. "Key he does love me you know"
"That's not love Tamara"
"Key you don't understand"
"I understand I'm tired of seeing my bestfriend kicked around."
Just then LaKresha's parents walk in the room, Tamara is overjoyed to see them, She spent so much time at their house growing up, they felt like her parents too.
"Mama and Papa McDaniels" she cries out excited.
"Girl what have you gotten yourself into now"
"I'm okay Pop"
"Coulda fooled me"
"Girl what the hell is wrong with you!!!! letting that no count negro put his hands on you" Mama McDaniels hugs Tamara and scolds her at the same time.
"Mary!!!!!"
"No George, this is crazy, she needs to leave him before he kills her" Tamara starts to cry.
"Mary look at what your doing to the child!!!" Mrs.McDaniels looks at Tamara. "I'm sorry sweetheart, but you're like a daughter to me, and I don't like to see you hurting." she hugs Tamara. Mrs.McDaniels always said what was on her mind. Key had also inherited that trait, that's why she and Jason always bumped heads.
"Tamara you know you can always stay with us, you don't have to live like this, just leave."
"I can't, he's my husband, this was just an accident. I was just doing too much, too soon."
"Girl don't lie to me please" she reprimands Tamara, LaKresha had already told her parents what was going on. She had kept Tamara's secret up till now.
Tamara cut her eyes at LaKresha, "I'm sorry Mara..."
Her mother looks at her, "Sorry?, Sorry for what? You didn't do anything wrong, neither of you did. That no good ass husband you have is the one wrong. I don't believe he has the nerve to put his hands on you. What does your mother have to say about this? She looks to Tamara for answers.
"She said I should stand by my husband. That sometimes things just overwhelm him and I need to be more supportive, She's right Mama McDaniels, I need to try more, Keep the house cleaner and keep the kids quieter when he gets off work."
"WHAT? I knew yo Maw was crazy but dam"
"MOM!!!!!" "MARY!!"
"Yall know I'm telling the truth.Tamara I've been with George thirty five years and we've been through it all, but during that time he has never touched me, though I know at times he may have wanted to." She smiles at her husband. "Baby you're worth more than that, what about your children? What do you think this is teaching them.
"He promised things would change, I love him. He said we would work through this, I can't leave and take his kids from him, he needs us and we need him"she cries for understanding. Mama McDaniels gathers Tamara in her arms and shakes her head. She would learn one day she thinks to herself . I just hope she lives long enough.
The door opens and Jason,her Mom and the kids come in. Justin immediately tries to jump on his Mother's bed. " Get down boy!!!!" Justin stops in his tracks.
"Come here Justin, let PawPaw see how big you've gotten." Justin runs to Mr.McDaniels. The kids love their surrogate grandparents.
Big Jason leans down to give Mrs.McDaniels a kiss but she turns her face away. Jason looks at Tamara. Instead she takes little Tasha out of his arms. Tasha immediately goes for Tamara. "No sweetie we don't wanna hurt mama." She tells Tasha softly but cuts her eyes at Big Jason.
"JJ baby come here" Tamara urges Lil Jason from his spot at the door. He enters the room with his arms folded.
"Hey Baby" Mrs. McDaniels tries to kiss him.
"I ain't no baby" he wipes the kiss from his face.
"JJ!!!!" Tamara looks embarrassed.
"That's okay, I guess he's getting to big for kisses, can Maw Maw McDaniels at least get a hug. JJ looks at his father who nods, then he walks over give his maw maw a hug. The gestures is noticed by everyone with mixed emotions.
"Hey Mary" Mrs. Taylor speaks while kisses Tamara on the cheek.
"Edna" Mrs. McDaniels sucks her teeth, then gets up and collects her purse. "Well we better be going."
"Already?" she doesn't want to be alone with her family right now.
"Yes dear, I'm afraid so, When are they gonna discharge you?" she asks kissing Tamara forehead.
"Tomorrow if I can hold down food today."
"Well I'll visit when you get home."
"I'll be there to help Tamara, and she really should rest when she gets home. Only family for a few days you know." States Mrs. Taylor
"Family huh??? Who needs enemies." Mrs. McDaniels rolls her eyes at Edna.
"Mary" LaKresha and Mr. McDaniels usher her out the room.
The next day she is released and her Mother moves in with them. The boys bunk with each other and Enda takes JJ's room. Her Mother is driving her crazy, telling her how to be a better wife and mother. Nothing she ever did was good enough for Edna. If she brought home all A's, Edna would always ask, What man wanted a wife smarter then them, Back then all Tamara wanted was College. Edna would be on her constantly about her weight. Tamara was a size fourteen by the time she reached middle school. She wasn't fat, but she was thick and had nothing but curves, Edna had been a size four her whole life and could not see her daughter being happy as a BIG girl. She put Tamara on diet after diet, they worked for a while, then as soon as she got off them the weight can back. Tamara was toned, she played tennis, ran track and was on the basketball team. Her Mother was just never satisfied with her only daughter. The only time Tamara had ever seen her Mother happy was when she agreed to marry Jason.
Three weeks after her release, she couldn't take any more." Mom I think it's time you went home."
"But Tamara you need me here."
"I'm fine, It's been three weeks, The doctor cleared me, I just can't do any heavy lifting, that's all."
"Jason feels better with me here."
Tamara decided to change her course "Mom, Jason and I really need to be alone, we can't do that with you here."
"But Jas....."
"Mom, how can we work on another grandchild, with you in the next room?"
Mrs. Taylor smiles, "You're right, I'll talk to Jason tonight,tell him it's time."
She spent another week with them. Lately Jason has been nothing but attentive to Tamara. They talk more, he spends time with her and the kids. He has even stopped sleeping out. Tamara is in heaven. This is the Jason she remembered. The loving caring Jason. Months go by. Soon six months have passed.She and Jason are preparing for Tasha's second birthday which is November second. They plan to throw a big party in their yard. They have invited everyone, they even have a spacewalk and clowns, plus a little train that will ride the kids around the block. It is Friday and the party is scheduled for Sunday afternoon. Tamara is making the party favors and wrapping Tasha's gifts. She stops to get dinner on the table. Jason should be home soon,she smiles. Things are still great between them, ever since that day in hospital when he promised her things would be better between them, he has kept his word. Man life couldn't be any greater. "Thank you God!!!"
After dinner Jason is in Tasha's room playing with her and the boys. Tamara is in the living room once again stuffing gift bags. She hears Jason come in the room.
"Ohh so you decided to stop running from the hard work out here?" she teases
whap she feels a sharp pain in her temple and she falls to the floor. Jason is on top of her punching her in the face, after a while Tamara doesn't even feel the licks anymore, nor can she taste the blood sliding down her throat. When he finally finishes pounding on her he stands and tells her to stand up. Tamara stands and he slaps her, she falls on the sofa this time.
"Did you think you could hide this from me? Throwing her birth control pills at her. How did he find that she wonders.
"Our daughter wanted one of old dolls from the shelf in her closet, a shoe box fell over and look what I found inside!!!!!!!!" he smacks her again, then he grabs her neck and starts to choke her. " I should kill you!!!" He tells her as she is trying to gasp for breath.
"Please" she sobs.
"What"
"Please kill me." He looks at her in disbelief.
"You would love that wouldn't you. I kill you then I look like the bad guy. Go in the bathroom and clean yourself up." When she doesn't rise fast enough he slaps her upside her head.
"Mommy you okay?" Her screams have sent the children into the living room." Mommy you okay" Justin questions again.
"JJ take your brother and sister back to your room." Jason yells. They no better than to argue with their father.
"Get up Tamara, Go clean yourself up and cancel this party." He slams the front door behind him.
Tamara cries at the sight she faces in the bathroom mirror, Tamara is dark-skinned, like a Hershey chocolate bar. Her father used to call her his Lil Hershey
Kiss. Her face is now black and blue, hers eyes are mere slits from the swelling, blood is