Nevaeh, Hope Moss [bts book recommendations .TXT] 📗

later she hears the front door slam.
"Congratulations Tamara, Your pregnant" she must have heard Dr.Richardson wrong.It was time for her annual Well Woman Exam. They had asked for some urine when she said her last cycle had been in April. It was now July. She had missed a couple of periods,but when she was stressed she became irregular.
"What?"
"I said...."
"I know but how"
Dr Richardson starts laughing, "I'm pretty sure you know how after three kids."
But Jason and I haven't had sex since I've been home, Then she remembers "Oh my God, I have to go."
"Are you okay Tamara?"
She assures Dr. Richardson that she is fine, she gets dressed and heads home. When Jason comes home she has packed all her stuff and the kids. She tried to call Trell but got no answer. She was carrying Trell's baby, she knew that for sure. She and Jason had not had sex since she came back home, he was trying to prove to her he had changed. He really seemed to be trying but Tamara's heart was no longer in it. She knew a month after being home she couldn't stay. She knew there was better and she wanted it for her and her kids. Since JJ had been back, he was angry and withdrawn again, The five months at the McDaniel's she had seen a whole different child, A happy child.
"What's this?" Jason asks as he walks in the door.
"Jason I'm leaving you." He starts laughing
"I'm serious, I can't do this anymore."
He realizes she's serious "What are you talking about?" he grabs her arm. She pulls it back "I'm not afraid of you anymore. All this time I stayed because I didn't have the courage to want more, but I do Jason, I want more than this"
"Go unpack those bags" he pushes her.She just stands there.He slaps her across her face. "Go now!!!!!!!"
She slaps him back, He looks stunned for a moment. "Oh so you grew some balls?" He punches her in her face. Tamara jumped on him with all of her strength. She fought him back. Every lick she got, she gave. One hit sent her across the room. Jason Junior came running into the room and attacked his Dad.
"Leave my Mommy alone!!!" He beat at his Father's leg
"Boy are you crazy?" He backhands his oldest son so hard he hit the living room wall " Now you've turned by son against me?" he advances towards Tamara "I'm going to kill you!"
Tamara doesn't even hear him, All her concentration was on her son as he went flying across the room, Now he wasn't moving.
"JJ" She screams running to her oldest son. She picks him up, but he's so still, too still.
"Jason get help"
"I didn't mean..."
"Just call for an ambulance, Jason NOW!!!" He goes to touch his son,
"Get away from him" she cradles her child crying hysterically "Mommy's sorry baby, Mommy's so sorry"
Jason calls 911 and runs to his car. The police and ambulance arrive. They transport JJ to the hospital and puts out a warrant for Jason's arrest. Tamara calls Key who meets her at the hospital, when she arrives her parents are with her. Three hours later Trell arrives, he looks like he's been in a fight himself, his clothing is torn and his knuckles are bloody. The hospital was preparing a bed for JJ he had a broken arm and a concussion. He tried to smile when Trell walked in.
"Hey Big Man, How you doing?"
JJ started crying
"What's wrong Man?" he sits on the end of JJ's bed.
"I tried to do like you said, but I couldn't" he cries harder
"What Sweetie?" Tamara asks her son.
"Uncle Trell said a man always protects the women in his family" he cries and looks at his mom who's crying. She pulls him in for a hug, being careful not to jog his injured arm. "I tried Uncle Trell I tried really hard" Trell is crying also. He looks at Tamara and notices the marks on her face and arms.
"I'm proud of you son" he hugs JJ.
"You are?" Trell reaches behind him and unhooks the cross on the chain around his neck, He put it around JJ's neck.
"My Dad gave this to me when I graduated from High school, cause he said he was so proud of me, now I'm giving it to you. You did good JJ."
JJ fingers the gold cross "Really? Mom look?" He shows off to Tamara.
"Nice baby"
Dr. Richardson walks in the room. "Hey JJ, How are you feeling?"
"I'm okay" She talks to JJ for awhile, till he can't hold his lids open anymore. She starts to head out the room and looks at Tamara. "Tamara you really ought to get checked out. Make sure everything is okay with the baby." she walks out the door.
Tamara tries not to look at Trell.He gets up from the chair and heads out the room.
Tamara runs behind him " Trell wait!!!"
"Im out, Tell lil man I'ma check him later."
"Please Trell just listen." she grabs his arm. He pulls away
"I can't believe you Ma, You got pregnant again for that nigga. I shoulda killed his ass when I found him."
"What?"
"Nothing"
"What did you do Trell? She grabs his arm, He snatches his arm out her grasp.
"Ain't this some shit, This nigga got yo son in the hospital Ma, and you still worried about his grimy ass, What the hell wrong with you Tamara. You know what you and that nigga deserve each other. He starts to walk off.
"I was worried about my child's father, Trell I was worried about YOU!!.
That stops him in his tracks. "What you mean."
"Trell I'm almost four months pregnant, I conceived in April, LaTrell, since I've been home, I haven't slept with Jason. This is your baby Trell our baby, I was leaving Jason, That's what the fight was about. I told him I couldn't stay with him. Our bags were packed I was coming to you, I called and left you a message.
"I'm sorry Tamara, I really wished I woulda killed that nigga now." He pulls her close and rubs her still flat belly. "So you having my seed huh Ma?" He smiles.
"Yeah seems that way."
"You know yall coming home with me when JJ get out the hospital right?"
"Trell I still have things I wanna do. I've been with Jason since I was sixteen, don't get me wrong." she assures him when he starts to protest. "I wanna be with you, but I wanna learn how to count on myself, That's all I'm saying.
"Tamara, I have three rooms at my house, you and Tasha can bunk together,and the boys can have the other room. I just wanna know your safe. That's all." He kisses her."I will even help you with school after the baby is born."
She shakes her head, " No, I wanna do that on my own Trell. Maybe it would be better to get out the city till this is over with Jason.'
"So, You'll come?"
"Yeah, at least till the baby is born"
He hugs her and swings her around. 'Trell could you stay please?"
They head back to JJ's room.
The police caught up with Jason and he was charged with two counts of Aggravated Assault and Injury to a minor. His bail was set at sixty-thousand dollars. Tamara's mother paid six thousand for his bond. This Tamara found out through Key, Tamara had moved in with Trell after JJ was released from the hospital. She was now five months pregnant and gaining weight, she had a healthy glow and her and the kids were doing well. Trell was true to his word. Tamara slept in the room with Tasha, Trell didn't push her about sex at all. He told her when she was ready he would be.Tamara was slowly learning what love was. Trell taught her things, he encouraged her to spent time with Key. He even babysat, when they wanted to take in a movie or lunch. JJ no longer asked about his Daddy. Trell found him a therapist that specialized in kids. The only thing that put a damper on her happiness was her mother. She called to check on her because she still loved her.
'Tamara, Why are you doing this to Jason?"
"Mom he broke my son's arm.'
"He said that was an accident, Jason Jr. came up on him and he reacted. You know he would never hurt those kids."
Tamara had had enough "Look Mom I wanna have a relationship with you, but you have got to accept the fact I'm divorcing him as soon as I can."
"I always knew Mary's boy was no good, how could he break up your home like that."
"Look Mom I'll call you later I can't talk right now.'
"When are you gonna let Jason see his kids, he loves his kids, he wants you to know he's sorry, they suspended him at work Tamara. He needs your support, he supported you all these years and this is how you repay him, I didn't raise you like this. I feel so sorry for him in the house all alone. I've been cooking his meals. You know he has nobody since Mable passed last year.
"Mom I really gotta go, Love you bye.' She hung up the phone, why couldn't her mother see. Why couldn't she love me like that. I'm her child not Jason. She sits on the sofa curls up her feet and cry. That's exactly how Trell found her when he came home. He pulls her onto his lap and caresses her hair, It is now almost down her back. Trell said he always liked long hair on her.
"I just talked to my Mom."
"She still on that bullshit?" he rubs her feet.
"Ohh baby that feels good." she sits back "She always does the same thing, plead Jason's case. Why doesn't she want me to be happy?" She cries on Trell's shoulder. He holds her and lets her get it out.
"Are you happy ma?"
She looks in his eyes "I am very happy" she kisses him.
Tamara is now in her eighth month of pregnancy. She has finally moved into the bedroom with Trell. The kids are crazy about LaTrell, he takes his time with them, he even reads to them at night. The have found out the sex of the baby. They are having a girl. "Now the house is even" The boys are excited about their baby sister,even though they said they wanted a brother.
The family had just left Tamara's appointment with Dr. Mackey Tamara's new Gyn. That was the hardest for Tamara. She didn't have Dr. Richardson this pregnancy, because they didn't wanna risk running into Jason. But, they were given an excellent referral.
Trell parks the car.He comes around to open the door for her. He gets to the front of the car and Tamara hears bop bop Trell goes down. Tamara screams and jumps out the car "Trell? Trell baby"
She is pulled up by her hair" So this nigga baby na huh?" Jason smacks Tamara with the butt of the gun, she falls to her knees.
"Jason,what are you doing, lets talk about this."
"Naw bitch I been trying to talk for months and you wasn't hearing it. he pointed the gun at her. You want that nigger to raise my seeds, let'em raise from the grave."
bop bop he shoots Tamara in her stomach and her jaw, He moves around her towards the car,
"No " she tries to speak but the blood in her throat is preventing her from talking.She see's Jason stick his gun hand in the car, She hears a series