Chanel, Tweety_96 ... [reading in the dark txt] 📗

that Jermaine is good at is fucking and eating. Other than that he's useless, so I tend to put his talents to good use. "Damn.",Jermaine said as he was holding my leg up. You can actually tell when Jermaine gets tired because his moans and curse words turn into short pants for air like a furry dog in the summertime. I still feel insecure about my body in front of Jermaine because not too long from now, im going to have stretch marks,swollen feet,chubby face, and a huge watermelon stomach. I want to cry just thinking about it.  Jermaine and I came at the same time. He came inside me and it felt really good. I got up to take a quick shower while he went to the kitchen. I came back out and put the same clothes on since I only wore them for a minute and a half before taking it off to 'throw it back' to Jermaine. I am not about to squeeze back into that horrifying Victoria's Secret tank top and boy shorts set.  Instead, I just put on the bra and red flame thong. I turned the light off in my room and put the nightlight on in the hallway (in case Cayden wakes up) and quickly climbed underneath the covers. He came walking back into the room with a bottle of cold water. "You want some water?",he asked. I shook my head no and he shrugged his shoulders. I unhooked my bra, because it felt as if my titties were being crushed and I could barely breathe. Jermaine took his T-shirt off and climbed under the covers next to me. I couldn't sleep so I turned over and stared at the ceiling with a million thoughts racing through my mind. I flinched when I felt Jermaine's masculine fingers caressing the back of my neck. "What are you doing?",I asked him. "We both know that you are not going to sleep anytime soon.",he said. I rolled my eyes in the darkness. He was right, shit was picking my brain alive and I can't go to sleep. "What's wrong? I know you sleepy as hell cause you was falling asleep when we was fucking, but now you wide awake. Tell me.",He urgued me. He wrapped his arms around me so that it fell loosely around my stomach. I pushed his arm away from my stomach because I knew my stomach felt different and I didn't even want him touching my skin, so I really didn't want him touching my stomach. "So you have an attitude with me now?",he asked. I sighed heavily. "It's not you, it's just that I don't feel cute at all right now.",I admitted to him. "Chanel, are you serious?",he asked me. I looked over at him and wondered what in the hell was he talking about. "Your ass and titties just went up another size and you don't feel sexy at all?" I rolled my eyes as I thought about how much of a asshole he can be sometimes. "You are forgetting about stress, a high risk of depression, no more parties, my body will never be the same after this, my education, and babysitters, and again stress." I explained to him.  He was silent for a moment as he thought about all the things I just said. "What is the stress going to come from?",he asked.  That was actually a good ass question. "Well first off, balancing bills and education is hard as hell but with a baby on top of it just tops it and more stress about the college I'm going to be able to go to.",I whined.

Jermaine

    Hell I got to admit, I never thought of it like that. It's going to affect us in a lot of different ways. I remember when my dad first told me about the birds and the bees. "If you know you're in a situation where you can't take care of a baby, then wrap your shit up. I don't care how cute the little girl is, if you want to be staring at her lovely face for the rest of your life then strap your shit.",He said to me. I was the kind of kid that always was kissing girls and fingering behind the last bookshelf in the library, but never wanted to hit a girl because I was just to scared. It all changed once I met Chanel. She stood out because she was different and I liked that. She didn't flirt with every nigga who tried to spit game on her. She is not, will not and never will be a hoe. She's a lady, not just some random female who's name you can't remember except for when you need something from her. I'm officially settling down and if it don't work out then it don't work out between us, but I'm going to at least try. I want my kid to know that I'm going to try my best whether they like it or not. Even if Chanel does move on later in life, I'm still gonna be there for Chanel and our kid together. I'm not gonna be dipping on her ass. She just needs to let her guard down and trust me because I'm not here to hurt her.

Chanel

I am close to having a brain aneurysm. Seriously. I can't stop thinking about whether or not I'll be able to finish my senior year in college. After all, it's the start of thanksgiving break and in two days Jermaine and I will have to face all of our family members together to tell them what we plan on doing. The fucked up part about it is that we don't even know. I just want to be able to go to high school and get a diploma. I don't want to be a statistic where I can be one of the teen mothers that go to high school to drop out or get a G.E.D.  It's frusterating me so much, but I can't do  anything about it. I honestly keep thinking about how my life is going to be ruined but at the back of my head, I keep thinking about getting an abortion. I just don't want to bring another helpless little human being into a big situation. I just think it's slick right, but if I go through with the abortion, then I will have to come back home and face Jermaine. Eventhough this wasn't a planned pregnancy, I know that I will hurt the hell out of Jermaine's fellings if I abortioned our baby. It just wouldn't feel right.  This is the person that I am in love with, and may even marry one day. The fact that I'm pregnant with his baby, go get an abortion and come back home without warning him advance so he can flip out on my ass?  Oh hell, no. This is how domestic violence is started. The girl goes and does something stupid that she is going to regret one day and the boy has a bad reaction to it. I just want to continue to have the open and honest relationship that we have right now. I don't think that it's nessecary to lie and cheat with the person that you are currently dating. If you are cheating and sneaking around, then don't say it behind noone's back. You should be a real thug and tell them what's going on. I shook my head from side to side as I drifted off to sleep with Jermaine's arms wrapped around me.

                                                                                                                        

The Relationship Breakdown

Jermaine

   I woke up in the morning to all the damn hummingbirds and shit in the trees. I smiled as I looked over to my right to see Chanel's tired frame. With the covers on top of her, you can barely see her growing stomach. She was only 7 weeks now, but her belly is already forming. Chanel swears up and down that she looks fat but you can't even see her belly poking out with her clothes on. It kinda just looks like she ate a whole orange and it just dropped to the bottom of her stomach. I love her, but I just can't imagine settling down to a baby any time soon. I slowly rose from the bed and went to the kitchen to start making some waffles. It has been quiet in the morning time over here without Cayden's energetic self. Just playing with him makes me want a son. After I got done making my waffles, I went into the living room and turned on the tv. I didn't even bother making anything for Chanel because the first thing that she is going to do when she wakes up is throw up. I sighed as I looked at the tv at Maury looking at a dude cussing out a girl talking about he doesn't have no kids. I squinted my eyes at the flat screen looking at the girl, because she looked familiar. I honestly don't know her from a to z but her face looks so familiar. They both looked tense when Maury pulled out the envelope from under his chair. Just then, Chanel was coming into the livng room with just a towel around her. Her skin was glowing as she got out of the shower. "My show is on.",she said. I focused my attention back on the tv screen as Maury was about to read the results. "When it comes to 4-year-old Neaveh, ZenDarius, You are NOT the father.", Maury reavealed. ZenDarius jumped up while pumping his fists in the air. The cameras then started following the girl and she broke down crying on the sofa. Chanel frowned and shook her head at the girl. "I feel so bad when girls go on national tv to embarrass themselves.", She said sadly. I shrugged and laughed at the girl as she was apologizing to the dude that she thought was her babydaddy. I won't ever be embarrassed by a female like that. 

 

Chanel

     "Bae, you started to pack for tommorrow?", Jermaine asked me. I turned around and looked at him questionly.  "What's tommorrow?", I asked him. Was it a date because I needed that right about now.  "Tommorrow is Thanksgiving. You forgot already.", He replied. I just felt my face fall to a frown. "Why you don't like holidays?", He asked me. I sighed heavily, he just doesn't get it. "It's not that I don't like holidays, I just don't like family get togethers.", I explained to him. "Not every family was as easy-going as yours. You didn't have to see as much problems and drama and the rachetness. My aunt's career is a being a damn Con-Artist! Have you ever been in the presence of one? Hell do you even know what it is, Jermaine??!!??", I asked frantically. I paused and waited for his