Chanel, Tweety_96 ... [reading in the dark txt] 📗

shower and called my sister, Camryn over to help me go through a full day of shopping. "Hey, Chanel.", Camryn said. I looked over to my bedroom door and saw that once again, she had let herself in the house. I smiled back at my sister. "Hey, Cam. I'm ready when you are.", I told her. She rolled her eyes and we got in her car. Cayden is at by his dad's for the whole Thanksgiving week. I wonder how that's going to turn out. When we got to Tanger Outlet, we picked a lot of cute snags and deals on things.  For going clothes-wise, I mostly bought  plain onesies for the baby, since we didn't know the sex and clothes for my post-baby body. I have to make sure I have no stretch marks on my stomach or any other part of my skin. I have to look cute this summer. I know I'm going to have to have the talk with Jermaine about what the hell was I thinking last night. I really didn't mean it. We got home an hour later, and Camryn had called Cayden's dad to pick him up from my place.

 

Camryn

       I feel bad that my sister has to be bored and pregnant at home. Chanel doesn't even deserve to have a baby at a young age. I feel horrible for letting her go down this road, because my parents were so mad at me for getting pregnant. They said that Chanel will look at me and do the same exact thing. I laughed and rolled my eyes, but shit hit the fan when she found out that she's pregnant. We need to go out before my niece or nephew comes. I need to ask her questions and so many are going through my mind,but I can't do it without crying or getting frusterated so I need to keep my mind off of the negative side and keep it on the positive side. I'm scared for her.  I got dressed in a cute flowing, blue top and gray jeans with some matching blue heels. I waited for Chanel in the car. She came out with a long floor-length white dress that faded to gray at the bottom and white flats. The dress flows down her slender figure, making her stomach looking as if she isn't pregnant. We headed out to The Lounge and when we walked in, all eyes was on my little sister because she looks beautiful.  While we were dancing, I saw a couple dancing and doing shit that should be done in a room. The dude was feeling all on her small ass thighs and he is drunk as hell. Eventhough he isn't facing our way, you can tell that he is drunk and he kind of looks like somebody I know from behind , but I can't put my finger on it. I turned around and danced with my sister.

 

Chanel

            I was dancing with my sister and all of a sudden I feel like someone is watching me. I turn around and see, Tyshon, one of the guys that always chills with Jermaine. He is a nice guy, but I'm with Jermaine and it will be disrespectful to see him while I'm with Jermaine.  He never told me that he had feelings for me, but I ended up having slight feelings for him. I ignored them and left them when I started liking Jermaine. I saw my sister staring at something that was behind me, but when she saw me trying to figure out what she was staring at, she turned her focus back to me and continued dancing with me. At first I was going to let it go, but her eyes kept traveling behind me in confusion. I turned around and followed her gaze and saw what she was looking at. I could tell Jermaine from anywhere in this world, but I pray that this man in the corner rubbing on this floozy isn't him.  Before I can stop myself, I was walking up to him and slapping him in the face. I couldn't even look him in the face when he realized that it was me and kept screaming my name. I can't believe this bullshit. Makes me wonder if we were ever together.

Grown Apart

Camryn

     Eversince the feud with Jermaine, Chanel has been staying at my house. She refuses to have anything to do with Jermaine and I don't blame her. I feel heartbroken for her because I had to go through almost the same thing. She's numb. She won't even play with Cayden. All this stress and depression is not good for the baby. "Chanel, are you okay?", I asked. She looked at me and smiled softly. "I'm straight.",she replied. I know that she isn't and she's just trying to be strong for herself and her kid. I need her to tell me what is going through her mind right now. 

Chanel

     I can't think right, eat right, or even sleep good at night because of this. Jermaine has my mind messed up bigtime. I just can't imagine being without him, but at the same time I can't deal with him. I had took all my clothes and my ipad and laptop out of the house and have them over here at my sister's house. I need to get my own place away from everyone for a while and start fresh with just me and my baby. I need to find an escape out of this disaster. I just don't have the funds and I can work, but not at the good paying jobs because I'm pregnant. And if I do lie and get hired, I'll get layed off or fired for lying when they find out that I'm pregnant. I can't take this.

 

Jermaine

        I fucked up badly.

         ****Flashback****

 

I came home with my homeboy, Tyshon, and I walked through the front door of my house and he was going to stay the night because he lives two cities away from me. As we walked in, I thought that Chanel was sleeping because all the lights in the apartment was off. When we walked in the living room, I saw Chanel's Macbook gone and her keys were not on the table. I speed-walked into our room to find all the drawers from her dresser on the bed. Empty. I looked in the closet and saw that all her shoes were gone. I looked in the bathroom and saw all her stuff gone accept a few things that was piled on the corner of the long counter next to the sink. It was pictures of us together, and everything that I had bought her; earrings, necklaces and the my Obey shirt that she always wear to bed when she feels like it. "Man she'll be back in the morning, she just angry and all that fume will wear off.", I said to Tyshon. I can't even believe my own self as I was sayin it. I need to make it up to her when she calms the fuck down.

 

Tyshon

       I honestly knew that this was going to happen. Jermaine is a good person at heart, but he does things that hurts Chanel without even realizing it. And the worst part about this is that Chanel just knows about this time and is not aware of him going to 'work' at night to fuck other hoes. I want to tell Chanel, but I also want to be true to my nigga and stay out of his bussiness and stay a true ride-or-die nigga. "If Chanel comes back, hit me up brah. I'm going to Shay's house.", he said before he left me in the apartment alone. I stood there as I registered what was going through my head. He just cheated on his pregnant girlfriend and instead of going to see how she doing, he goes to see how his hoe is doing. I left the apartment and got in my car to go find Chanel. I know for a fact that she's by her older sister, Camryn's house.  I need to give her hints for leaving Jermaine before he really hurts her.

 

It's For The Best

Chanel

  I am truly moving on with my life. I know that I am going to become a young mother, but because of my ex-boyfriend's ex-best friend, I can start over a whole different way. I was crushed when I saw him  hugged up on another girl. It made all my emotions come out and let it get the best of me. I shouldn't have gone at the girl at the grocery store like that, because I shoud have found out what the hell was going on. Now I completely understand everything. Not just what was going on with Jermaine and his unfaithfulness, but what Camryn and my family was trying to warn me about. I wish I can take back ever meeting Jermaine and his lies. I don't even want him around my kid when he or she is born.  I'm done getting played over and over again. I have never been dumped and that because every boy who I went with, has cheated on me and I had to dump them. I know many things will happen in my life that I won't agree with, but it's life and quite frankly; I'm just glad the Lord blessed me to let me see another day and sent a wonderful angel. Jermaine is non-existent in my life for the time being until he goes and complains to someone about why he doesn't see his child and I'm going to tell them. It' s about time I'm doing me and I think that it's for the best.