A Simple Flame That Wants to Shine, Alexis Doberstein [books to read in your 20s female .txt] 📗

when you felt that cold shiver down your spine.

He did that. He can make you feel emotions. And you will think that those emotions are real.” Brandon spoke up and said “In one way being a vampire can be useful but in another it’s horrible. The lives that I have to take just to stay alive. When I see the light disappear from their eyes…….it’s something you’ll never forget. It’s something that will always haunt you.” He closed his eyes and put his hands on his face and slid down the wall into a crouch. Kevin got up and walked over to him and started patting his shoulder while whispering. Kevin whispered something else to Brandon and he looked up at me. I looked at Brandon. Brandon nodded and got up. He started walking over towards me. And I didn’t know what to do. Brandon sat down all the way at the end of the couch and did make any other movements. I looked at Kevin and he nodded. I looked back at Brandon and he smiled and said “You’re afraid of me. That doesn’t surprise me. But I’m not going to hurt you. I would never hurt you. You’re like family to us. I’m sorry for what happened but I kind of freaked out and instead of thinking before I did, I just did. And then when I realized what I had done. I called Kevin immediately. And he came here as soon as he could. I really am sorry. It was not right for me to have done that. And I know that Kevin is still upset with me. And I don’t know how to make it up to him or to you. I………I’m more sorry then you will ever know.” With that said he put his hands back on his face and did move or make a sound. I looked at Kevin and he said “When vampires hurt the ones they care about or the ones they love, they are very mad at themselves. It’s what I call an inner war with themselves. They fight with themselves because they may want to do what’s right but what’s right generally will not be in their nature or their instincts. So it causes a conflict. He’s trying to do what’s right and he’s having to fight because it’s not in his nature.

Vampires are supposed to be creatures of the night. And destroy human souls and take lives. Well Brandon is not like that. But that’s only because he’s fighting against his instincts. And it’s very hard. I see him struggle all the time.” I look at Brandon and for once I really do believe what they are saying. I believe them because I can see Brandon struggling. I can see that he’s in pain. Brandon looked up at me. I looked at him. His face looks shocked. I look at Kevin and he looks confused. Brandon spoke up and said “How……you……..why……….you do understand don’t you? How is that even possible?” He looked at Kevin and said “I can feel her sympathy for me. And she does understand how much I hurt. How is that possible? Unless…….” Kevin looked at Brandon and said “No. It can’t be. I don’t understand how it could be.” Brandon looked at me and said “Sara would you do me a favor if I asked?” I looked at Kevin.

Kevin looked at me with fear in his eyes and then nodded. I looked at Brandon and said “Yes. I guess.” Brandon smiled and said “I want to do an experiment. Will you please help me?” I nodded my head yes. So he continued “Would you be willing to kiss me?” I looked at him like he was crazy. And Kevin spoke up and said “Brandon. Why are you doing this? I don’t even think it’s possible.” Brandon looked at him and said “I think it is because otherwise I wouldn’t be able to feel her emotions as clearly.” Kevin nodded his head. So Brandon turned back to me. I looked at him. Brandon said “It’s just a little test to see if you feel something and if I feel something.” Kevin chuckled and said “Yeah. That’s putting it lightly Brandon. What he’s trying to say is that 1 out of a 100 vampires ever find their mates. The ones that they are suppose to be with forever.

And Brandon thinks that it might be you. But the only true way to find out is if you guys kiss and you guys feel something. And by something I mean something like that is not even normal when you kiss a person.” I looked at him and said “Are you serious?” He nodded his head. I looked back to Brandon and he said “Don’t worry. If nothing happens we can just forget about it and move on with our lives.” I nodded my head and said “Alright. I guess I can do it.” Brandon smiled and scooted over towards me on the couch. He cradled my face in his hands and I closed my eyes. His lips met mine and the minute they did my blood felt like it was boiling under my skin on my lips. He moved his hands to my waist and pulled me closer. I put my arms around his neck. He bit my lip and I granted him entry. The minute our tongues met I felt and electrical charge.

I didn’t want to stop kissing him. A wave of heat and passion swept over me. I don’t understand why I’m feeling this way about Brandon. I use to feel this way about Kevin, but with Brandon it’s so much stronger. Brandon finally broke the kiss and when he did I wasn’t sitting on the couch anymore. I was sitting in his lap. He kissed me one more time. I looked at Kevin and he looked like he was going to cry. He looked at me with sadness and anger in his eyes. Brandon looked at Kevin and said “I’m so sorry Kevin. I know how you felt about her, but I know what I felt when I kissed her and I’m sure she felt the same thing. Didn’t you Sara?” I looked at him and then at Kevin and said “Kevin I’m so….so sorry. But when I kissed you over the summer yeah I felt something, but when I kiss Brandon I feel my blood boil under my skin and I feel heat and passion that I’ve never felt before with anybody. I still love Kevin. You’re still like a brother to me and you’ll always be like that.”

He nodded his head and Brandon patted him on his back. Kevin backed away from us and said “I think I’m going to go get some fresh air.” Brandon agreed, so Kevin went out the front door. Brandon looked back at me and smiled. I couldn’t help but smile back. He grabbed my hands and pulled me up so I could stand up. But as soon as I was standing he picked me up and twirled me around. I couldn’t help but laugh. But deep inside I still felt bad for what this did to Kevin. Kevin is still really important to me. Now what do I do?

I don't want to lose you!

Kevin and I haven’t spoken since the day he found out about Brandon and I. I can tell that he’s really upset with me and that he’s hurt, but I don’t know what to do. I still love him but in a different way. Like a brother. And that doesn’t seem to be enough for him so he’s just ignoring me every chance he gets. I want to talk to him and straighten this all out, but he’s not even giving me the chance………….As I’m walking to my locker I see him coming my direction. I look at him and wave. He looks at me with daggers in his eyes and then he walks right passed me. I turn back and I follow him to his locker. He notices and turns around and says “Why are you following me?” I look at him and say “Kevin I know that you’re mad at me and I know that your hurt. I didn’t even know that this would happen with your brother. Just because I’m with your brother doesn’t mean that I don’t want to still be your best friend. You are like a brother to me, and I don’t want to lose you.” He looked at me and his eyes softened for just the slightest second and then they went back to the daggers. He looked at me and said “Well have fun with my brother. Tell him I say hi on your way out.” And with that said he walked away from me. But as he walked away he ended up knocking over my books that I was carrying. I bend down to start picking them up and notice that he’s still standing there watching me. He has sadness in his eyes. I finish picking up my books and stand up to look at him. I mumble the word bye and I start walking towards my next class. I didn’t even get 10 feet away from him when I’m knocked down again. But this time I can’t get up because there’s something on top of me. I try to turn so I can see what it is but whatever it is it won’t let me move. Next thing I hear is a growl in my ear. My heart is beating so fast I think it’s going to just break through my chest and fall to the ground. I don’t know what to do because I can’t move. I scream for help. A teacher came into the hallway and looked at me lying on the floor. And she screamed herself. Whatever it was that was on top of me disappeared. My whole body felt weak. The teacher yelled for one of her students to get more help. The teacher came running over to me to try and help me, but it was no use. I was already going under.

I opened my eyes and looked around. It looks like I’m in the school nurses office. I tried to sit up but a hand stopped me. Nurse Judy stopped me and said “Oh no. You stay lying down. I’m surprised that you’re even awake.” I looked at her confused. And she just nods her head. I’m trying to think back to what happened and I can only remember that me and Kevin were talking that’s it. But I feel like there’s something else I should be remembering, but just can’t. I tried asking Nurse Judy if she knew anything that happened to me and she wouldn’t tell me. She kept dodging the question and she was asking questions of her own. It annoys me when adults do this. My back and my neck are in severe pain, and Nurse Judy said that I’m to go home and stay in bed so that I don’t do any serious damage to myself.