MY HATCH POCKET JOURNAL, BILLY COY [mobi reader TXT] 📗

was artificial, superficial and also guilt of environmental degradation. It was the same fate that had caught up with her in all her past twenty relationships; all her ex-boyfriends had eventually discovered her hidden secret, but this time it was a global call that had led to her demise. Anyway, soon this new guy too, had to leave her. She had never fallen for a guy so much as she really wanted this guy, and so she was not ready to just give him up just like a running stomach makes us give up whatever we would have probably enjoyed eating.

Anyway, sadly, her crazy love for the guy didn’t end her on the cruise again, for another catch. She turned to heroin for relief. Another bad choice if you ask me. And she had also promised him that she would first die to leave him. But the guy had left her, though she was still in love with him, so what had she talked about? I guess that’s why she turned to heroin and had just not yet died.

Can’t you see the equation? In her, she had not left him; it was he who had left her. The love at first sight that was, had turned into terror at first sight. The women never stopped stalking the guy and attacking him with knives or anything that would harm him. The guy regretted why he had ever step over and introduced himself, so charmingly to her two months back, at the cruise. How things can happen so fast in a short time, I wonder!

The woman became his worst nightmare; in that she shot dead his new girlfriend one month later and knocked him down with her car, almost killing him. But thanks to God, she had been seen by an eyewitness, and before she was arrested she committed suicide by a drug overdose. Meanwhile the guy was in critical condition in hospital and in a coma.


So now you can see the fate of love at first sight, it might be a different story for you, but if it is good, you can only thank God. If it weren’t quick for those two, maybe they would have got to know each other well and shared each other’s secrets and pains, and who knows, maybe then they would have become great lovers or friends and none of that horror would have happened.

Anyway, all I can say to you is that you can turn to God more than you could ever turn to somebody else when things are worse in your life. Don’t ever turn to suicide or violence or crime, those things will only ruin your life. God knows and understands you well, turn to him; he will turn your crazy mind into his temple.


The opposite


I believe everything in the world has its opposite, no matter how sophisticated it my look or seem. We can start with a man and a woman and then move on to other things. When I was running from an angry dog I started to believe that once something was meant to be, it will be, because, when this dog came across a cat along the way, it forgot about me and the poor cat was now its pursuit. It was running after me because I was in a restricted area, so I also made sure that as it ran after me I passed in a cat territory, and definitely that had to distract it off my case. I thank God he made opposites, the damn dog had no idea that my opposite is a woman, and it was stupidly running after me as if I were a bitch. And about those cats, well, I can give you some of the few reasons why I think cats and dogs are opposites: once upon a time in a


place called Jungle there lived a cat family and a dog family. When time evolved and they started fighting for the superiority and occupancy of the jungle, the cat family won the dog family and thus the lion became the king of the jungle. And because of that, what came to be a long battle broke up between the dog and cat family. It was so fierce that the weaker dogs and cats had to run to man’s refuge.

When man gave these weaker animals of the jungle refuge, they became protectors and pets to him, respectively. And because dogs were for protection, they had to stay outside the house in the cold, and this brought back many bad memories of the jungle days, it hurt them so bad; whereas their counterparts, the cats, were well pampered and stayed in the warmth of the house because they were man’s pets (man’s darlings). Boy did that bring trouble for the cats; since these domestic dogs were far more powerful than the domestic cats, and with the envy about the cats being the rulers of the jungle, the domestic dogs saw ground for supremacy too and so they proclaimed the kingship of the domestic animal kingdom, and so they were kings too. And that is why domestic cats and dogs rarely stay in peace with each other, though man has tried to tame them both into being friends, but the enmity prevails.

Anyway, things happen in the world because they are meant to happen that way. I don’t think anything happens by coincidence. Besides, if there was really anything like coincidence in life, change would have been reversed every time it happens, but everything that happens now happened long time ago; we are just going through the same cycle of events, but in a more different format. It is like putting on a blue shirt and the next day you’re putting on a black one, they will all remain clothes, and you will still be the same person putting them on, though they would have changed in color.


We human-beings always want change, but we never realize that no matter how much we change or bring about change, we shall always have the same problems, same events, happenings and incidents around the world and around us or with us. It is good to have change, but wasn’t the ancient world so much comfortable than today where technology is so sophisticated, destructive, discriminative and robust. A lot has been done in guise of improving our lives but what better thing do we have that is making the present life more appeasing and comfortable than the ancient world. Yes we can now live in a world where technology makes our bodies more docile because we tend to sit back and let technology make everything easy hence making our bodies weak, diseased and more distant to a longer life like the one our ancestors lived.

Certainly, I also love using this new technology, but if I have to lie to my body using a vibrator for sexual satisfaction, then boy I need a heavenly sent shrink or surgeon to check if my brain or mind is really living in the real world or it’s all just fiction.

No matter how much we relate with that kind of technology, we shall always crave and fall back to what is natural, because what is natural is what we were created by God to be. Some people see technology and modernity as opposed to the ancient world, but don’t kid yourselves my friends, we are living in the modern world, but as far as I know, what happened in the ancient world is still happening even today as much as it happened yesterday, but only in a different format or way.

I know some babies of today don’t have to be born naturally either because scientists want so badly to match their creation to God’s or even challenge him, but if they could also create their own sperms and ovum from nothing, then maybe there would be some opposite between what God did once and now it is evolving and what they do.


As far as I know, no matter how much you try to be opposite from God, you always end up with the devil because that is the opposite, period! Anything that is wrong will always be that way and vice versa. What is basically right will always surpass what is wrong. And even if the sun fell today and burnt everyone on earth, there will still be wrong and right because everything has an opposite, and like poles repel, scientifically and naturally.

I used to go to school in morning so unhappy, but while at school and evening was approaching, I always got so happy and longed to get on the bus and go back home. I guess however long I waited for happiness it had to come eventually because everything has an opposite to it. So if you’re suffering now, don’t put the blame on God or anybody or let despair take over you. Every time it gets dark, day will always come to pass. If you’ve been doing evil for a very long time, don’t be afraid to turn to the lord for refuge, there’s always assured joy and happiness in the lord, and he never pushes away anybody, no matter who you are or what you’ve done. Jesus came for those who are not righteous, so if you’ve been doing wrong, don’t think you can’t change to good or right. I’ve heard of many people who were murderers and are serving life or are on death-raw, but they have turned to Jesus Christ and have been remorseful for the wrongs they did while under the devil’s spell. They have repented their sins to God so that when they die they don’t still end up in hell with the devil. And by the way, St. Paul, that guy in the Bible who wrote the most books in the New Testament, killed a lot of Christians before he became a powerful prophet of God himself. I am not saying you go do dirt and thereafter, when you start being bored of it, repent and turn to Christ, no, that would be different, intended or premeditated sin, with prior knowledge of what is the right thing do, makes you evil even when you repent, because even the devil knows what is right, but because his evil actions are intended and premeditated, he can’t be righteous. Even if he repented, he would easily fall back to being evil because he enjoyed the evil that he did


before. So, don’t ever mess, mock or test God that way or any other way, he is in heaven and you’re on earth. He can strike you dead at anytime he wishes; he is always watching each and every step of your move. Take for example if you’re taking off your clothes one by one and are standing in front of the mirror dancing left to right and back, and unknowingly your five year old child is standing by the door watching daddy or mummy getting it down, if they laughed and you