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         We walked through the tiny's, the mediums, the bigs, and the biggest referring to the stone hedges. We found the one with his name on it. It spelled Khalil Jerrmaine Gamboia. A tear raced down my cheek and I read on. "Beloved Son, Beloved lover and beloved Father" And under that was "1990-2012" More tears ran down my face. I laied my furry princess cover across his grave and sat down. Khalil used to love this cover, I thought to myself. I wiped my tears, straightened my face and corrected my voice. I turned back to see my daughter Rain playing in some freshly dug grave. "Baby girl! Stop come here. Your gonna get your pretty dress all dirty!" She glanced over at me with her golden eyes and flashed a really big smile at me then ran over towards me.

She'd just turned 5 yesterday. "Wanna talk to daddy with me baby?" She's beggnning to take her father's death better now, Rain is handling it better than i was. "Yea!" She hopped in my lap. This girl is fucking up my blue pants! I smirked cause i didnt even care at the moment. "What you gotta tell daddy?" I asked Rain. "Daddy! Yesterday my party was BIG and pretty. Mommy dressed me up as a princess. And i got a haircut! That's pretty too." She didnt really get a haircut. She'd gotten a perm and her hair straightend. Her hair was brown and curly with blonde streaks in it. Most people judged me cause i flat iorn my child's hair at the age of 5. I mean.. I think its cute! Like gosh. Im not causing that much harm to her am i?

" Do you miss daddy?" I asked. "Mhmm!" She smiled. The glow in her eye and that gourgous smile of her's always keeps me happy. Okay. Im sure he misses you too. Soon Rain got tired of sitting and raised up. "Dont go too far Rain!" I called after her. "Okay mommy!" I sighed.

"Boy its been hard without you here. The only thing keeping me sane is our daughter. People are talking about us even more now. Really mean and hurtful things are said by these thristy bitches daily. Its been a year and a half of total bullshit from everyone. And i mean everyone. Your family, Mines also. Your friends. My friends. I just.. Wish you were here man. Like god. I wish you were here to see your daughter grow up. I wish you were here for us to still grow as a couple. We were going so strong. And you.. Ugh. I miss you boy. And i need you. I just really wish.. I need to stop wishing. Your gone. Its nothing i can do to bring you back." I was sobbing. A horn honked behind me. It was my sister Eva. "Bring ya ass on Giabella!!" She yelled hanging out the window of her beatdown ass car. I gathered up my things said my goodbyes got Rain and proceeded home. Life was way better than this before. 

Me and Khalil met when we were in the 1st grade. I always noticed him but didnt pay him too much mind unlike the other females in our class. He was a slight bully, but yet everyone loved him. He was Caramel, With hazel eyes and big dimples. His smile was really nice and he had jet black long hair like the indians Thats why all the females loved him. For the guys.. Hell i still dont know to this very day.

But anyways, One day we were in class working on some type of drawing. He made his way over to my table and sat down. He had never even knew i existed until i so called went out with one of his friends. "So um. can i work with you?" he asked. "Sure" i replied. I met his gaze and fell in love. We started sitting by eachother everyday and became really good friends. Our parents met and we hung out after school alot. We never dated until the 4th grade. Me and him soon broke up because he was moving to another school. We still talked alot though and we went out to little play dates as our families called them.

We kinda drifted apart for the remainder of elementry school and middle school. We met up during those years like 3 times. But that wasnt enough! But we started going to the same highschool. It was the first day of school and i hadnt talked to him in forever. "Bella? Is that you?" He asked from down the hallway squinting at me. I turned around and he was charging towards me. "Bella bear!!" He yelled. I jumped on him "Lil lil. I missed you babykins!" I yelped. He put me Down. "Dang you look.. GOOD!" He examined my body.

"Do i really?" I asked. "Yea. Like you really changed! Your hella sexy now" When we were younger my complexion was light my hair was reaaaally light it seemed like it was blonde and i had no boobs with a little ass. Middle school i began to even out and get thick. "What classes you got lil?" I asked. He showed me his schedule. We had every single class toghther. Even lunch. We walked the halls since we had 20 minuets before class started.

"So uh. Where you staying now?" "With daddy over in hiltop" I lived the the downtown area of Indiana. I moved with him since he had gotten full coustdy over me. Khalil lived on this side of town. He was SUPER popular also. Hoes were coming from left to right hugging all on him when we were walking. Niggas popped up out of nowhere to hold mini conversations with him. Our really good friend Terrance approached us. "Yall two... Yall TWO. Good lawd. Yall back toghther?"

Me and Khalil looked at eachother and started laughing. "Nah. Not yet." Khalil replied. "Yet?" I snapped back. "Yea. Yet." "Shit! If i was in his shoes.. Id be doing the same. As fine as you are now.. I wouldnt let anyone else have you either. Im just sayin." Terrance goofy ass said. "But YO. Terrance you going to Kayla's party tonight?" Khalil asked. Terrance looked over towards me with a look of terror. "Um.. Yeaa! Bitches, Drugs, Drinks. Of corse ima be there." Terrance replied. "Well see ya ass then" Khalil continued to walk ahead. I cleared my throat loudly. "Um. So who's Kayla?" I asked. "Some chick i used to date or whatever."

A pain shot through my heart. He was going to another females party. And that female is his EX at that! I stared at the ground. "What's wrong?" Khalil asked. "Nothing. Nothing at all. Uh.. Ima see you in class okay." I just wanted to find my boyfriend Santana and cry. I dont know why him having been moved on was affecting me so much. Like.. I had already moved on with someone, So why couldnt he? Santana walked through the schools front doors and lit up the hallway. He was smelling.. Like 3 tons of weed.

He smiled and walked over towards me. He was super sexy, Red tatted up with short black hair. "Hey Santana" He bent down to kiss me. "Wassup mami?" He asked. God his accent drove me wild even though i had an accent just like his. "Nothing. Everything cool with you?" I replied. "Yea. I made like 4 drops this morning. So everything's great." Santana was a drug dealer to the local teens around where we lived. "Where'd you go this morning though babe? I was looking everywhere for you." I asked him with alot of attitude in my voice. "Well uh. I had to go handle something" "Oh. Okay. Well uh bae. Look.. So.." I stammered not knowing how he was gonna react to what i was about to say next. "Stop stuttering baby girl your making me nervous." He giggled. I wasnt amused.

"Well look. I talked to Khalil this morning and we have every class toghther." I grinned. I guess i was too excited so his facial expression changed. "Soo.. What the fuck? We only have one class toghther and lunch. So im leaving you around him. NO. no. I need your schedule changed." Santana knew all about Khalil and didnt like the face that were bestfriends. 'I dont like to share' He always says in refrance to Khalil. "But babe. Im not gonna try anything. And he's not gonna try anything" I replied fast. "Okay. I trust you enough baby." Santana's tone cut through my soul like a knife. He was frightining.

I knew if i ever tried to leave him he'd.. Hurt me badly. For the rest of the year everything went smooth. At one point Me, Santana, Khalil and Terrance were able to hang out toghther with no problems. One day it was right before summer break i caught Santana in his car with another girl. She was giving him head and it looked like he enjoyed it. I hope it was really worth loosing his girlfriend of 3 years. I banged on his tented window. I was hurt, and oh so mad. "Open the fucking door NOW Santana! Right now." He swung open the car door and told the girl to scurry on. I stared her down and she ran. I was gonna catch her ass later though. He raised up slowly.

"Santana Layden Leo Andrew Rodridguez! I cant believe you. I delt with all your bullshit for