Forever SoulMates, Selena F. [best books to read for students .TXT] 📗

If something like this happen again, then tell me. Okay?”

“Okay. Okay.” I smile. He kissed me on my forehead again. I lean my head on his chest as I gotten myself together. After a few minutes, I look up at him as he look at me in my eyes. He kiss me on my forehead again, then lean his head against mine.

“Why do you make me feel this way?” My heart was racing.

“I’m wondering the same thing with you.” He smile as he looks at me. He slowly bend down toward me, his lips grazing mine so softly. It was almost as if he was testing my boundary line. I put my hand on his cheek, slowly urging his lips harder against mine. There was a part of me that is telling me to stop, but I didn’t want to. I pulled away a little to breathe. My gaze moved from his eyes to his lips and he kissed me again. Every breath I take was another reminder of what was happening. His scent, the way his hand entangle in my hair, pressing my lips against his with an urgent pace. We laid back as his lips slowly made a pattern of kisses down my jaw and neck. My entire body buzzed with excitement as his hand trail down my body. But, all the excitement was gone as I remembered Tiffany. I pushed Drake away and sat up.

“What?” he said.

“I can’t do this.” I said.

“Why?”

“Tiffany…”

“Lea…”

“I’m serious Drake. We can’t do this. It’s not right.”

“Lea, you are so confusing.” He said as he stood up. I frowned.

“How am I confusing?”

“There is something going on between us and you can’t even see it. Every time when we get so close, you always push me away. You keep sending me mixed signals and I’m getting sick and tired of it.”

“Drake, what you expect me to do? Just kiss you even when you have a girlfriend.”

“Before I even met Tiffany, I had feelings for you, and I know you did too. From the first day we met, I was attracted to you.”

“What?”

“Yea. I was. Why you think I kissed you on the elevator?’

“You really want me to answer that?”

“Lea, I’m serious. I tried very hard not to feel this way, but it was so damn hard. But the night of the club, you had this fire in your eyes as you told me what you thought of me. My feelings grew for you. I’m not sorry that I kissed you. I’m not sorry that we had sex. I’m not sorry I grew deep feelings for you. I wouldn’t change a damn thing about anything. I thought being with Tiffany would change how I feel but it doesn’t. My feelings will never change…and I just thought that you felt the same way. I guess not. You don’t even know what you want.”

“…I don’t know what to say.” Drake sighs.

“You want to know what the hardest thing is. Staying angry with you. So… until you figure whatever is going on, then you know where to find me.”

“Drake…” Before I got to finish, Drake left the room. That one second, I forgot how to breathe. I was waiting for Drake to come back, but he didn’t. All I hear is the door shut. That’s when I start to cry. I pull my knees close to my chest as I cried. As soon as I heard my phone ring, I answered it.

“Hello?” I said as my voice shook.

“What’s wrong Lea?” Sarah asked

“I think I really messed up this time. I don’t know what to do. I never been so confused.” Next thing I know, Sarah poof in here, falling to the ground. She stood up quickly.

“I’m getting the hang of this.”

“Sarah?” Sarah came to the bed, sat down next to me, and gave me a hug.

“I’m here. Don’t worry. I’m here.” I lean my head down on her shoulder as I cried. After what it seem like forever, I finally stop crying. Sarah gave me some more tissue to wipe my tears.

“Thank you so much for coming.”

“No problem. Now tell me what happened.” I nodded and told Sarah everything that been going on between me and Drake.  I even told her about me losing my virginity to Drake at the night of the masquerade. Sarah looks at me in shock. “Lea. Why didn’t you tell me about all this sooner? I’m your best friend.”

“I’m not finish yet.”

“Oh, tell me.” I smooth my hair out my face.

“When we got here, I cried in his arms. I was vulnerable, so things got a little intense.”

“You’ll had sex again.”

“No! Of course not. We made out a little, but that’s all.”

“What is wrong with it?”

“Nothing. It felt good, but I just couldn’t do it.”

“Why?”

“Tiffany.”

“But you told me that Drake liked you before Tiffany.”      

“He do, it’s just Tiffany.”

“What about her?”

“She threatening to kill Dad if I don’t leave Drake alone.”

“What?!”

“Yea. She really hate me and I don’t know why.”

“Lea, you blaming her, but it is your fault too.”

“How is it my fault?”

“Before Drake even met Tiffany, you already had feelings for him, but you never told him. Then, when Tiffany come along, you just making up excuses.”

“Now you sounding like Drake.”

“Yea, well it’s true.” Sarah sighs. “Lea, you help a lot of us find love, but you never have that for yourself. I get it. You finally found someone, but now you are scared. You scared that you might get your heart broken again.”

“How do you know so much?”

“I went through the same thing. Remember, my heart was broken so many time that I didn’t trust guys. But you was there for me and you gave me hope. Now I want to do the same for you. Lea, you are my best friend. All I want is for you to be happy. Just know that Drake can’t wait forever.”

“I know. I know.”

“Okay, I have to go. I need to give Snow Flake a bath.”

“Ok.”

“Just think about what I said.”

“I will.” After she gave me a hug, then she was gone. I went underneath the covers and lay back. I still couldn’t get what Drake said out my mind. Drake and Sarah wasn’t right. Weren’t they? A tear ran down my cheeks as I close my eyes to fall asleep.

Chapter 19

 

Ever since that day, I haven’t seen Drake. He did tell everybody what happened with Addanc, then after that, he just ignored me. I didn’t blame him. After what happened that night, I would be mad at myself too. Everyone else could tell that Drake was upset at me. Mostly Gabriella and Sabrina would come up to me to ask me why. Every time, I would walk away and keep myself occupied on the wedding, but I still couldn’t get Drake out my mind. I miss him. All the guys left the house for the bachelor party. I did get to see Drake. After giving Sabrina a hug, he just left. It hurt, but noting would work, so now, I’m sitting in the corner, drinking Champaign. Sabrina was opening up her gift from Gabriella. She open the bag so excitedly, but her smile slowly start to fade away as she look at the gift.

 

“What the hell is this?” Sabrina asked

“Your wedding gift.” Gabriella said.

“This is a book on how to lose weight. You think I’m fat?”

“No. This is for later on. Just in case you might become fat like Crystal.” Crystal was about to get up.

“Everyone stop! Just stop. Can we get through one event without arguing?!” I yelled. Everyone look at me in shock.

“Lea, calm down and take a chill pill.” Gabriella said. I stood up and went to her.

“Shut up Gabriella! You have been a pain. Just because you are a blonde, doesn’t mean you can act like a total bitch!” Gabriella stood up and frowned.

“What the hell you think you talking to?” I didn’t back down.

“I’m just telling you the truth. I’m getting sick and tired of you nagging about what this and that. Keep your comments to yourself. I know you can be a nice because I see it. If you show that more, people would like to hang out with you a little more.”

“Everyone love hanging out with me. Even Victor.”

“Yea, that’s because he is your husband. If you keep treating Victor like he is your slave, then he will be gone.” Gabriella face sadden.

“He told you that?”

“He didn’t have to. He love you and you treat him like this. Ease up on him. Just think about it.” Tears filled her eyes. I felt bad. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have yelled at you.” She gave me a hug.

“You are right.” She let go of me and grabbed her purse. “I need to go to Victor and make things right.” She said as she left the house. I sat down and grabbed another glass of Champaign while everyone is still looking at me in shock. Mrs. Knight came over to me.

“What’s wrong dear?” She asked me.

“Nothing, just tired.” I said. Sabrina came and kneeled down in front of me.

“You are not okay. You have been distant. You and Drake. Have you’ll gotten into an argument?” Sabrina asked. I drank down the Champaign.

“I really don’t want to talk about it right now.” I said. Gabriella sat beside me.

“Lea, you are family. You can talk to us. We are so worried about you.” Tears filled my eyes.

“It’s complicated.” I said

“Please Lea. For me. As a wedding gift.” Sabrina said. I look at everyone.

“Fine.” I said. So everyone gather around me as I told them everything about what was going on between Drake and me. Then I told them about the argument we had last night. The more I talked, the more I cried. “I don’t know what to do. I’m so confused.”

“Lea, why didn’t you tell us this?” Mrs. Knight asked

“I was scared. I wanted to figure things out first, but it is so hard.” I said

“Oh my god. After all these years I try to get Drake, but he fall for a human.” Said one of Sabrina’s friends.”

“Get out Lisa!” Sabrina said

“What?”

“You heard me. Get out!” Lisa gasped and stood up.

“Am I still a bridesmaid?”

“No, but you can still come to the wedding.” Lisa groaned and left out. Sabrina looks back at me. “Sorry about that.”

“It’s okay. It’s true. Why in the world would Drake fall for me? I’m only human. Just a weak human.” I said

“No you not. Don’t say that.” Crystal said

“It’s true.” Sabrina got up and led everyone else out, while Mrs. Knight, Crystal, Caroline, and Ana stayed. When Sabrina came back, she sat next to Ana.

“I knew something was going on between you two. After the janitors closet, I knew things would get serious.” Ana said.

“I’m so screwed.” I said. “Can you’ll just erase my memory about this? Please.”

“We can’t Lea. You have to figure things out.” Mrs. Knight said

“I should have known this. After all this time. You and Drake need to figure things out.” Caroline said

“I can’t. Drake already mad at me. Besides, I’m leaving tomorrow after the wedding ceremony. It’s the best choice I have.” I said

“Lea… you can’t keep hiding what you feel. It’s unhealthy. Tell Drake how you feel.” Tears ran down my cheek as I shook