The beginning of the end..., Jasmine Paddock [e textbook reader .txt] 📗

She frets
She thinks
She paces
She is confused
She is desperate
She is scared...

She goes on,
She opens it
She enters the messages
She gets ready to type.
Her fingers rest on the keys...
And she begins to cry.
It is too hard...
But she has to.
THey must know...
What if they hate her?
They can hate her...
But she cannot stand it.
She stops.
She hesitates...
Then she begins.

She cries
she types
She is hurting
Her heart is breaking.
She feels a terrible pain...
But on she types.
THey must know the truth.
It is time.
She fears.
She is scared.
Then she presses send.
No going back now.

They read,
they forgive.
How?
Why don't they hate her?
She is evil.
She hates herself.
They reassure her,
But they lie.
She is evil.
She should just die.
She cannot stand it.
She sends a farewell,
THen she lingers.
The word delete pops out.
Her hand moves the mouse
She almost clicks..
Then she stops.
She sees messages.
THey tell her no.
Than a voice talks.
It is in her head.
It says no.
It is not fair to them.
Don't you dare run.
Face the consequences.
Don't back down.
You can do this.
Don't stop.
Prove it to them.
Prove you can change.
Prove your sorrow.
Prove your love.
Prove you can face anything...
Even the wrath of your own hatred.
Stop hating yourself.
They don't want that.
Don't give up.
They haven't.
Stop crying.
Wipe those tears.
Don't run from this.
You need to prove it.
PROVE YOU CAN CHANGE!!!
Prove that this is not the end.
Prove you love them.
Prove you will do anything for them...
Even give your own life...
To save theirs.
Stop crying and lift up your chin...
Learn from this,
And be a better person.

Publication Date: 01-24-2012

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