Explosion of the Tongue, Rebekah Brewer [non fiction books to read txt] 📗

Love is forsaken
the words get used
so frequently
that is has
no value

the action is wasted
for pleasure
when no one really
gives a shit

But when it’s asked of a friend
it’s hard to say no
not because of ‘love’
but because
you don’t want to hurt them

and it’s harder
to face them each day
without remembering
‘that person likes me’

I’m sorry for saying
your soul is damned
because you like
a ginger
a sinner

it isn’t at risk
but I can’t picture
you as anything
but a friend

Nakushita

You walk free
leaving me screaming,
lost in my nightmares

I will never be found
I can't ever be found
For, if I'm found
I am weak
and I will always fight that

Forever I will fight
trying to be strong in this cage
that hates the fact
that I think for myself

I refuse to lay down
and fall to these lies
I choose
to live my own style....

Feelings

Especially for Nate-kun¬

Fallen so deeply, so hard
Don't know where I'm going
or how I got this far

Painful as it is
I love you
The words I once forgot
Speak for themselves

Sending me into a flurried rush
Sending me into a new love

The Real Me

The old me is sleeping
Waiting for the pain
It's true, I swear

Just the same as
my joy returns to me

As a Child, I felt similar warmth
But not as strong as this

One Other

My life is turning
My small world bursting in light
Still, there is that one other
Who dropped me into another part
of reality

That one who has my feelings
feelings I question if they'll last
You preoccupy my thoughts
but he will always be there
a shadowed spot
in the back of my mind
The one who started this

My feelings are true
I cannot deny it
They are true as my word
For you know my honesty to you
They will not change
Even after a separation
I can never allow myself
to fall to my temptations

Fin

I love
my brothers and sister
my boyfriend
my friends

They
have strengthen me
have been my crying shoulder
joined me in plotting my revenge

Without them
I would not have written or posted anything
I would probably be in my grave now
I never would have found the strength of my own being

It is them
I am inspired by to create
For if not for them
I would crumble under abuse
without realizing what is really abuse
and what the abuser can't do
but I can
and that I, too, can feel good and look good,
though nothing defeats what man cannot make: true beauty
the stars, the earth, the sunrise

For those who made it this far:
I commend you
for I lack confidence in myself and my work
Even if a single person reads
then there's a chance it will spread
like the "I'll vote for you if you vote for me"
just not so desperate

I only want understanding
and possibly connection
to those who don't have proper support
and remind them
we are, sadly, not alone

Again, thank you
I have no other purpose
but to share
what I find impossible to say
~Rebekah Brewer~
Boko

Publication Date: 06-16-2011

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