Secretly Mine, Me =/ [the reader ebook txt] 📗

Chapter one

~Alex~

 

"Honey you have to go..." My mom, Blair tells me. My dad nods along with his wife and I sigh.

"But moooom! I'm seventeen, I still have a month before I turn eighteen, I don't want to have to go to these stupid pack meetings!" I whine. I may sound like a two year old but I don't really care. Honestly, I basically went numb a long time ago.

"Alex! Knock it off. You may be seventeen but you're acting a hell of a lot younger than that right now! Listen to your mother. You have to go to this. Jackson has to also seen as he's going to be the beta and practically your second in command. He is a few minutes younger and yet he's a lot more mature. Suck it up and go. After you can go do what you want." My dad growls finally fed up with me. I open my mouth to shoot back a "rebellious teen" response, but don't get the chance to before our front down flys open.

A familiar pair of arms wrap around my head as he rubs his fist around my head. I roll my eyes and glare at my dad as Jackson laughs at how annoyed I am.

"Yes, Jackson is so much more mature than I am." I hear two laughs adding to Jackson's as my mom and dad's best friends come up the stairs meeting Jackson and I in the doorway to the kitchen.

"Aww thank you!" Jackson gushes sarcastically and he begins rubbing my head again. I growl and flip him off of me.

"Play nice missy." My mom gives me a look, and turns back to the stove where she is making potato soup.

"Yeah Alex! You're so mean to me!" He sniffles and burries his head in his hands as he fake cries. 

"Aww did I hurt the baby-waby's feelings? I'm so sowwy, Jacky-wacky." I pout and start pouting his back before grabbing his ear and twisting.

"Oww!!!" He screams shooting his head up to glare at me. "You really are so mean!" He holds his ear as I laugh at him. He slowly starts smirking as mine disappears, because of the glint thats appeared in his green and blue eyes. 

"Uh-oh. Bye!" I yell as I'm out the door, running into the woods surrounding my house. I hear bones cracking as Jackson and I turn into our wolves. I'm an alpha so he wont be able to catch up to me as easily but he sure will try. I take an unexpected turn and head for the waterfall my parents showed me as a kid. I hear a yelp as he runs into a tree, that was well hid in the dark. I turn into my human form and punch in the pass code. I slam the stone behind me right bsfore he can get in. His gray wolf whimpers outside of the door and I slightly chuckle. I open the door slowly and peak my head in the small crack. Jackson pushes open the door and pounces on me. 

"Get off me weirdo!" I yell "struggling" to get put from under him. I don't really try but he doesn't know that. He licks my face and slobber all over me. "Eww!!! Get off me you pig! That was basically you kissing me!" I yell actually pushing him off.

 

Chapter two

 ~Jackson~

 

I'm clutching my stomach, laughing as I return to my human form. Her face of udder disgust is so worth it. She glares at me as she opens the door and jumps into the waterfall. I follow her out, closing the hidden door and follow her into the clear blue water. When get there shes scubbing her face and muttering, "Asshole." under her breath. I laugh and she rolls her eyes.

"Oh come on, you love me and you know it." I say jokingly splashing her with water. Something flashes in her eyes but it gone just as quick as it came. She splashes me back and jumps up from the water, her hands landing on the top of my head. She pushes me under the water but lets go pretty quickly making sure I can breathe. 

"Thanks." I say glaring at her. She flashes me a smile and gets out of the water. I do the same and look down at my soaked clothes. My white t-shirt --which was now see through-- is clinging to my body as are my shorts. I look over at Alex and she's putting her black hoodie over her black long sleeve shirt. She's wearing black skinny jeans and I watch her curiously.

"What?" She asks annoyed looking at me waiting for an answer.

"Its summer and almost 100°F out. How are you not dying??" She looks at her shoes for a quick moment with an unreadable expression before she walks in the direction of the house. I run to catch up with her and continue pestering her, as she continues to ignore me.

"Dinner is ready kids. Go clean up and change and meet us down here." Blair states as we walk in the door. She rushes to her room and I go to the new spare that has my clothes in it. Since our parents are best friends I stay here a lot. They live in a separate house from the rest of the pack and we practically live with them, we are here so much. I had a room but then something happened, although I'm not sure what, causing me to move to the one down the hall from Alex. I change into a blue t-shirt and black jeans. I walk to Alex's door which is open a crack and see her messing with something at her nightstand. I cant see what but then she takes a drink of water and my curiosity takes over.

"What cha doin?" I ask pushing her door open. She spins around and slams her nightstand drawer shut. She sighs and walks to her bed and pulls another black sweater over her head, covering her dark tank top. She pushes past me and walks down the stairs.

Chapter three

 ~Alex~            POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING

 

When he said that I loved him, I don't know what happened. I just felt something, and it was really weird. I could tell my medication were wearing off, especially when he asked how I wasn't dying, so I got home as quickly as I could. I change quickly and  go to my nightstand. When I open the drawers I grab the pill bottle for my depression.

I have... Severe depression to say the least. I also have a bit of social anxiety which I why I dont want to go to the stupid meeting. I haven't told anyone about that though. Anyway, when I go to open the bottle before I can I see my best friend. My blade. I pick it up and look at it. 

Alex you can't keep doing this! Its not healthy. Sure you are a wolf but that doesnt mean you couldn't d-

'Shut up.' I roll my eyes at my wolf, my depression taking over. I push the blade against my already scarred skin and drag it, using my wolf strength to my advantage and pushing harder. Blood pops up in multiple places as I continue the act all around my forearm. My entire forearm is red and covered in cuts and blood.

Take the pill now!! My wolf's order snaps me out of whatever "trace" I'm in and I quickly take the pill, not bothering to drop the razor blade. 

When I hear, "What cha doin?" From behind me I push the uncapped bottle, the lid, and my blade in the drawer and slam it shut and spin around to find Jackson in my doorway. I sigh and squeeze my eyes shut for a quick second, one because its just Jackson (which could be a bad thing since no one but my parents and I know about my depression and they dont know about me cutting) and two because my pills had to have gone everywhere which is really annoying for my OCD. 

Normally wolves don't even have a little bit of anything like me but severe? That's a whole new story. Especially since I have three things. I slightly shake my head and, careful to not show my arm, walk over to my bed, to put the hoodie laying on it on. I walk past him and start down the stairs with Jackson behind me.

"Why do you hate me so much?" He asks and when I don't respond continues to question me. "Hellllllooooo? Alex. Alex. Alex. Why do you hate everyone? What were you doing? Was it important? Am I annoying yet?"

"God Jackson! Yes! Now shut up and stop!" I stop but don't turn around, and he runs into me. I continue walking as he huffs down behind me, causing me to sort of smile. 

"What's up with you?" Jackson's dad, Ashton asks him.

"You make me hangout with a big meany!" He pouts and I raise an eyebrow at my dad.

"And you said he's more mature?" He looks back and forth between the two of us, stopping at me and shrugging. We sit down to eat dinner and when we are done Jackson and I are signed up for doing the dishes. "You're washing." I tell him, since I cant roll my sleeves up.

"Ugh woman." He rolls his eyes at me and I laugh. Once all the dishes are done, I roll up the wet drying towel and snap it at his back. "Hey!" He turns around and I cant help but laugh. He glares at me but then smirks, similar to earlier. I run out of the kitchen into the living, the towel in hand and Jackson following me out. I run around the TV back into the kitchen but in the other entrance. Jackson goes back to the other entrance so we are circling each other.

"Calm down you two." My dad sighs and we both laugh. He lunges for me and I run out the front door for the second time today, turning into my wolf. My black coat now matching the darkness. 

"Come back before ten!" Myah shouts from the door. We still have a while. We weave our way in and out of the trees, ignoring the pain in my front left leg, before I turn at