perfect disaster, Raya Arona [to read list TXT] 📗

believe that he is kind, actually, this kindness freaks me out

"not hungry!!"

he gestured to the table with a raised brow, I don't know if I was hungry or not, finally, I walked and pull the chair facing him, just taking my time gazing at the food

nice + caring +intimate+ Fox = apocalypse

how can people say if the food poisoned or not by watching? I don't take a risk and taste it then die, I should've learned such this skills

Moreover, milk ... really

Hello ... I'm twenty, not five

"Milk?"

I asked in more like complaining still not moving my eye from my plate

"I'm not a kid" now lifting my eyes to him, he was so cold eating his food in piece quietly calmly in such a high classic style

My mind was screaming ... What the HELL

"Hum, you are and you need it"

Wow, that was an unadulterated answer, butthead, he is hiding something sure he poisoned it

I take a quick peek at him, so cold

It seems like I will catch flu

Okay ... it smells great, I'm crying mentally. he never cooks food before or we even eat together before, he always dipped in his office, why today is there any special occasion

Maybe it's my birthday no .my birthday not today. Not Christmas, not Thanksgiving not Easter maybe mother's day ... nah, his birthday !!!

Whatever I will not touch it, this dish will end my life

a noise of spoon crushed on plate invaded the gravely silent in the room, which is not good, it's not just a spoon fall

tsk tsk ... it's a danger alarm

Without warning I felt his body hovered toward me digging his fork in my plate, robotically, I pulled back nailing my back to the chair still shocked

His full fork flies back to him exactly to his mouth, start chewing it with a blank face

I was just watching with wide eyes, what the hell is going on

"See, not dead "and snatch the milk and take a sip too, his eyes still scorching me

"where's the fun if you die "

How!

Oh, you A'hole!

I get up kicking the chair back taking my way to the sink to wash my dish and my hands too, they were shaking as my eyes start to fill with hot water

I'm like losing it

"you know what" I walked back to him, not so close but close and save enough

"You are lower than scum and oh hell how much I hate you!"

I take a deep breath closing my eyes but that didn't block the tears, he was just silent setting on his chair watching me with a blank face

I burst into laughter. Laughing hard, I yell

"No one knows where I am!, maybe no one even looking for me" I laugh so hard I'm wheezing

"I'm locked away in a shithole!" I pause looking at him, still cold

"with you"

frustration and sadness was eating my skin, I dangled my head cover my face with my hair I don't want him to see me like that but I can't stop these tears stop that smashing feelings inside the feeling that I am all my own, I have no one

I snorted through my chuckles. "I'm going to die alone!"

Laughter forces its way out of me for minutes until I finally stop, panting hard

I'm hollow. Empty. And numb.

" better ?" his voice was calm steady, a smirk painted on my lips

I keep my eyes averted "How would you feel if you'd been kidnapped?" I hissed it's like angriness mixed with crazy

Still silent, I finally look up at him. He stands up ambling to me, His lips twitch as he looks at me

"You tied to a chair?" my brows knot confused by his question, shake my head.

He shot another question. "Been slapped around?"

Okay, I'm start regretting my question now, but to tell the truth he never did any of that to me well ,I've been slapped and chained but not by him

as a matter of fact he saved me , twice when I took to the brothel and even at the day he kidnapped me I was about to get imprisoned by Mr.Stainy

Dissatisfiedly, I shake my head again and quickly look him in the eye and shake my head. He nods in agreement.

"So why I'm here then" with that he smirks and walked to face me And here I sit, all confused

"Because 'here' is where I keep the things that belong to me"

My eyes grow wider when I saw his fingers pointed at me when he mentioned belong, I belong to him

It's funny how a few simple words can alter your attitude, that creepy laughter switch me again, oh fudge this man will finish my leftover fuse

his brows were knotted staring at me like what the hell is wrong with her mind, well its rotten and you missed up with it pal

"First" I paused taking a breath and look dead in the eye with a totally serious face, "you are an asshole and the sure thing you know that"

I need a swear jar

"Second, you don't own me it's your illusion, actually no one does and for sure I don't belong to some freak psychopath "

He smirks and walks closer caressing my cheek with his cold fingers; I was surprised and worried from his calmness and silent

Confidently passed me to kitchen counter near us and few feet away from me

"Rude"

I open my mouth to say something but I cut off by knife hovering at my way

 

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chapter 16...his head on silver plate

For a second, I was paralyzed by terror

 

my chest stiff I can't breathe in or out. No pain

I hang my head down checking out searching for any injury, cut any harm but not any, totally fine

I stare at him still confused angry scared a bit, but his perfect face expressionless. I can feel the rage burning quietly underneath. 

Many questions rushing in why he did that he never boom angry like that, well at least not like now

as I was glaring, I noticed something about his look, they weren't for me he was looking beyond me

My curiosity gets the best of me, so I turned around tailing his gaze, my eyes narrowed at the view, making me feel scared and confused.

Again, I am speechless ... how!!

"Hey "

His hair curls a little around his face, softening the hard perfection of his features. His eyes hold my face; his lips are curved in a slight smile

A warm smile spread on his shaky lips, my mind goes black without hesitation my feet start running to him

For a moment, I forgot everything, but before I attack him with a hug, I stopped remembering what happened that night.

"Mathew!" my voice came more like a question, not sure if my eyes cheating me, I can't believe my eyes how he finds me

"How?"

a single tear rolled down on his cheek that's the first time I see him crying, he is not the soft type he always prefers to hide his emotions at least not now because they are vividly clear, he tugs me crushing my bone between his big arms, that was real, it was him

Oh boy, I can feel now how much I miss him, suddenly I join him sobbing in his chest, finally, someone I know, finally someone finds me

I don't to have a perfect love perfect relation I just need someone who won't give up on me, I need Mathew in my life

"Oh, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I should've ..."

Quickly I cut him shaking my head and tugging tightly his shirt afraid that I might lose him

I'm not the type of person to give up on someone, yes I sometimes I get mad and upset, I won't talk or see you because I need time to cool off but I will never a abandon them

"It's okay; it's not your fault"

 looking into my eyes the heat radiated from his hands to my heart to all my boy, his eyes full of sadness they were so red and puffy

I open my mouth to say something but quickly cut by clapping, I shut my mouth as Mathew's eyes drafted behind me, I shut my eyes

How I forget that we had a company?

Fox

"So sentimental"

Out of the blue, various cracks dash to my ears, everyone was there when I mean everyone I mean the rest of his gang, fox's gang

They were aiming their guns at Mathew's head, for a second I felt so betrayed I thought they are friends or were friends they were too kind to me even Dan and Rider they were there; they are too concentrated on Mathew to look at me

"oops, bad timing " Eva mocked, giving me her best look

At that moment, steely hands grip my arm from behind, painfully squeezing my wrist. I scream, struggling, but Fox was too strong

"wait wait "

Mathew lift his hands in front of him begging, I feel my heart ripped to a million parts, his eyes still focused on me before they shifted to Fox

"I will give you anything you want, you want money? I will give you money, just "he paused collecting his shaky voice

"Just don't hurt my babe"

My eyes grow wide I was shocked, I can't believe he just said that I thought he had no feelings for me and it was one side love

Ashton broke that moment, fisting his hand on Mathew's face as his lips bleeding. 

"NO, NO stop please stop" I scream my lung out struggling to get out of Fox's grasp but it was useless

Matthew gave me a tight smile shaking his head telling me it, okay.

it can't be okay it never was okay     

I spun facing fox now, anger scorching my veins, yes I might endure anything any pain but don't mess with my people

"Why" I can barely draw in air through the constriction in my chest, and my voice comes out sounding unexpectedly breathy

Tugging his shirt, yes I am insane fighting this huge mammoth figure, I know I will squash under his finger

I watch him, frozen in place. I don't know what to do. Do I fight him now? Moreover, if so, what would that accomplish? He hasn't hurt me yet, and I don't want to provoke him. He's much larger than me, much stronger. I can see the thickness of his muscles under the black T-shirt he's wearing

" your room"

and I can hear the barely suppressed rage in his voice. his dark devilish eyes still busy on Matthew, he was no longer fox he is a devil.

"I won't" To my huge surprise, my voice sounds almost normal.

He looks amused, but there's a dark gleam in his eyes. His fingers caress my face again; push the hair back behind my ear leaning down to my ears

"you don't want his head on a silver plate"

I can feel the violence within him, and I'm terrified.

"don't you"

He lifts his hand and touches my face again, I stand there helplessly and let him. His fingers are gentle on my skin, his touch almost tender

"please, don't do this." My voice is thick with unshed tears, "I only want-"

"Julia" I flinched at his thundery voice

"Ana, let's go"

I felt Julia tugging me with her away from everyone

"no don't touch her, what did you do to her you bastard" Mathew start fight but they yank him back

"No, Annie"

The tears start raining down my cheeks, he know I liked him calling me that.

I haven't moved away that