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and act like his pet or even apologize, Nah Nah Nah . in your dreams Mr. Foxy

but he saved my butt, Maybe he is kind ... 

a little...

maybe he is not ...

maybe he's not all evil...

 Maybe he is acting you know he is a good actor ..... 

Maybe I see only one side, not all Fox... 

no .no ... he is all bad ... 

Matching his silence I dig my head between the sheets monitoring him; as he rolled the lighter start burning  the hundredth cigarette maybe and blow the clouds of the smoke carelessly at the dark sky, I listen carefully to every huff

do I feel safe, actually I feel safer right now, I was in need of him in my nightmare but why I want my enemy to shield me . do I need him; I don't know maybe I'm so affected by the way he protects  me to take care of me, no one ever cares about me being in danger or not or even sad or happy except Mel, and when I finally find one it happens to be Fox 

How a person could hurt you so badly, take care of you so badly, and make sure  you are safe and no one can harm you only him has the right to put you in danger

What kind of human are you Mr. devil?

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I wake to feel awful. My face is puffy and my eyes are sore. I'm sure they're a nice shade of red to match my mortification about last night.Turning, I look at the chair and see that Fox is gone.

Good. That would've been creepy to wake up to.

since there's zero hope that I'll be out staying in bed seems like a good idea. I pull the covers up over my head and lay in my little cocoon, where I can be I can be anywhere I want and do whatever I want

before I fly to the moon, The covers fly off of me and Dan stands there scowling down at me with both hands on his hips. "Anyone ever told you you're nuts?"

Well, to the matter of fact there is someone who always reminds me that I am a nut, and hell I miss her so much

"my best friend used to" I answered honestly, since there was no one here just Daniel, and he is the only one I can open with. he forced me to love his boyish smile and crazy nonsense chitchat

"good because you are. Haven't they teach you in your lunatic asylum to not do any shity move like, Don't even think about doing that again. because that was the shitiest move." Running a hand through his hair, he sighs then asks

"Hungry?" my brows hanged up surprised, that the weirdest scolding I've ever got, and that invite me to breakfast

Not in the slightest.

Not ready to an argument, I simply nod and walk with him down to the kitchen to find everyone was already behind his or her dish. I haven't eaten much in the last two days and I know I should be hungry but I'm really not. I'm sure this has something to do with the events of the last few days.

"I know you've gotta be hungry." Julia jumps beside me offering me my dish, she fills a plate with eggs, bacon, and toast. It looks great but I pick it.

It smells good.

Moving food around with my fork, I can't push anything into my mouth, it is sored

if he's not here?

Where is he?

is he still angry?

why the hell I care?

Pushing my plate forward, I whisper, "Please, excuse me." Without waiting for an answer, I stand on weak legs and take the long walk back up to my room.

When I step out into the hall, I see Fox at the opposite end. We both stop walking and stare each other down. He eyes catch mine; I lower my chin to my chest and walk to my room.

Being petty... Ahole

I shut the door with a light slam; I wait for an angry Fox to throw it open with threats of breaking it down.

But he never comes.

good

no, it's bad

no. it's a good thing, the bad thing could be good things sometimes especially in bad situations

just stop

not long till I heard knocks on my door, I frowned Fox never knock he always break in.

"Hey" Julia's face came to the view, I said nothing just staring like an idiot, I'm not sure if I can even speak again, she was holding the mug in her hands and walking to me with sorrow smile on her face

Sorrow my butt

"Drink this, it will ease the soreness" my jaw almost kissed the floor, how did she know, as she knew what I was thinking

"Dear I'm a woman too" she pats my hand tenderly, okay I'm a good girl and I won't cry. Right

yes

No

I broke down, I damn broke down coiling my body and dig my fist in my mouth trying to keep my sobs down as much as I can but I failed, the pain was huge and my skin can't push those memories

"shshsh" she rubs her hands over my shoulder and that makes me burst into heavy tears

The next tears come easier while the rest fall freely

"it's gonna be okay"

"no it's not" I scream my words defensively more to myself, I know nothing is okay and I can't be like the old me, I can't go back in  life like that naïve girl in the past

"I'm done" as much as it's true as it's hurt and sting the wounds in my heart

"No, you are not" she spit her words firmly and catch my attention, I pushed my hand off my eyes and look at her, she wasn't offering any pity she was sold and weirdly without emotion

"You can't leave your soul behind and give up that easy" I frowned, keep looking at her

"You need to fight back, Ana" my heart sink deep, I heard my name from very long time, I don't count how much I was absent

"why you do that, for him?" she stares at me with a hurt look in her eyes, for a moment I felt guilty, she tries to help me and all I do is being vulgar

now, he is right, I'm acting like a brat. 

"sorry" I mumbled staring at my hands in my lab, she gave my shoulder squeeze, her touch make me shudder, I can't push his touches off my head

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to .." I cut her I don't want anyone pity "no it's okay, that wasn't your fault anyway"

"You wanna talk about it" shit I can't I have enough from this memories, I don't need to make them alive again, slowly I shake my head and she answers me with a silent nod, I'm glad that she didn't push me,

"You know Fox beat the shit out of his face; I think no doctor can fix his face"

I lift my eyes to look in her face making sure she wasn't lying, part of me sad because I didn't hear the word die, I wanted him dead for what he did, and part of me happy that Fox takes the proper revenge for me.

"Listen, I know what Fox's did was wrong, but believe me you will never be much safe as here"

 I can't say anything, she was right about fox was wrong when he kidnapped me, but if he didn't kidnap me that night I might end up in Frank hand, but still, he has no right to keep me with him, but I have no place to go

crap

"yes, sometimes he is difficult to understand or deal with but . ." before she finishes her words I cut her with my glare, giving her ' are you kidding me' look

she giggled "okay maybe he is a pain in the ass, but believe me no one has a biggest and caring heart in the world like him" 

yeah, I can see that

"he just had that anger problem that he needs to deal with and everything will be fine" 

and screaming problem, starting problem, touching problem, silent problem, ego problem and everything is fine

all I do I shaking my head, considering my ass

I don't know why this guys fans by him that much, why they can't see that he is just an ass total hot ass 

 

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chapter 14... problems

 live in peace

yeah, looks like a good logo to start a new day, but that idiot do his best to make it as live in hell.

I twisted the knob slowly opening the door and it is open, the sign of danger number one, rooming my eyes along my way out gladly there was no one, the sign number two

normally he would be here Guarding me, I took the chance rushing my way out.

Okay ... I am late and he is not spotting that sign number, what number I stopped at; I look at my fingers, ahh three

things get more creeper, scratch think I am sure he is planning for something and it's not good

What he is up to!!!!, all those days went monitoring him trying to know what's up in his mind; but every time he had a way to prove that I was wrong in every expectation I made.

Okay... just try to play it cool

I picked up my clothes It's not what I would've chosen to wear, but it's better than a bathrobe

I made my way to the door but at once the weird feeling eat my heart I can't go down like that and I can't take other clothes from the outfits they are much worse, I missed my clothes

Even if they didn't look much classy or any fascinated but its mine for making me happy not for others eyes or taste, and this clothes is nothing me, I can't imagine myself walking in street like this.

not like it's the first time I see this styles, I saw a lot of girls wore like that in the market and I really envied them; I want to try to be like that like that kind of feeling being free and like a modern city girl.

But not in this situation not at this place and especially not where Fox is around.

I know he did that on purpose he brings this kind of clothes for a girl like me just to satisfy his ego and get his revenge.

okay ...let's see

With chin fight the sky, I twisted the knob and dragged my feet out; ignoring the cruel feeling in my stomach, besides I try hard to not put any pressure on my bandaged foot

Okay I will do it all I need is to be brave, just keep moving girl

I hold back my feet, I think this far enough right I shouldn't be hasty, I give my brain assurance nod internally, reckless not good

There was no soul around only a vague noise blast between the walls with each move uproar became closer and clearer

Silently and carefully, I follow the sound and it became clearer to me to find that was him, in the middle of hall standing next window.I am again struck by his masculine beauty, He's again wearing jeans and a T-shirt. A grey one this time. He seems to favor simple clothing

One hand was holding his phone to his ear while the other rested on the window frame yelling