Always Yours, Amicia Bianchi [top non fiction books of all time txt] 📗

work. I nodded sadly.

 

"Most likely, from sounds of it, because Todd and Bryce aren’t exactly close. So you know if even he knows all of the rest them must know. And God only knows what exactly he told them but from what Todd said it had to have been really bad." I didn't know what to think or what to do. I just felt helpless and a hopeless wreck when I cried myself to sleep that night.

Chapter 2: Stay Together?

The next day I woke up angry, from the sun shining in my eyes to the fact that my situation still seemed hopeless. And what was I going to do when I went back to school on Monday anyway? How could I face any of them again?

 

Bryce… just his name popping up in my head at that moment pissed me off to no end. It make me feel any better when I had to fight through an endless expanse of white sheets in my attempt to get off my bed. Just when I thought I was finally ride of them they showed me otherwise and I fell off the bed.

 

"Lyss, you okay?" came Angie's horse voice I huffed in reply getting up and stomping off to the bathroom. I took a nice hot shower trying to calm my emotions but it didn't work out.

 

"You want to go shopping today?" Angie asked when I came out of the bathroom. I knew she was only trying to help but it still infuriated me. I really wanted to scream.

 

"Are you crazy so that everybody can see me and laugh?" but instead,

 

"This isn't something that shopping can fix," I ground out.

 

After donning short shorts and a t-shirt I laid back on my bed with my arm over my eyes. I thought to break up with Bryce and seek some revenge, as I formed my plan for vengeance my wolf intervened.

 

'He's our mate'

 

'So what? He doesn't care'

 

'He doesn't know'

 

'And?! What difference does it make we've been his best friend and look how he's treating us already'

 

We went back and forth like this in the time Angie took her shower, went down for breakfast, and came back up. She eventually dragged me out of the bed and creatively found things for us to do but all the while my argument with my wolf continued.

 

By the next day she had won out and I forgave him although I stayed at a distance. I was too embarrassed so I avoided my friends as well except for Angie.

 

At lunch I just went to the library instead and had snacks throughout the day. I tried my best, running the other way whenever I saw Bryce, but my elusiveness couldn't continue when he walked into my last class of the day.

 

I saw him from the corner of my eye, inawardly groaned and shrank further down into my seat. Just because I had forgiven him didn't mean I ready to face the onslaught of emotions that actually facing him and talking to him would bring.

 

I controlled my urge to look at him even while I felt him watching me from his seat.

 

When the bell rang I hurriedly exited merging with the masses of students and raced to my Lexus. Luckily I got away safely to my house without incident and no one bothered me for the rest of the day.

 

The next day I dressed ready to ignore the world: ordinary jeans, uninteresting tennis shoes and a plain black hoodie. Equipt with my iPod, earbuds inserted snugly into my ears, and my phone for texting Angie, this is how managed to get through most of the day.

 

The rest of the week went by much the same until Angie came over and to cheer me up.

 

"Hey girlie," she had said as she walked into my front door because she knew that it was opened and my parents weren't home.

 

"Hey Angie, what's up," she looked suspicious so I knew she knew something.

 

"How are you holding up?" she avoided my question for the moment. I sighed, she had got me, for the moment.

 

"Well I've been avoiding Bryce all week, ignoring my friends, I still don't know who all knows, I haven't talked to Josh since all this started, whatever this is. I think I'm just going to end it." I sighed again exasperated.

 

"No, but you guys are mates though,"

 

"Its not that I haven't forgiven him, because I have, I just I don’t know what’s going on with him most of the time. I swear mate or not I won’t stick around if I find out he’s cheating-”

 

“He’s not,” I only raised an eyebrow, “Jason,” was all she had to say. I sighed covering my face with my hands and put my head on the table between us.

 

“I’m done,” I whispered after a long pause between us.

 

“Come on, you can’t just give up now. You’ve already come this far.”

 

“So I’m supposed to what wait until he decides to stop being an idiot and stomping on my feelings. How long am I going to continue like this waiting for him to accept me? Yes I asked for a relationship but if it’s obviously not working between us I would prefer not to drag it out. Honestly I don’t even know why I decided to go through with this in the first place. Then he can’t just break up with me himself and I’m just supposed to just wait for him to finally get the courage or just wait it out until he realizes we’re mates…. I didn’t ask for this mess…” I popped up then gradually settled back into my chair.

 

“I understand I’m just saying that you won’t have to worry about avoiding our friends at school because the year’s almost over, we’ll be graduating before you know it. Also you guys are mates and you’re supposed to be together. I just hate that…”

 

“I know… I’ll think about it okay?” she nodded.

Chapter 3: The Vision

 

The day had finally arrived, it was his birthday and while I was content with our relationship it would definitely be a lot stronger now that he knew. We had progressed to a comfortable spot in our development and that is where we have stayed whether from fear of failing or otherwise we just stubbornly halted. School was already out so Angie came over to my house to distract me with shopping as she always tries to do. I happily accepted her bribe.

 

"Tonight's Bryce's birthday party and as his mate you've got to be the hottest one there," she stated.

 

I just laughed her off but with no more said I allowed her to drag me to the mall for a new dress. We shopped for most of the day and just hung out for the rest since I had made it clear to her that I was not going to see Bryce before his party tonight.

 

Also going along with my plan Jason had distracted Bryce all day and kept him from coming to find me. I don't know how well Jason succeeded because Bryce had text me at some point but he hadn't come over.

 

We'd passed the time with movies then we started talking about our mates.

 

"So when exactly are you and our future alpha going to get married," I felt like she was going to ask about Bryce and I wanted my distraction just for a bit longer. She blushed profusely.

 

"I don't know about that just yet…" she mumbled shyly.

 

"Aww Angela's embarrassed… and what about life after high school, how are you guys ever going to manage?" I went on dramatically.

 

"Well you know Jason got a full ride scholarship to go to the University of Oklahoma and I'm staying here but we'll work something out. So how are you and Bryce going to manage that's what we're worried about," she countered.

 

And here we go...

 

"Well… as long as he behaves himself- ok no who am I kidding he never behaves," we laughed. "Truly, he's such a goof I don't know what I'll do with him sometimes but if he asks me to go with him I might go. If not I guess you'll need company," elbowing her.

 

"I'm glad you think of me last…" she said sarcastically smiling,

 

"What about your parents?" she asked seriously. I sighed.

 

"I don't know, they don't want me to go off for college but I really wouldn't mind so much if the opportunity came my way…"

 

I felt conflicted somewhat about the whole idea. I wouldn't have minded but I couldn't leave my parents knowing how they felt about the whole situation because I would never hear the end of it. That's the reason I didn't apply to any colleges outside of our town because of them so there would be no "opportunity arising" to speak of and she knew it too. I leaned my head on her shoulder in distress and we sat in silence as she rubbed my back.

 

"You think Bryce would really ask you to go with him to New York?" she inquired after a long pause.

 

Bryce was going to his dream college in New York and, unless he asked me to go with him, I'd be staying here. Since my parents would make me feel bad about leaving I won't force him to bring me if he never planned to take me with him. For the longest moment her question just hung in the air between us as I contemplated her question.

 

"…I don't know… he has two days left," I answered quietly. "Don't-," I started.

 

"I know, we won't interfere it's whatever you guys want to do," she interrupted, "But if he asked you to go…,"

 

"I love Bryce and I would do anything for him," I tested the words out aloud and although I had never realized it before I knew that it was true. "…So if he asked me to go…" we both knew where I was going with it so I let the answer hang between us for a moment.

 

"And if he doesn't, what would you really think?" she knew that I wouldn't really be okay with it at first but I would live; it was only a matter of if I would actually admit that out loud.

 

"We know that Bryce can be an idiot at times but he'll learn one way or another and he'll miss me when I'm not there," I tried to sound unfazed by that possibility.

 

If it did happen I would have to think about it anyway…

 

With the way our relationship has been were we really ready for something like that? Could