The One That Got Away, Danielle Martin [libby ebook reader txt] 📗

Rodney left and this was her first time showing her face at work. The baseball cap she wore sat crooked on the top of her matted weave which was pulled back in a ponytail. She looked just how she felt. Miserable. Brushing past a concerned Nya, she walked towards her desk, plopping down and opening her laptop. Her desk looked a mess. A week off of work meant two weeks of catching up on everything she missed. She was going to have to work her ass off if she wanted to get back on track.

"Kayla..." Nya approached from behind, peeking her head over the cubicle. "Look, you know im your girl." Nya looked down at her with concern spreading in her eyes. "I've called your house. I left you messages. I cant believe you been going through it like this and you havent told me anything."

Makyala sighed. Deep down she didnt want to have this conversation at all and definitely not at work, but Nya was like the sister she never had and she knew keeping her out of the loop wasnt going to last long. "I fucked up Nya." She sighed, turning her back to her so Nya wouldn't see her guilt. "Randall got into my email the other night and he saw everything."

"Whattt?" Nyas mouth dropped open in shock. She leaned forward bringing her voice down to a whisper. "Makayla are you serious? How much of your emails did he read?"

"Hundreds. All the way back to a couple months ago. He saw emails, chat messages, bank statements. Literally everything." Makayla fidgeted with her broken nail trying to avoid eye contact. Nya shook her head while clicking her tounge. She looked surprised by what Makayla told her almost as if she didnt already predict this was going to happen. Nya was one of the only ones who knew all about her secret lifestyle. Although Nya didnt support it, there was nothing she could do. Makayla was a grown woman and had to make her own decisions in life. "He left me in the middle of the night." Makayla said feeling tears brimming in the corner of her eyes once again. "Packed his bags and drove off right in front of my face. And told me to my face he fucked his baby mother. I know he's doing it just to get back at me. "

Nya shook her head. "Girl you should have seen them in the mall yesterday. Faking like they a happy family and shit like they never skipped a beat. I almost wanted to put them two bitches on blast right there in the middle of the mall. They lucky they had their kids with them".

Pain flushed through Makaylas heart as she listened. Dammit she had just stopped crying a few hours ago, and listening to the thought of Rodney actually moving on made her sick to her stomach. "What do I do?" She pleaded Nya for help. "Im lost. I love Rodney so much girl. I dont know what im going to do without him."

"Well can I ask you a question from friend to friend?" Nya leaned in, "Dont get mad, but im just curious... If you love Rodney, girl why we're you cheating on him so much? Was it just for the thrill or what?"

"You dont get it Nya." Makayla closed her eyes trying to shut her out.

"No Makayla, I very much get it. Like I said, I'm your girl and I would never judge you. But i definitely did not understand why you liked that Johnny guy so much. You meet him in a chat room and you act like your ready to ride to the moon and back with this man. Think of all that money you we're spending on them hotels when you could have been laying up at home for free?"

Makayla leaned back in her chair while swallowing the large lump in her throat. She closed her eyes trying to hold back tears. For years Makayla had been decieving everyone around her. Her family. Her friends. Rodney. She put on this huge front like she was so uppity and perfect. In everyones eyes, Makayla could do no wrong. But that was far from the truth. And deep down inside, Makayla was tired of holding it all in. "Nya I never told you this but there is something I think you should know..." She opened her eyes, staring at her deep into her eyes. She was ready to come clean. If she didnt tell someone now, she thought she might explode. "Im a sex addict Nya."

Nya raised her eyebrow in confusion obviously taken aback by her confession. "Aren't we all?", she asked unmoved as if it we're a joke.

"No Nya" Makayla snapped, her tone becoming more firm. "Im serious. Im a sex addict. A nymphomaniac. I was officially diagnosed by a doctor when I was 19. I've been suffering in silence for 12 years and I havent told a soul." She leaned forward, pressing her face into the palm of her hands. "I take medication to control my hormones. When I dont have my pills, my body shakes for sex. I've been to sex rehab. I even used to go to support group classes but I stopped going last year. It had gotten to a point where Rodney acted like he was disgusted to even look at me yet alone touch me. I needed it."

Nya stared at her as she confessed, her mouth wide open. She didnt see that one coming and from the expression on her face it came as a huge blow. "Are you serious???" She asked while stammering. Makayla nodded her head in shame, wishing she could go hide under a rock and never be heard from again. "Its true Nya. I never told you because I was too embarressed. Even till this day, Rodney doesnt know a thing about my past. Other than what hes read in my email, he just thinks im a whore. He doesnt know the real truth behind whats going on inside my head."

"Why dont you just tell him Makayla?!" She asked in fustration.

"Because!" She snapped, looking around making sure no one was eavesdropping. "He wont understand. I gave him so much shit these past 2 years about Carol. Now look at what I've done, I piushed my man right into her arms."

"You damn right you did! And I warned you Kayla. i warned you but you just wouldnt listen." Nya sounded more angry than she was supposed to, but she hated to see how her best friend threw away potientially the best thing that ever happened to him.

Makayla snapped her head towards her, feeling as if she we're defending herself more than confiding into a friend. "Look Nya just let it go. I dont want to talk about this right now. I have to get to work. Im so far behind I have no idea how long it going to take me to catch up."

Nya smacked her lips, shaking her head at her bestfriend of 5 years. No matter how untouchable Makayla tried to make herself seem, Nya saw right through that gaurd she tried to put up and right now Makayla was as weak as she had ever been. "I took care of the Johnson Hospital files you left on your desk and I also closed out your loan processing. I thought I would help make it a little easier on you when you finally decided to show up to work." With that said, Nya turned and walked away without looking back.

 

Chapter 3

 

CHAPTER 3.

"Who is itttttt?" A loud knock peirced through the house as Makayla ran down the steps, tying her robe around her waist. It was 10:00 at night. She was up reading a health magazine eating carrots watching Fried Green Tomatoes and definitly was not expecting any company. "Who is itttt?" She shouted again. No answer. She approached the door slowly, hoping she wasnt going to have to go get her nine. Times like this she hated that she didnt have that peephole installed when she moved in. Swinging open the door, her heart dropped into her stomach in shock almost as if she were seeing a ghost.. There stood Rodney, the smell of his cologne hitting her in the face as soon as she opened the door. She couldn't believe what she we're seeing. They stared at each other for about 10 seconds without saying a word. His breathing was heavy. He looked good. He wore a black tshirt with worn jeans and timberland boots. His hair was neatly trimmed and the cross necklace she brought him for his birthday hung down his neck. She began to feel naked as he continued to stare at her without speaking. Before she could open her mouth to speak, he lunged forward grabbing her by her jaw and forcefully pressing her against the wall using his foot to push the door shut. Her eyes widened in shock. "Rodneyyy" She cried out. In response, he pushed her hair to the side and began to bite and suck on her neck, sucking hard almost as if he we're sucking meat off a chicken bone. "Rodneyyyy" She cried out again, her body becoming weak. She reached up for his face, trying to pull him in and kiss him. He grabbed her by the jaw again, moving her face away and nudging her towards the kitchen table. Using his hands he ripped open her bathrobe. She wore nothing but panties and a bra underneath. Mix match but right now that definitely didnt matter. He proceeded to rip off her bra and then rip off her panties with so much force still not saying a word. He stretched her legs open wide then stood up, unbuckling his pants and pulling down his boxers pulling out his long shiny dick that glistened from moist sweat. Rodney definitelty had the longest dick she ever had, so firm and very well hung. It had been 1 month and 13 days since he made love to her. He held out for so long and here was her moment. She was ready to take it however he wanted to give it to her. Reaching in his back pocket, he did something that he never done in their relationship. He pulled out a condom. A gold pack magnum. Ripping it open with his teeth, he took the condom and slid it right on like it was easy. Swiftly before he could even position himself inbetween her legs, he dipped himself inside of her. "ohhhhhhhhhh" she moaned out in unexpected pleasure. He usually took his time sliding in considering his size, but not this time, he gave it to her raw. She felt him inside of her, hitting her body hard she almost wanted to cum after 10 seconds. Her body began shaking again as she gripped his back pulling him deeper inside of her, her nails gripping his skin as he plunged into her harder. "AHHHHH" she cried out after each thrusts. When they made love, Rodney always took his time, made love to her soft and slow with sweet kisses. But not tonight. She looked up at him as he pounded away, an aggravted expression on his