When The Light Falls - Book 3, N. Y. [good beach reads TXT] 📗

he didn't want to talk. He said things..i've never expected from him. It was different.'' I said.

 

I sniffed one last time, before pulling a piece of my baby hairs back as I looked down to my partially packed suticase.

 

 

 

''You guys got into a fight?'' Rikki said comforting me.

 

''I don't know, he just flipped out on me and U tried to persuade him to not think our future would be horrible. He said something about how things have changed when I came back and I can't change the past.'' I replied.

 

 

Rikki's arms slither around me as iI wiped away the left over tears on my cheeks.

 

I felt sad that he left without even telling me.

 

 

I was too busy wondering if we'd talk again to notice his luggage was gone, and now he's going to leave me.

 

Was this his way of thinking?

 

 

''Ah, you poor thing. I knew from the beginning when you guys, did it you'd regret it and he'd leave. I knew it.'' Rikki said.

 

''No-'' I started.

  

 

But i'm caught off by my thoughts.

 

Maybe U was regretting it, maybe it was a mistake to think it'd be worth it since we'll be together.

 

 

''Maybe I do, a little, but the thought never came to mind.'' I said softly.

 

''Don't worry, you've got us. You don't need Jacob right now-'' Rikki said.

 

 

''No, I do. I need to tell him our future is going to be alright. Even if he believes it or not.'' I jumped to say.

 

 

''So where's your loyal boyfriend now?'' Marybella asks wittingly.

 

''He's probably on the next plane home.'' I replied sadly.

 

 

''Stop lowering yourself down and get dressed.'' Rikki said lifting my head up.

 

 

I turn to my side, I felt them exchange looks.

 

The grey sky from the windows still fall over us through the windows.

 

He was still out there.

 

  

''Look we get that you're sad, but at least eat dinner with us.'' Rikki said.

 

''No, i'll order room service.'' I replied angrily.

 

''Room service will sky rocket your hotel bill. You can't let Lauren spend thousands of dollars on prepared food, breakfast, lunch and dinner, to sit in your room and eat overpriced meals.'' Rikki implied.

 

''Yeah besides, we'll make you feel comfortable at the table.'' Marybella said.

 

 

I finally turn my head to them. It was a great thing to not eat dinner alone, but I still felt sad.

 

''Fine, but only because you'll be next to me.'' I said.

 

-- 

 

''Are you sure I look fine?'' U asked.

 

''Relax, you look beautiful. Now remain calm and don't look sad.'' Rikki whispers.

 

 

Most people turned around and stared then looked back to their plates.

 

 

I look across our table to see Rikki and Chris talking as they smiled.

 

I sighed deeply as my eyes slightly fell down.

 

Even for that moment, Rikki had a better love life than me. And I was jealous.

 

 

''Let's eat.'' Bella said.

 

''Wait, Jacob isn't here. Where is he?'' Chris asks.

 

 

There was silence for a moment, no one spoke.

 

 

''Chris.'' Rikki muttered at him.

 

She whispers gently to his ears. He responds with an upset expression to her.

 

''What?'' he replies.

 

 

''Alright, let's all eat.'' Marybella interuppts, anxious.

 

Bella was sure enough trying to make dinner as normal as possible, without Jacob.

 

It was not working so far.

 

 

She layed out her napkin on her lap as it folds in the air grabbing everyone's attention at the table.

 

Marybella takes a sip of her drink as we all slightly stare at her.

 

Cleary she was tense and trying to make this work.

 

 

A waiter comes around with my plate full of dinner once I turn from Bella finally.

 

 

It all looked good, but I didn't feel that hungry. All of this made the tension of being alone rise.

  

I look over to the empty seat to my right.

 

My eyes grew tired as I forced myself to look away.

 

 

 

I look up to Rikki with a worried look on her face, I turn away again.

 

I didn't feel like talking. But before Rikki could get up or say something, Lauren plops down next to me.

 

 

''Elle, where have you been throughout dinner?'' Lauren asks.

 

She was sweating like crazy, probably from socializing. A drink in her hand as she speaks.

 

 

''I kind of had a mental breakdown, but i'm fine.'' I replied, trying to sound like myself.

 

''Well, if you say so, but note that Jacob isn't here. I saw him earlier taking his luggage.'' Lauren says.

 

''Yeah, I know.'' I said, my voice kind of low.

 

 

My head lowers as my lasting thoughts came back.

 

What I wanted to di was cry on instinct and leave so that Rikki could find me and comfort me.

 

Even in just the mention of his name, I was worried if she knew where he went.

 

 

Maybe she talked to him.

 

 

When I turned back to Lauren, she's spaced out for a moment. Then she takes a sip from her cup.

 

She must have been drinking tonight because she smiled the entire time while I spoke.

 

 

''Lauren are you drunk?'' I asked.

 

''No, no, no....i'm not. Whym are you?'' she replies.

 

''Not yett.'' I replied grabbing my drink in front of my dinner.

 

 

Lauren hums a tune then turns her head to me swiftly.

 

She was completely drunk.

 

I sigh as I sat back in my chair.

 

 

Lauren reaches for another cup full of liqour that passes by on a tray from a waiter.

 

My thoughts begin forming again if I should leave and find him or worry later and eat something. 

 

 

I mean, I can persuade Jacob into thinking it'd be fine if we finally decide to get hitched and think about the future.

 

I just wanted a change for once, something that didn't revolve around my past.

 

 

Just for once.

 

 

''I don't know about you but,....are you eating that?'' Lauren finally says.

 

I look down to my uneaten plate. 

 

 

Green beans with baby back ribs.

 

 

''No.'' I said pushing the plate to her.

 

She grabs it in excitement digging in. I didn't know if it was okay to eat while drunk, but Lauren did.

 

I pick up my fork lazily and point it to her, she pushes it away as she digs into the food with her hands.

 

 

''Okay.'' I said silently, setting the fork back in front of me.

 

 

I cross my arms over the red dress that I wore just a few nights ago.

 

From when me and Jacob talked that night about the future and our scandelous makeout.

 

Even just looking at it gave me bad vibes.

 

  

Even my own thoughts wanted to escape from me. I was afraid and alone.

 

Jacob wasn't here to make it alright, and i'm not there for him to make things right.

 

 

I had enough of sitting here in this pity party Rikki and Marybella called dinner.

 

I get up from my chair as I make my way out.

 

''Elle,...did you say something?'' Rikki shouts after me.

 

 

I walk faster out of the dinner hall. I was tired of the talks and the awkward conversation about Jacob.

 

I needed him here but he wasn't.

 

 

Footsteps follow behind me, I heard them pace up to me.

 

''Elle wait up.'' Marybella said.

 

 

I paced faster until I reached an open elevator. I pressed the button to go up but Rikki and Marybella stopped in time to talk.

 

 

''Elle why are you leaving?'' Marybella asked.

 

 

They had worried looks in her eyes, and me with the same.

 

 

''I don't want to talk right now, I just need sleep.'' I replied.

 

''You can't go to sleep upset, you haven't eaten yet.'' Rikki says.

 

 

''Watch me.'' I replied again, getting in the elevator.

 

I turned around to face them.

 

Marybella puts her foot for the doors to stop closing.

 

 

''Can't you at least finish dinner with us?'' Marybella asks, shuffling.

 

''Good night Marybella.'' I stated.

 

 

I smashed the up button as I watch Marybella and Rikki's worried faces disappear.

 

I'm left alone in the elevator, blurred stainless steel walls surrounding me.

 

 

I was sad enough to miss and think that it was my fault why he walked out on me.

 

We planned to have a future together, and maybe he doesn't see that now.

 

 

We both see ourselves together. But I think Jacob's having seconds thoughts.

 

Everything was just fine until, I brought it up again.

 

 

Now we both have something to apologize and discuss for again.

 

 

I sighed as my head leaned up to look at the bright lights.

 

I was hoping, wondering if he was okay. I just hope he understands that I want change.

 

But he's also right. I did want to change my future.

 

 

  

I think that's the reason why he stormed off on me.

 

Because he thinks the future may not be what I think it is for us.

 

  

Maybe that's it.

  

Maybe he just sees us together, but not forever.

 

 

He's probably afraid of losing me right now.

 

He gave up so quickly to talk about the future.

 

 

I close my eyes for a brief second.

 

What was I going to do now?

 

Or what was Jacob going to do?

 

 

We both don't know right now.

 

 

But, it's just right now.

 

Chapter Fourteen: Stranded Thoughts

 

Jacob's P.O.V

  

My eyes open calmly, the ocean and the cool air breathing into the room.

 

 

I groaned as I reached for the covers, iIunraveled myself from the bed.

 

It was so comfortable. I didn't want to leave, but I had to get up.

 

 

Elle's probably worried sick about me. She probably doesn't even suspect i'm here.

 

I set my feet down on the cold marble floor of the guest room.

 

 

I was glad that Carla let me stay the night. I couldn't bare to go back and face Elle again.

 

I can't imagine if she slept or not.

 

But I have to leave. The others would be disappointed if they don't see me back at the hotel again.

 

 

I hear soft footsteps approach the door.

 

''Hey, you awake?'' Carla says.

 

''Yes.'' I reply.

 

 

Her smile seeps through the small open crack from the door.

  

I was lucky enough to convince her to let me stay the night.

 

I groan as U get up, my arms strech from behind. I twist and turn as my body re-adjusts it'self from the sleep last night.

 

 

 

Several minutes after getting ready, I head to the kitchen. Max is playing with a colorful toy train on the floor. He makes nosies mimicking a train.

 

 

I smiled as I kneel down to see him.

 

''Morning.'' U said.

 

Max smiles back, not saying a word.

 

 

''Hey, breakfast is ready.'' Carla says, coming from the kitchen.

 

 

I got up then head to the kitchen. The windows were open throughout the house.

 

I already loved just being here again.

 

 

''Sooo, how did you sleep?'' Carla says stirring a cup full of tea.

 

''Good. It was nice of you to let me stay.'' I said.

 

''Anything for a friend, that I used to babysit.'' Carla replied.

 

"Looked after, I was a teen."

 

"Ha, teen gone adult so soon. You were eighteen."

 

 

I sat down on a bar stool near the open counter top full of breakfast.

 

It seemed better than the hotel served food.

 

It was fresh from the market and ready to be eaten.

 

 

I dig in to pile my plate with fruits and toast. Then i'm stopped when I reach for a cup of orange juice.

 

Carla places a knife ahead of my fingers as she gave a reassuring look.

 

 

''Before you drink anything, tell me why you were knocking at my door at 11:39pm?'' Carla says.

 

Her hand pushes my fingers away, I swallow the rest of my food.

 

 

She sets the knife down as I turn to her. Carla crosses her arms over her chest.

 

Her big belly right in front of us.

 

I can't lie to a pregnant Carla, she'll tear me limb from limb.

 

 

''I came here because I needed a place to stay.'' I replied.

 

I turn back to my plate full of food, but i'm viciously turned back by Carla.

 

 

''Come on Jacob, I know you. Tell me.'' Carla demands.

 

I sigh as I looked down to the ground. I look