I'm Yours Only, Sophie J Brain [i am malala young readers edition txt] 📗

if reading her thoughts he said “We can't really stay here all day”

Nicky nodded trying to ignore the lump in her throat “I know”

Chris opened his mouth to speak then held back, if he asked this and she accepted it could lead to trouble.

“Did you want to say something?” she asked.

Ah, to hell with it they were already in trouble and he wasn't ready to part with her yet “We could always just go back to mine?”

Her eyes widened “We can do that?”

“Well no” he smiled “but we can't really do this”

Nicky smiled “That certainly is true and we are less likely to be spotted at your house”

He hated that so much. That it had to be kept a secret. Chris wanted nothing more than to be able to shout to the world how much he liked her and how wonderful and beautiful she was but he couldn't. Even though he knew that they had to be patient, it would be better if they were patient; it still made his heart ache.

Nodding he grabbed her arm and started leading her out of the field “This won't always have to be a secret”

Nicky stopped “I thought this was just going to be a one off meeting?”

That was what it was supposed to have been, one last chance to talk to her as a proper person, and not just a student. But he didn't want to have just a taste and then give up. He wanted more, he wanted her. “Do you want this to be just a one-time thing?”

Nicky's eyes bugged out “but we said-”

“I know what we said” he interrupted “but what do you want?”

In reply Nicky grabbed the back of his head and gave him a long passionate kiss.

They separated and Chris almost laughed as he realised she was just as dazed from her actions as he was “that is a very good answer”

She blinked still slightly dazed “I thought so”

They left the field and slowly walked over to his car. Chris unlocked it and they both climbed in “Where do you live?” Nicky asked.

“Just about ten minutes away”

“Ah” Nicky nodded and stared out the window.

The rest of the journey was made in silence until they pulled up outside his house “here we are”

They both got out of the car, as soon as Nicky was close enough he grabbed hold of her hand “Mr Williams” she whispered urgently “what if someone sees?”

“”It's Chris” he replied deciding that was a good enough answer.

“Chris” she repeated slowly “I've called it you many times in my thoughts”

“Have you now?” he murmured opening the door and letting her walk in.

“I find it hard to think of you as anything else” she admitted.

Chris nodded and motioned for her to sit down; she did so but very awkwardly deciding to perch on the edge of the sear rather than trying to be comfortable.

Nicky smiled weakly “It's nice here, you are very fortunate to live in this kind of environment”

He sat down next to her, pulling her hand so she was resting against his chest “It has never been as good as it is now”

Nicky looked at him, “why not?”

“I have a beautiful woman sat with me in it”

She blushed “Oh”

He really did love it when he saw colour on her cheeks. Chris vowed right then to try and make her blush whenever possible. “So what do you want to do now?”

Nicky blushed again, pure bliss. “What I want to do now could get you fired”

“I could get fired just for spending this day with you “I know and I hate that too” Nicky paused “Um Sir where do I stand with you?”

Chris blinked “What do you mean?”

She swallowed not sure the best way to ask what she wanted to. “Well is this just about the sex?”

“God no” Chris stood up so quickly that Nicky almost fell to the floor “Is that what you think?”

Nicky tidied her hair after he had messed it standing up “Well I don't know I mean I really like you Chris and I know you like me too but if all this can be is sex then that's ok I still think that would be really special”

He stared at her for a moment as she sat back on the sofa again and looked up at him with her lovely eyes, could this only be about sex? Or could they hope for more? “What do you want?”

“I want you Chris, I always have” Nicky answered “Well when I said 'always' I mean for the last two months because well that's how long I've known you. But it feels like longer than that I mean I feel like I've known you for like my whole life, do you think that's odd?”

“No I don't think that's odd” he smiled, how could he when he had been thinking the very same thing?

“You never answered my question” Nicky pointed out

“I don't want this to be just about sex either” he replied

She sighed with relief, so glad that her worse fear had been soothed. Nicky knew he wasn't the sort to just have sex with her without meaning, she had a sixth sense about people and she knew in her heart he cared for her. But there had still been this doubt in her mind about whether there could truly be any hope for more than that, no matter what her heart was saying. “So what do we do then?”

“I don't know” he admitted “but there must be a way surely?”

Nicky wanted to scream in frustration, here was this kind handsome young man who was actually interested in a mess like her and they couldn't do anything about it, really fate could be most cruel at times. “I think there must be I just don't know what”

“Neither do I” Chris looked so much like a sullen child who had had his favourite toy taken away that Nicky let out a little giggle “what's so funny?”

“Just the way you looked then” she explained “believe me if you had seen it you would have laughed too”

He started pacing the room “What are we going to do?” he needed the answer, if he could find a way to be with her on a long term basis he would probably jump up and down and do a little jig. He wanted to be with her that much. He frowned remembering the business he had back at home, he would probably have to sort that out at some point but it wasn't too urgent it wasn’t likely to get in the way.

“Do we have to think of a way right now?” she asked seeing him frown “can't you just sit here and hold me for a while?”

Chris nodded and sat down beside her. He wrapped his arm around her shoulders and she snuggled down and put her head on his chest. God he never wanted this moment to end, he didn't know what he would do when it got to the late evening and she would have to go home, it wasn't enough time but would it ever be enough? He looked down at her resting lightly on his chest with her eyes half closed as she let out a sad wistful sigh and decided that all of their stolen moments wouldn't be enough, they couldn't be enough, but then once the secret was over they could have the rest of their lives.

“Maybe if it was a secret for a little bit” she whispered “and then as soon as we could say the truth we would and secret would be over” she twisted around so she could look up at him “What do you think?”

“I think” he murmured with a smile “that that is perfect”

She smiled back “I thought so too”

 

Several hours later Chris woke up and looked at the beautiful women laid beside him and beamed both on his face and on his soul. Her eyes were still peacefully closed and her chest was rising and falling as she silently slept. He had never been as happy as he was in that moment.

The duvet slipped off her shoulders for a moment so he pulled it back up so her nakedness wasn't exposed, the action caused her to stir slightly and turn over onto her side. Chris wrapped his arm around her and whispered “it's ok, you don't have to wake up yet” of course he hadn't looked at the time but he hoped that was true.

His words did little to sooth her, if anything it made her worse and she slowly woke up and looked at him with a smile “sorry did I fall asleep?”

He nodded “yeah but so did I”

Nicky yawned, looked at the clock and urgently jumped out of bed “Oh gosh its half seven I need to be going”

Chris looked at the clock and swore softly “I didn't realise it had grown so late”

She quickly pulled on her clothing and rushed to the door before he had a chance to even get on his trousers “I'm sorry I really should be going. We have Greg and his dad over for drinks today and they are coming in just over an hour”

A memory triggered in his mind “Greg?”

“Yeah” she said slowly “Gregory Bryant my ex-boyfriend, our families know each other”

“So his father would be the same man who attacked you yesterday?” Chris asked.

She sighed clearly admitting defeat “Yes, but it's ok he won't do anything at my house”

He grabbed her hand and lightly pulled her towards him a little “You can be sure of this?”

Nicky looked down at his hand on hers and swallowed “Well not completely I suppose but he hasn't before and well my parents would be there so I will be safe enough”

Chris knew she was right, her parents wouldn't allow her to get in any danger and he didn't think this man was stupid enough to do anything in such a public way. He had after all waited until she was on her own in a deserted place before attempting his attack the day before but still there was a little worry in his heart “Stay with me tonight”

She snorted “You're crazy, completely insane”

“Why because I'm asking you to stay?” he asked “or because I do not wish to part with your company?”

“Both” she replied “I can't stay here what would I tell my family?”

“Anything you like” he murmured taking another step towards her “just please don’t let me spend all of tomorrow worrying about you”

Nicky took a step back “I can call you tomorrow to let you know I'm ok”

Chris took another step forward “But I will still have all of tonight to worry my heart out and I will be so lonely”

She would have tried to step back further but she was now pressed against the wall “You will?”

He nodded “So terribly lonely”

She raised her brows “how have you been keeping yourself occupied before I came along then?”

“Dreams” he let out a wicked smile “dreams about you”

“Well then you will be quite content without me now”

“No you see now I have had the real thing dreams won't be enough”

Nicky took her wrist from his grasp and jokingly walked backwards away from him however in her mirth she forgot about the bed behind her and fell back down onto it. Chris laughed and quickly pinned her down smiling seductively as he leaned down and kissed her neck whispering “you don't want to make me worry do you?”

Lost for words she shook her head as his lips moved down and kissed the part of her chest exposed from her top. She knew that she needed to be home but she didn’t want to go and she didn't really want to see Kevin again after what had happened. “I want to stay I do its just-”

Chris looked down at her “Just what Nicky?”

“I don't know what to say”

“Say you're with a friend”

Nicky chewed on her lip which made her look so cute that he just had to kiss her again “I suppose I could”

“Do it then”