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her upstairs to her bedroom . When I lay her down in the bed she reach out to my hand "please stay "she Whispered I sing pull off my clothes throwing myself beside her she put her head on my chest tying her hand around my waist

 

 

" I love you " she call

 

" me too babe .... maybe more than you thought "

 

I like the feeling our bodies meet sending electric and shivered between our bodies it feel good . I rolled my hand around her burial my face in her  hair. Her  scent like drugs for me like  my own personal brand of heroin .

I  closed my eyes sniffing her one last time before I felt darkness. 

 

I wake up Mila still in my arms I smile that not dream . I slept last night beside her. I admire her   beauty for more than half an hour  before I get up making sure not to waking her.

 

 

I bring headaches pills with cup of water place it on her nightstand I know she'll need it when she's a wake .

Living not for her , I  get to my room picked up my outfit before I handle to take shower. 

 

 

Today am going to buy everything new to my room the bed the nightstand and the wells colors. 

After forty minutes am ready  I pick my car keys and my phone hooping in my car and drive to the mall.

 

Mila ( P.O.V)

 

 

I wake up on my phone ringing omg I can't move from my headache like train hit me  and was my phone rings making it worse.  I turned around to reshoot my phone my eyes leaned on my nightstand thanks god there was headache pills with cup of water I  get them punch the tow pills in my system threw some water after them . I for my luck my phone dead off .

 

I closed my eyes feeling the sleep caver me .

I wake up one more time thanks goodness no headache this time I  get up I notice there was a not on my nightstand. 

 

goodmorning my beauty  took your pills I'll be home at dinner love you .

Your Bro Ethan. 

 

 

I smile I think I didn't fucked up last night.  I picked summer yellow dress with blue and yellow sandals pick yellow and blue bra and underwear.

running to the bathroom toking my shower. After an  hour and half am ready I  pick my phone to check who was calling me . It's my crazy bf Emma I  call back she picked up from the first ring.

 

 

Emma : where your fucking ass I was ringing on you ( she was yelling)

Me : calm your ass  down what about 

Emma : first I think to get tattoo today and sc....

ME: am in send me the address you  took an appointment 

Emma : Okay great in a bit and yap I  get one bye 

Me: bye 

Emma: don't be late bitch 

Me: I'll move my ass out home when I get the address 

Emma: good bye 

 

Before I react she hang up.I  get to the kitchen Anny our maid was there "morning Anny " she's around 38 years 

"Oh good afternoon Mia" she remanding me it's 4:30 "Whatever Anny am going out you need something "  took a bit from my apple "no thanks" 

 

 

"Okay then bye I shoot off my shoulder getting out to the parking lot jump in my car making it a live looking at my phone scream there was message from Emma I open it it's show up the tattoo shop address.  I sing made my way to the tattoo shop. 

This my car by the way. 

 

 

I made there in 20 minutes . I saw Emma arready there  "hey girly" I shot "hey sexy" we laughed entering to the shop to get our first tattoos . Emma wonderful girl , she's 17 like me I know her from two years  the day I started the school here in New York City because Ethan wanna to be here on university and my dad told him that I have to move his him . Emma have red hair and green eyes she have sexy body and by the way she have crash on my brother .

 

 

When I was getting my tattoo I started toking was the guy who making out my tattoo. Because Emma get little kitten tattoo on under her ear and when she finished her tattoo her my called her to get home she sing sorry for me before she left. 

 

 

He's cute handsome and  gay his name Ryan he blond hair and brown eyes .he make laugh a lot to forgot the pain " you know if am not gay I'll make you my girl" he call before I answer my phone get alive I pick it up .

Me : hi

Ethan: hey my little girl every things fine

Me : Yap great wh Ahhhhhh .....Awww It's hurt that time fuck Ryan ( Ryan laugh)

Ethan : what  the fuck is that Mila ( I can feel how much his anger was but why ? Oh he thought am ...)

Me :E am not making sexual contact ok

Ethan: oh because that your moaning huh ( he yelled)

Me :  it's hurt Ryan 

Ethan : who the fuck is Ryan he fu...

 

I cut the call start laughing " your boyfriend " Ryan ask I hope he is " No my bro  he so protector he thought am making love with you now " we laughed . "By the way am done" holding the mirror for me to look at my new tattoo it's so red " put this cream on it and you'll be fine " Ryan said punch cream tube on my face "thanks Ryan see you later "

This my tattoo 

 

 

 

I left the tattoo shop I jump in my car making it a live take my way home. In   20 minutes later am home I  open the front door calling " am home E "

"Your dinner in the  refrigerator " he shoot really likes this no baby girl or my little girl or Mia . I sing he's  mad maybe because my moaning on the phone great he think I was making sexual contact  . I  entered the livingroom Ethan was there lying on the couch watch football game.  I cleared my voice to get his attention . Desponting me he doesn't flash "E about the moa........." I was cutting off before I explained why I was moaning " this your personal life sis I don't want to hear about it " in his deep mad voice.  Really that my brother Ethan he always asked personal stuff about my life. Oh and now he says this my personal life that he doesn't want to hear about it really. 

 

Chapter two: It's time

 Ethan ( P.O.V )

 

 

After I heard Mila moans on the phone line I get mad crazy from just the images popping up in my head how he kissing her right now? How he hold her ?

How she moans his name?

How he got inside her?

how she moans for pleasure?

For him omg how she kissing him ?

She in another guy arms making love with him .

I hate him I hate her .

 

Why I have to hate them ?

I have to hate myself not them am the wrong person not them am in love with my sister .

It's over I have to control myself this love is all impossible and wrong .

 

When she get home she yelled to me that she's home I felt like I want to jump to her ask her a lot of questions but I catch myself.

 

"Your dinner in the  refrigerator " I call not moving from the couch  . I was  mad again when remember her moaning  .

 

She  entered the livingroom I tried not to look at her because if I make eye contact I'll make her mine to let her know that she can't be with any guy she's mine and am her's . "

E about the moa........." I  cutting her off 

" this your personal life sis I don't want to hear about it "

I don't want to know what happened between them or anything .

 

  Really she'll she'll not going to tell the truth anyway .

"Am not hungry " 

 

" Good he feed you "

" I wasn't ...."

 

I cut her entire time " it's you r life Hun good night " I say getting up to make my way to my room but I was stopped with her head on my shoulder . 

"What about my goodnight kiss " she say in softly voice my heart want me to kiss her not just good night kiss he wants me to kiss every place this guy touch it , but my mind not let me to do it .

 

" Sorry Mila no kiss to night " was that I left.

   

 

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I can't sleep because every night for one year and half  I wait Mila to sleep , I sneak to her room to admiring her sniffing her . Her scant help me to sleep .

I look at the clock in the nightstand it's 2:15 am I sing she be dreaming now.

I get up reach to her room I open her door slowly she was wearing sports  grey bra the cover reaches under her breast her  blond hair cover her face I set close to her pushing her hair softly with my fingers , to took better look to her wonderful face she's angel . I roll my fingers softly on her cheek it soft like the flower .

" omg hate that you was in bed with a guy today  " I blom softly

 

" sorry love but I have to make space between us sorry baby " I felt water in my eyes I lay down kissing her pink sweetie lips lightly .

 

 

" if you're not my sister "

 

Now all the tears roll on my cheeks burning my heart .

 

I turned to get up but I can't something catching me .

I look to see Mila hand around my wrist my eyes wide did she heard me.

 

" you tasted from the same cup now ." Her sleepy voice send shivers to my body omg what she heard .

 

 

I she means which cup oh god she heard me fuck .

 

 

" what do you mean sis " I played it stupid 

 

 

thanks god there was no enough light in the room to see me crying .

 

 

 

" I . don't know what you mean ...am  just.... here to give you good night kiss " I scrolled .

 

" Am glad to see you now feeling a little bit for my pain when you were with Sofia  "

 

what she means by that ?

She heard me .she was jealousy from Sofia why?

I escape my wrist standing up to leave .

This wrong I can't let anything happen between us and am really sure if I stay here after what she said about her jealous thing things will go south .

I'll not letting this happen .

I turned to leave but her strong voice stopped me .

 

 

" no you have to listen to me Ethan ." I turned to face her.

 

" I was die every day I saw you Touching her I was die every night when I hear her moaning your name I was die every day every minute every