Broken Pieces, L. S. [brene brown rising strong .txt] 📗

alive and reached my destination. I really wanted to withdraw the thought in my head that he stopped caring about me but it what it looks like and I hate myself because despite that I still couldn’t help not to miss him.

I wanted to call him, be the first to surrender from this silent war but I don’t want to invade the space he asked from me.

Earlier when Nate was driving me home, he mentioned about a job that he can refer me to in a club house as a receptionist. I don’t know where he got the idea that I was looking for a job maybe from Nicole but he said that the owner is a friend of his and he can easily get me the job if I want to. I told him I’ll think about the offer because its way better than me going back to the club and strip again.

What I just need now is to clear things out with Carter so I could start planning on what to do with my life. I just very thankful that I have so many good people behind who looks after and will always be there to pick me up.

Just before I closed my eyes to sleep I decided to just turn my phone off and keep inside drawer of the nightstand. If space is what Carter wants then its space that I am going to give him.

 

 

Around eight when I decided to come out of the bed the next day, I was awake all night. My eyes were closed but my subconscious is very much aware of what was happening on my surroundings, there was even a moment when I reached on my side hoping that I could touch Carter but all I found was nothing but an empty sheet.

I was even able to memorize the way the squirrel chirps from the outside or how many times the birds dropped by from the window.

All I could think about all night was Carter, his touch, his lips, those beautiful green eyes and that talented hands that make me go crazy every time he touches me. I feel like I am going insane, I’ve never like this before towards him. I even kept figuring out what I really feel about him but now that I could no longer see him or feel his touch it makes me crazy like another day of not seeing him will make me lose my mind. I don’t even know why? Am I falling in love with Carter? I hope not. Not in this kind of situation.

I came downstairs and found Nate in the kitchen making some breakfast for the two of us. He was wearing a gray shirt and a pair of white PJ’s. He looks like he just got out of the bed too.

“Hey gorgeous, how’s your sleep?” he asked cheerfully.

“Fine, I think I rested pretty well,” I lied.

I don’t want him to think that I am not comfortable in his home.

“Good, grab a chair and we’ll have breakfast,” he said and I sat on one of the barstools.

He placed a platter full of food like bacon, scrambled egg and toast in front of me and placed another one for himself. It smells delicious but I still do not have the appetite to eat anything.

“Coffee?” he asked.

I nodded. “So when did you learn how to cook?” I asked back, “The last time I checked, you were trying to figure out what to do with the sirloins.”

He laughed as I drove back memory lane, it was months back when I saw him at the supermarket trying to figure what to cook and what ingredients he needs.

“Well, after that encounter of ours, I have watched some cooking lessons online and tried to make those recipes myself,” he told me. “And I didn’t stop until I was able to perfect it and when I did so I decided not to get a maid anymore.”

I laughed.

“Well, I am so proud of you then,” I said.

“Thank you, let’s eat.”

“Can’t wait to taste this,” I said trying to fake my excitement.

I knew he cooked for me so its rude if I will tell him that I don’t have an appetite, besides Nate has been nothing but good to me and eating what he cooked for me is also my way of showing him I have appreciate everything he had done for me.

The food wasn’t bad at all, in fact it was really great, and I didn’t even expect that I will be able to finish my plate. After we ate I offered to do the dishes, at first Nate refused and told me to just fix myself so we can check out the club house that his friend own so I could see the place but when I insisted he surrendered and told me I could help him instead.

He washed and I wiped.

“I just take a quick shower and get ready okay?” I told him after we were done washing the dishes. 

Just when I was about to walk back upstairs Nate grabbed my hand and pulled me in his arms, things happened so fast cause he was holding my face with both hands slowly closing the distance between us. Last thing I knew his lips were on mine. I was stunned I didn’t know what to do. I just stood there and let him kiss me.

“I’m sorry Jillian, I have just been dying to do that since I saw you yesterday,” he said.

I bowed my head and touched my lips. I just let another man kiss me and I didn’t even stop him. 

He put his arms on my shoulders.

“Jillian, please don’t be mad at me,”

I shook my head; he just got carried away with the thought of us being here together I told myself over and over again.

“T-That’s okay,” I said then we heard three consecutive knocks on the door like someone is hurrying for the door to be opened.

Nate nodded and he went to see who it was on the door, I took that opportunity to run towards the stairs.

“Where is Jillian?”

I stopped when I heard that familiar voice who I have been longing to hear all night. I step back and glanced at the door.

There he was standing on the door wearing a pair of black suit and tie. He looks haggard like he didn’t sleep for days and he didn’t shave for weeks.

I couldn’t help myself from running towards him, pulled him into a tight embrace and crashes my lips on his. I knew Nate was there standing in front of us and that he just kissed me but I don’t care at all.

“Baby I’ve missed you,” he whispered. “Come on,” the he reached for my hand and started pulling me out of the house.

Then I realized that I was wearing a pair of Mickey Mouse PJ’s.

“Where are we going?” I asked, totally confused.

“I am taking you home.”

I was shocked. Home? To LA?

“But what about my things?”

“Marcus will take care of that,”

Nate was even calling my name but I had no choice but to go with Carter, I just mouthed “I’m sorry” to him and just let Carter dragged me inside the car waiting for us outside Nate’s home.

Carter’s initial plan was to take me back to California but I was able to convince him I will stay with Nicole for a couple more days. As always he said yes but he will also stay here in Miami Beach which is totally fine with me.

Though I was worried about his company and he told me that his dad is taking care of the situation and asked him to step back of the position for a while as they are trying to control any damage. I am still sad that the company is still not in good state but I am happy to be with Carter again.

 

 

After we left Nate’s house and after I convinced him that I will stay here for a while we went straight to the hotel that he owns where I was supposed to stay.

Right after he closed the door he pinned me on the wall and took my lips, we were both hungry with each other that we didn’t even reach the bed. We just made love on floor.

“What were you doing here?” I whispered.

I was lying on top of perfectly toned body, we were still on the floor and were still both naked. I don’t want this moment to end. My heart is filled with so much happiness, seeing him and being with him washes all the pain I was feeling this past few weeks.

He wrapped his arms around me.

“When the hotel called me and told me that you never checked in, I got worried, I called your phone but it was out of service,” he said slightly.

“I was going crazy so I called Nicole, I knew you will be with her no matter what, she was so angry at me that she was even yelling at me,” I laughed cause no one ever yelled at him. “She said that if I don’t want you then I should just let you go, that a lot of people are willing to take care of you, and that they will never let you down like what I did to you, it took me a while before I was able to shut her up and finally tell me where you at and she said that you are staying with that Nate guy and that he had a thing for you since the first day you got here,” he continued and tightening his embraced on me. “I was going crazy, I asked Phoebe to get me a flight last night but all the flights were fully booked, I personally went to the airport hoping for a chance that I can fly last night but there was nothing that they could do for me, so I stayed at the airport until I could get the earliest flight today, so here I was,”

My heart aches for him from what he had gone through but I feel like in a movie, I hated myself even more cause of the thoughts I had in mind that he doesn’t care about me anymore. Little did I know he was at the airport, imagine Carter Greene the hottest bachelor in Beverly Hills spent all night in the airport just to get to me. Tears fell from my eyes.

“I’m sorry Jillian, I really sorry for everything that I did, I shouldn’t have done that, I was really an asshole these past few days and I will do everything to make up for that, please give me another chance.” He begs. “I can’t live without you. I love you so much that I will die if I lose you."

I lifted my head to face him while the tears continue to fall from my eyes. I am so happy to hear that he still loves me that he loves me even more after what we have gone through.

“I’ll admit, how you treated me this past few weeks were difficult for me to go through, I thought I was losing you and I blamed myself for what happened with your company but it hurts me even more when you asked me to leave you, I thought I was losing and it was really painful for me but you know I was thankful that this happened because I realized how much you mean to me, I thought I was to lose my mind when you weren’t by my side last night.” I kissed his lips. “I love you Carter, with all my heart,” I whispered.

He held my face and looked at me straight into my eyes.

“You love me?”

I nodded. “I do, I have been in love with you for a while I just didn’t know until last night,”

He kisses me again and hugged me so tight.

“Oh god Jillian, you didn’t know how much you made me happy. I can lose everything not just you Jillian, not