Waiting for Superman, Makayla Hanks [whitelam books txt] 📗

you the whole time you’re here if you don’t."-C

I narrow my eyes at him.

"You know I will."-He says smiling

I look at him for a minute.

"Come on just tell me!"

"Alec wouldn’t let me."

"Whatever! You know he likes me. Don’t lie."-C

"If I tell you will you stop asking?"

"Yes."-He smiles

"Fine… One I have only known you for one day. Two I don’t want people to think I’m using you for your money. And three…"

"… Three?"-C

"I have never had a real boyfriend." – I smile nervously trying to avoid eye contact

"Really?"-He says smiling

"Yeah…"

"Why not?"-C

"Well Alec is one reason, obviously. And I don’t want to end up like…" I stop because I realize what I was about to say

"… Like?"-C

"Like my mom…"- I look everywhere besides at him

He softly grabs my chin and pulls my face to his so that I will look at him.

"I would never do that to you." He looks like he’s being sincere, but how does he know that? I decide to speak my mind.

"How do you know that?"- I say really quietly

Chapter 4: Connor's P.O.V. - Because I Love You

 

Chapter 4 Connors P.O.V.: Because I love you

"How do you know that?" I was barely able to hear it. But she’s right I look around and try to think of a way to say what I’m feeling, try to think of a way to tell her that I would never hurt her. I want to tell her I love her, but it’s way too soon. I might scare her away. I think of Emma. I smile and reach to grab the picture

"This little girl was my best friend. We were like you and Alec are now. We were so close, that no one could come in between us. She used to say I was her hero. I never understood why, but she always said it. When I was upset she was the only one that could make me smile… But when she was nine she… got really sick. We took her to the doctors and they said she had leukemia. My parents paid for the best doctors and everything… but after a couple months of treatments, her body stopped reacting to them. They weren’t helping her anymore. The doctors said we should take her home and enjoy her last few weeks together. She was so happy to be out of that hospital even though she knew she was gonna leave us. She said she would rather be happy with us, then to be in the hospital. We took her everywhere we could, so that she would have fun… One night we went to the beach and just sat there and talked for hours about everything. About how much we loved each other and about how much we’d miss her but she told us to stop. She said she wasn’t gone yet. She said that when she leaves she wants us to smile and look up at the stars and know that she’s looking back at us. She said that she was ready to go. She looked at me and said ‘One day you’ll be someone else’s hero and you’ll care for them with all your heart. I know you will because you are the sweetest person in the world and I know you’ll find someone to save, like you saved me’. That night I cried so much I thought I would never cry again. But I was wrong… I went to her room because I couldn’t sleep. I called her name but she didn’t answer. I shook her… but she didn’t wake up… I started screaming her name and shaking her, but she wouldn’t wake up… My parents ran in the room and my mom fell to the floor and cried. My dad just looked at her body and tears rolled down his cheeks… I had never seen my dad cry before… I slowly fell to the floor and I cried the hardest I have in my life. My dad tried to grab my mom, he tried to comfort her, but she ripped away from him and ran to her room and locked the door. She didn’t come out of the room for three days, but we could hear her crying at night… When she finally came out she didn’t look at my dad. She couldn’t talk to him all she could do was yell. She wouldn’t let anyone touch her. When we had the funeral I couldn’t look at Emma. I didn’t want to see her like that. I couldn’t handle it. I drove off and I cried. I went home and laid in her bed and I cried myself to sleep. My mom came home and when she saw me, she started screaming at me to get and to never go back in there. I just looked at her. I grabbed Emma’s favorite teddy bear and I went to my room. My mom is still like that. She can’t even look at me unless she’s yelling at me. When Emma died so did our family… So did a piece of my heart. There is a whole in my heart that Emma filled and I thought no one would be able to fill it." I look at Brier and she’s crying. I realized that I am too. I wiped away a tear and said

"But then I met you. You are so different and beautiful and strong. When I saw you I thought ‘Wow. She might be the one, the one to fill this whole in my heart.’ I know it seems really sudden but I can wait if I need to. I can wait for you if you want me to. I don’t know why but I have really strong feelings for you. That is how I know I won’t hurt you. I would never hurt you."-A tear rolled down my cheek. I quickly wiped it away. Brier stood up and said

"Stand up."- With tears rolling down her cheeks. I stood up. She looked at me for a second. Then she wrapped her arms around my waist and hugs me. Pulling me tight in her embrace. I wrap my arms around my shoulders and squeeze her tight to my chest. After a little bit she pulls away, tears still rolling down her cheeks. I went to wipe them away and she flinched. I look at her questionably. She just shook her head, so I wiped away her tears, but slowly so I don’t scare her. I look out the window and I say

"Wow it got dark fast."

Her face goes white and her eyes widen.

"What time in it?"-Brier

I pull out my phone and say "Umm… 7:45."

"Oh my God! Can you take me home?"-She’s still white

"Yeah sure."

Chapter 5: Brier's P.O.V.- Dead Meat

 

Chapter 5 Briers P.O.V.: Dead Meat

Oh my God! I can’t believe I didn’t go home and clean before April got home. She is gonna be pissed. The car ride home was quite. I guess he was giving me time to think. I tell him bye and sorry I had to leave like that. I hate that his house is so big and mine is so small. I feel really poor now. Our house is a light blue color. With flowers and plants around the front door. If you didn’t know what goes on inside it would look like a happy little family lives here. Too bad that’s not true. I walk in and April is watching TV. When she sees me she gives me a dirty look.

"Why isn’t the kitchen and living room clean? And why are you home so late?"-She says with so much hate that I can’t look at her.

"We had to work late. We had a really big shipment and I had to help unload it."- I say still not making eye contact.

"Where is Alec?"- Still with hate and maybe even a little disgust

"He is still at work. They need him to pick up the heavy things."-I walk to clean the kitchen

I was just finishing the dishes when I dropped a glass cup and it shattered. Oh God no. Why now? Alec isn’t here to protect me. I bend down to pick it up right when she runs in.

"What did you do?!"-She is really close

"I dropped it. It had soap on it, I didn’t mean to, I’m sorry mom."-I say nervously

"You haven’t seen sorry yet. All you do is go around and ruin everything. You’re a worthless, ugly slut. That is all you’ll ever be."-She is getting closer and she squeezes her hands to fists.

"Why can’t you do anything right! You’re so stupid and pathetic! I can’t believe I have a fuck up as a daughter!"-She says full of hate

Tears start to roll down my cheeks.

"Oh, are you gonna cry now! Is poor baby Brier gonna cry! God grow up! Maybe if Alec wouldn’t baby you, you’d be stronger! You’re so weak! I’m gonna teach you a lesson, since Alec won’t!"- She starts to come towards me

I jump up and run to my room and lock the door. Right when I shut the door a cup smashes against it. She runs up to the door and shakes the handle and pounds on the door.

"Let me in right this minute Brier Rose!"-She continues to beat on the door.

I Lay on my bed and start to cry. A couple minutes later she is still pounding on the door when Alec walks in. I hear them arguing.

"Are you fucking kidding me!"-Alec screams at her

"Shut up Alec! Brier open this door and let me in now!"-April

"Leave her alone!"-Alec screams

"Put me down Alec! Right now! I swear to Go-"

"What are you gonna do, try to beat me too?"-Alec yells

I hear a thud and a door slam shut. I guess he threw her in her room. I’m surprised she stays in there. I hear a knock on my door.

"It’s okay Brier. You can come out."- Alec

I open the door and let him in.

"Grab some cloths for tonight and tomorrow. You can stay in my room with me. Do you need to take a shower?"

"Yeah. Thanks bubba."-I smile weakly at him.

He walks over and gives me a quick hug. He walks me to the bathroom.

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