Erasing The Unwanted, Sydnie Short [cheapest way to read ebooks txt] 📗

to believe you but I” I paused looking at the ground.” I can’t trust anymore.”

“But I”

“No, where over!” I yelled at her with a lot of asperity in my voice. I got a small glimpse of her marvelous body and walked away.

She’s just like Rebecca.

 

It’s been a week since I ended things with Ginger. If it was for the best, why does it hurt so much? I miss her presence with me. I miss her striking smile. I yearn to go back to her and hug her firmly. So she will know I’m sorry but I can’t. Honestly I’ve been a wreck. Sighing I stood up and stride heading for the exit.

“Ow!” Someone hollered from in front of me. I glimpsed down and see that I stepped on someone’s foot.

“Oh my, I’m so sorry” I apologetically said to them.

“It’s okay but watch it next time, baby face.” A high famine voice said while hitting my arm playfully. The name was a pet name one of my ex’s called me. I examined the girl and then I knew who it was.

“Rebecca?” I asked insurable.

“Dakota?” She asked with both her hands on her hip. This is the same Rebecca that broke my heart. The same black hair that I used to stroke my hands in, the same green eyes that stared at me with love and care. She hasn’t changed a bit.

“I haven’t seen you since the last time I seen you.” I said enthusiastically while I scratched my arm.

“I know right. We should catch up baby face.”

“We could right now. I’m not busy or anything.” I really wasn’t. I haven’t gone to any parties or extra curriculum activates lately. 

“Um, sure.”

“Let’s go to mine, so I can beat you at Mario cart!” She wasn’t very good at video games and that was my advantage over her.

“Okay” She agreed happily while grabbing my arm.

 

“Oh no, transformers are way better than vampires.” I disagreed while shaking my head. She laughed at me rolling her eyes.

“Whatever” The she tripped on her shoelace. I burst out laughing until tear started rolling out of my eyes. We were two houses away from my house but we didn’t even become aware of it because we were giggling like maniacs.

I catch a glimpse of a teenager girl standing at my doorstep nervously. Her brown hair and breath taking figure screamed Ginger. Rebecca and I were laughing contagiously while my eyes where glued to Ginger.  She looked irritated probably from our laughter. I should go over to her now. Before I even had the chance to do so, Rebecca placed her lips on mine. My body strangely responded to her action by kissing her back. I don’t know what came over me but all I know that the kiss is nothing like how it was with Ginger.

There was a loud stomping from the steps and suddenly Ginger sprinted through us. She was crying and sniffling. Had I hurt her? An envelope dropped from her hands, as she was running back to her car. I picked it up immediately and noticed it was addressed to me.

“I’m sorry Rebecca I have to go. Nice meeting up with you.” Without delay, I dash away to my front door. I didn’t even give her time to respond. I quickly opened the door using my emergency key under the mat and lung to my room. Should I read it? No she’s the one who hurt you, don’t give into her. I dumped the letter in my trashcan and slammed my body onto my bed.

 

Later that night I found it hard to sleep, so I’m taking a walk to cool off. All I could dream about was what was in that letter. Every time I blinked I saw Ginger. I’m pretty sure this isn’t healthy. What is she doing to me?

I’ve been walking around Connecticut for about two hours now. I’ve taking so many turns that I don’t even know where I am. Taking one more turn won’t hurt. I took a right turn, which led me to an abandon cemetery.

There was a bright light and some chatter coming from the back of me. It was a group of people having a bond fire. I hope they don’t mind me asking for directions.

“Excuse Me,” I inaudibly said but no one gave me the time of day. I fixed my shirt and decided to try again. “Excuse Me.” I said with my voice more firm and louder than before. Now I got their attention.

“Do you know where I am?” I asked standing tall. They all look to be teenagers. I gaze around and look at the collection of kids laughing.

“You ain’t from here are you?” A guy in a sleeveless t-shirt with his short blonde hair flowing through the gushes of wind asked. Oh really, how’d you know. I thought sarcastically.

“No I’m not” He looked me up and down then popped a pill in his mouth.

“You want some?” He offered holding the bottle of drugs in front of him.

“No thanks” I declined coolly. I put my thumbs in my front pockets while the wind roughly blew past me. I don’t think Ginger will like the idea of me taking drugs. Why am I thinking about Ginger? I am a single guy. I can do whatever I feel like.

“Oh come on its free” I don’t think it’s a very good idea. “Are you speaking your thoughts out loud?” I think I picked up some of Ginger’s habits. I have to stop think about Ginger and the empty void I’m left with. I hate how she’s in my heart but not with me. All she ever does is cause me pain.

“Sure why not” I find myself accepting his offer. I hesitantly grabbed the bottle out of his hand. I slowly opened unsurely and put five in my mouth.

“Whoa, take it easy there kid” Someone shouted from the back but I was to distracted to see who.

I took an empty spot on the wooden log. I gently shut my eyes waiting for it to kick it.  I opened my eyes when I started to get scatterbrained. I see five donkeys and they seem to be having a good time.

“It looks like it kicked it.” One of them said to the other. I started to laugh uncontrollably. I couldn’t feel the sadness or pain that I felt before.  The world is so peaceful and happy. A smile crept on my face and the utmost part, is that I’m taking pleasure in every second of this.

 

Two weeks has gone by since my encounter with Ginger and my first drug use. I’ve been taking the drugs on a daily bases, attempting to escape reality. I have to say, it helps a lot. It may fade away but it kills time. Everyday I’ve been skipping school just to hang out with my new friends from the cemetery. Michael the guy who gave me the drugs, is the leader of the group. Kaley is groups’ bad girl and has a big crush a crush on Michael. Anyone can tell even Mark. I noticed on my second day there. Then there’s Lucy. I could see myself falling in love with her if my heart wasn’t elsewhere.

I’m on my way to go meet Michael so we could make a deal. I rush into my room for the bottle of pills Lucy gave me. I have to have them for the meeting today. The only problem is that I can’t find them. I dart over to my trash pin and rummage around in it. It wasn’t in there but a white envelope caught my eye. I picked it up and remembered it’s from Ginger. Since I’m never going to see her again, I might as well read it.

Dear Dakota,

       I’m probably the last person you want to see or talk to right now. Just hear me out or read me out. Ha, get it? Oh never mind it was supposed to be a funny. All jokes aside, I knew you were different the minuet I bumped into you at the pizza place. I don’t think it was right for you to yell at me with out letting me explain things clearly. I know I should’ve revealed myself sooner but I was scared you’d hurt me. I’ve dated my share of guys and I always end up hurt.  You saw through my disguise so I thought it didn’t matter how I looked to you. Then, I started to feel like I didn’t deserve a sweet and amazing guy like you. The day you scrambled off, I was going to confess but you went Godzilla on me. I’m trying to forget you but I can’t because I think I love you.

From me and only me

Gingy <3            

I made a small chuckle after I finished reading it. I deem to be a big jerk to her. I wish I’d let her finish or at least understood her. Instead I let someone special go. I have to do what a movie character would do in this situation, win her back. I have to get her back, even if I get hurt in the process.  Grabbing my keys, I got in my car preparing for a trip to Massachusetts. Michael would be fine with me not showing up for one day.

 

I’m planning on astonishing Ginger with my presence. I don’t even care if its midnight, my heart desires to see her. I stare up at the moon and smile. The moon is my favorite on this planet other than Ginger. It’s absolutely mind blowing. “So we meet again moon” I greeted the moon. I heard a thud and yelp. Have I bumped into someone again? I glance down at the poor victim and it happened to be Ginger. She was gawking at me with her jaw to the ground. She was practically drooling over me. I held my hand out for her to grab anticipating for the jolt of electricity that would scurry cheerfully up my arm.

She hesitantly grabbed it and lifts herself off the ground. Her touch made my body slightly scream from enchantment.

“Hi” I began the conversation.

“Hi” she responded fidgeting with her fingers.

“So how are you” I asked biting my lip.

“Um, good.” Other than the fact that I still have feeling for you and I hate my life. She doesn’t release she just said that out loud. 

“That’s good. I’m good thanks for asking.” I heard make a soft chuckle at my sarcastic remark.

I know she wants me so she isn’t going to resist me. I step closer to her but she moved back. That didn’t stop me from moving closer. I was inches away from her. She pushed my chest but I grabbed her wrist gently. She to get free but failed tremendously. I lent my down head to hers and did what I needed to do.

I kissed her.

She kissed me back with so much passion. She can’t deny that she likes me after this. All of our emotions and love is shared through to this one kiss. She pulled away and my lips feel empty and numb without her touch.

“Stop just Stop!” She shouted grabbing her hair in anger. Why is she so upset? “I have a boyfriend already!” A frown stretched across my face. She has moved on already. She’s hurting me again. I’m craving a pill right now. She has no idea how much that hurt me.

“By the looks of what happened it didn’t look like you had a boyfriend.” I finally said trying to calm myself from my urges.

“Look you had me and you lost me. Besides, I don’t feel anything for you.” What a lie!

“Stop lying to me!” I grabbed her me by the waist and pulled her closer. I could smell her shower fresh scent on her. It was delightful.

“I got to go.” She said releasing myself from my grip. I watched her walk away when it came to me; I drove a three-hour drive for her. I grabbed her by