Heartless This HATE, Amber [book series for 12 year olds txt] 📗

FELL INLOVE WITH. I COULD CHANGE THAT.


An email guy. I smile. I shake my head in disbelief as I write back,

TO JOHNNY
FRM. BRANDY

YOU SOUND POETIC. THE BOY I THOUGHT I LOVED DUMPED ME AND STEPPED ON ME, FOR A GIRL HE JUST MET. I'M SORRY, JOHNNY, GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE.


I hit send and grab my things. When I'm about to leave, I hear my computer ring. I hurridly sign in and look at the new message-


FROM. JOHNNY

WE ALL NEED A SECOND CHANCE. HERE IS A THOUGHT, CALL ME. OR I'LL CALL YOU, I COULD REALLY CARE LESS OF EITHER WAY. JUST A WARNING, I WONT SOUND AS...NICE AS I DO ON EMAIL. I'M NOT A NICE PERSON.


attached to it was his phone number. I write it on my hand and head out. I get my phone out and stare at it. I get in my car and dial the number. afew rings and I hear his voice. I just sit there a second then answer him. "oh, sorry. Hi." I say. I hear his faint laugh. "Hi." he says. Awkward....


(Eli)

Cassie bites my lip and i return the favor. "Your so pretty." I murmur in her ear. She smiles. "Your really beautiful." She replies. I kiss her nose and go into class. the class with Juno. I sit down and shes not there. She is missing school becuase of me? Oh, great. I start to feel bad until she backs through the door with Johnny. He is pretty close. I look away.


(Juno)
he is such a coward. Doesn't even bother to look at me. He is the one who told me to get lost. He is the one who told me he wanted Cassie. I stop myself. Your the one who let him leave. I tap my pencil furiously. Jerk. I let myself love him. Now he can change my mood in a milasecond.

He looks over at me, and my old self doesn't hold back. I flip him off. I may be mature in my dreams. Have more control over my emotions, but not now. It was just a kiss. Then why am I wanting to die everytime I see him?

I look over at Johnny and he is staring out the window. I really just want to be friends. He is not getting that. So not getting that. I'm going crazy. yeah. good excuse. I look over at Eli. He is still staring at me. I'm going to kill him.

If I can't actually put a blade in his dirty cold skin, I will be able to hurt him. I hope. I mean, His blood is twenty-one degrees below zero. I put a smile on my face. here I come, sweet, sweet revenge.


(Eli)

She's got this smile on her face. It's not a sad one. Not a happy one. It's full of pure Hate. I would know, I've seen it before. She must think I'm heartless. so heartless. Maybe I am. I just can't comprehend her and I. I was scared when she kissed me. Maybe I was scared of love. But who cares? I can't care. I wont care. She is back to hating me. But she is still in my dreams. I let out a sigh and the teacher gives me a weird look.


(Brandy)

I don't like you Johnny. I really, really don't. This is going by too fast. I still love this stupid boy. Please, leave me alone. I curse myself for writing back, for calling him. Another text message.

DINNER?


MOVIE?


I throw my phon across the room and fall on my bed. My phone rings again, but I hurridly get up and read Eli's text.

I'M SORRY


FOR WHAT?


YOU KNOW WHAT.


WISH I DIDN'T


ME EITHER.


I WISH I DIDN'T FEEL REGRET FOR KISSING YOU.


I DON'T FEEL REGRET FOR THAT. IT WAS A GOOD MOMENT.


YEAH. I HATE YOU EVEN MORE. =]


EASIER, RIGHT?


GUESS SO. THANKS.


UR WELCOME. LISTEN, JOHNNY ISN'T TOO BAD, IS HE?


NOT REALLY. CAN'T TAKE A HINT.


NO ONE CAN.


MEANING ME? i GOT THE HINT, TOOK IT. eLI, i'M TRYING MY BEST TO GET AWAY FROM YOU.


THATS NOT WHAT I MEANT.


WHAT DO YO MEAN? WHAT DID THAT KISS MEAN?


I DON'T WANT TO KNOW.


I DO. I STILL FUKKING LOVE YOU, ASS.


THATS NEVER GOOD.


NO, ITS NOT. IT REALLY ISN'T GOOD WHEN THEIR STUCK IN YOUR HEAD.


I'M SORRY.


STOP LYING.


I'M NOT.


YOU DON'T MEAN IT. SAVE YOUR BREATH FOR CASSIE.


I MIGHT.


WHY ARE YOU SO UNSURE?


BECUZ. I THINK I LOVE YOU BACK.


GREAT. THIS IS SO FUKING GENIUS.


I HAVEN'T HAD A GIRL TELL ME SHE LOVES ME ON A TEXT, AND MEAN IT.


I HAVEN'T HAD A BOY TELL ME HE LOVES ME. EXCEPT A STALKER IN 5TH GRADE.


YOUR HARD NOT TO LOVE, JUNO.


SAME TO YOU, eLI.


HOW CAN TEXTING HAVE SO MUCH EMOTION?


DONT ASK ME.


WHY DO YOU LOVE ME?


I'M NOT GOING TO SAY, THE WAY YOUR EYES LIGHT UP OR ANYTHING. I DON'T HAVE A REASON. I DON'T KNOW, ELI.


THATS BEAUTIFUL. SAME HERE.


UNLIKE YOU. =]


I KNOW 1 RESON I LOVE YOU.


OH, GOD.


YOU ALWAYS KNOW WHAT TO SAY.


THATS GOOD.


YOU ALWAYS KNOW WHAT TO DO!


YOU GOT THAT FROM A SONG.


ITS THE WAY YOU DO THE THINGS YOU DO TO MAKE ME FALL INLOVE WITH YOU.


OH GREAT. GO ON. I'M LISTENING TO THE SONG ON MY IPOD RIGHT NOW.


JUNO, I KNOW OUR LOVE IS NEW. I BARELY KNOW YA.


NO. STOP NOW. COPYRIGHT.


I'LL SHOW YA.


I'D RATHER NOT.


JUNO, C'MON. I'LL START OUTSIDE YOUR WINDOW.


PLEASE NO.


I'M COMING.


IF YOU DO, I WIL THROUGH SOMETHING AT YOU.


somethig hits my window. I run to it and open it. I stick my head out. Eli is standing there.

"F*ck letters." He says. Then he adds,

"F*uck words!"

I laugh.

"I'll sing, if you don't come down here."

"No."

"Fine. You asked for it Juno."

"Don't be a creep, Eli."

"Too late!" I see his breath in the cold air. He undoes his coat and throws it on the ground. "My blood is already below freezing. It's getting colder, but all I need is you, to warm myself up."

I laugh. "You got that from a movie." I say. "Are you in love with me, too?" He asks. I roll my eyes.

"Yeah." I finally say.

"I'm not leaving until you come down here and give me a kiss." He says. I laugh. He takes his shirt off. "Holy shit. This is so cold. Damn!" He says. "Put your shirt on." I say. He shakes his head.


(Eli)

I'm standing here, in the cold, proving to her, and myself, I love her.

"This sucks, I only got to love you for a few hours." She says. I smile. "Too bad, huh? Get your ass down here." I say. "Maybe if you wait long enough, you'll die of frostbite." She says. I laugh. "Maybe I wont." She rolls her eyes. "Goodbye, ELi." She shuts her window. My heart breaks. UH. In the movies it worked. Then I hear her foot steps and shes in her bra, hugging me. "I ditched my shirt too." She says. I hug her tight. We laugh. I go to grab my coat but she stops me and kisses me.

"I'm really warm now." I say. She hits me on my back. I give her my coat. I wear my shirt as we walk hand in hand.


(Brandy)
He is holding my hand. and this couldn't be better. I'm glad to say, this isn't a dream. I kiss his cheek. "I love you, Eli." I say. He looks at me. "Really? I Thought the whole act of coming out here in your bra was of pure hate." I giggle and he kisses me back.


"At least you didn't write me a stupid love letter." I say. He laughs. "I stayed up all night writing that stupid love letter for you, actually." He says. I look at him again. "Can I see it?" I ask. He shakes his hea before kissing me and saying, "never, not even in your dreams." "We'll, see." I say.


Eli & Juno's infinite playlist- (haha)

{Motion city soundtrack}- "I fell inlove with out you" "Feels like rain" "L.G. FAUD" "Everything is alright" "My favorite accident" "Hold me down" "Hysteria"


{Sick of Sarah} "Bittersweet"


{Gym Class Heros} "Live a little"


{Florence + the machine} "Dog days are over"


{Paramore} "Exception" "Brick by boring brick" "playing god"

{A rocket to the moon} "like we use to" "Dakota"

{Escape the fate} "You are so Beautiful" "Situations" "Flood" "Not good enough for truth and clique"

{Ida Maria} "Oh my god"

{The friday night boys} "Stupid love letter"

*May be others that can't be remembered.


Heartless This HATE

By: Amber


Imprint

Text: dreamt by me && wrote by me.
Publication Date: 12-12-2010

All Rights Reserved

Dedication:
To the boy who messed up my hate (You idiot!!(I love you)) The blood in your viens were almost as cold has your heart.