dont count me out yet, deson porter [books to get back into reading .TXT] 📗

husband that will love her hold make her feal like a woman

treat her with respect that I can do but there are a lot of ladies who want a bad boy want to be

very mean to her yet still be in a relationship well sorry I will not change my kind hearted ways

no you need a husband who is passion et that is me deacaded loveing careing loyal want to be by
your side can be booth a lover and a friend at the same time yes my princesses I can and will do

that and more! a vote for me as your husband will mean a lifetime of happeness when a porter is
married he stay married this have been my motto even when I decided to run for the office of

your husband looking for someone good to look at I am here looking for someone who will

entertain you I am here looking for sweet nothings in your ear then yes my dear I am here! then

vote for me first as you boyfriend then vote for me as your husband for together we will last a

long time together we will make dreams come true together we will be happy!


song


our wedding day this was the first song I ever wrote

1 v
time after time you've proved to me that you are more then just a friend I need you now like I need you then you can

be sure I'll always be there. my fantisee is that will grow old together now and forever till death do us part I can not

stay away from this special love I'll give my very life for your love


chorus


what will be so special to us our special place our wedding day our joy will be delight full our special time our wedding
day.


2v


as soon as we say I do our lives will never end stay with me it will be paridice we'll be shareing good times again my

fantisee is that we'll live happly ever after like fairy tale endings that may come true I want to enjoy my life with you

now and forever till death do us part


repeat chorus

I want to enjoy my life with you now and forever till death do us part.

written 1995 when I was still in high school.everyone like it when I sing the song.


time steelers and dream killers


If I was you I would gard my time couse I am learning the hard way no one except your friends cares about your time

excample if you are running late for work and get in trouble then be your own boss and work for yourself wile helping

others even if you have your own office and you are late getting there you will not get reprimand and then it will be

called a beheavyore problem becouase you are the boss and you will have all the time in the day.

If your own family is not encouraging you to get married or going for your own dreams then find good friends that will

route for you all the way no one have ever made it by them self in life. do not let the nay sayers in your life kill your

magic even if it is your parents like it was mine. my own mother said that I would never get married or go to college

but 99.9% of the time you have to prove them wrong you go for you dreams in life and never count yourself out of

anything never count yourself out of livening the life that you want.


If we get hurt get back up and try again and again. and you still will win all the time.


If God tell you to write something he is using you for his glory let him use you sing acting dancing let God call you and

do exciting things.

Do something good for somebody else and it will make you feel better you never know who you entertain you could be

helping an angel.

I helped out a lady who wanted a place to stay overnight till she got back to her shelter and I would do it again in a

heartbeat! rember beatuy and the beast?


chapter 2

the not so good life.


you did not graduate high school and said that I am going to be homeless or lonely or

almost died in a hospital and no one came to see you but it happened and it happen to

me you see like everyone else I wanted the good life a home or apartment good job

graduate from college a wife kids and be self employed and help people but I went

through a lot just to even get this far as even writing this book for the single ladies and

to inspire other people to reach for there dreams Well as I said before I do not like talking

about the bad things in my life so you will not see dates in this book but it happen to me. I was

homeless when I moved out from a very bad naborhood in Newark NJ it was not safe to go out

at night. but at that time I did go to church so I hade to go into my apartment right away people

will break into your room and steal your things when I went to my first shelter I was not feeling

well there was to many rules like it was a prison instead of a shelter one was you hade to be in by

8pm or be locked out now there was some people who worked late and next thing they knew

they hade no place to stay! I even went to a shelter on a bad street to cross for I am vusuly

impaired then I had to get shots in order to stay there! I said no way! that was how I got sick

really bad I was staying at a big room but with a lot of people and got phonia from them for one

of the rules is you must leave the shelter so early in the morning before 8am! so I would go to

Penn station in Newark just so I can stay inside but one day in October I had went to the

hospital and the next thing that I knew I was admitted for I was very sick so sick that all of the

nurses and any visitors that I had have to wear mask so that they would not get sick eather! wile
I was in the ER even before they admitted me they took my blood and the way that they did it

hurt so badly that wile I was in there I refused to let them take any more blood from me unless I

could not feel them taking it. only one time I let them take my blood and I could not feel it but

every other day I said oh hell no!! I have no wife no one by my side! anyway one day I felt as if I
was going away like I almost died and that is when God told me that it was not time for me to

go back home yet I hade way too much work for you to do and it is not finish yet. so then I came

back and was still in the hospital but then I almost bleed to death one of the nurse hade put on

my IV on wrong!! and I did not know I was bleeding badly. so I guess you can say that I almost

died twice in one week at a hospital thank god someone saw that and my IV was fixed in a hurry

or there would not even be a book out. hell! I would not have gone for all of my dreams . I hated

being poor homeless who ever said money do not buy you happiness was never homeless or

poor you could not live in a nicer place and I wanted to start to stay in a hotel but all of the

hotels was expensive and I could only stay for a day or two then I was back on the streets! I did

stay at one hotel in douwntoun Newark it was near city hall but they wanted too much rent

$600 a month ! and the bathrooms was douwn the hallway no kitchen! I hade to buy my own

food then other nights hade to go hungry for the food pantry all they hade was canned food and

how can I eat if there was no kitchen to make the food? I tell you thank God for my best friend

Tyrone at times he was a life saver!! no telling how I would have made it through but God have

sent me very very good people to keep me from dieing in this mean world then I hade to go back
to the bad shelters for I was getting ready to move to Boston by that time my fave radio show

was forced off the air then only other show that I like was mike basidean I was even tunning into
the show when I was forced to panhandle for money for food and a way back to NJ see I hade to

go all the way to NYC to do that I was on 7th ave and eather 33rd or 32 and sometimes on 8th

ave just to get money for food and carfare to get to and from NYC there are people who do not

believe that people are realy homeless and that do need the money to buy food I was even asked

am I going to buy drugs with the money I said no I am going to buy food and carfare back to NJ
it did not feel good to beg for money but if all the money went for rent for a room then what else

left to do? there was sometimes that I was not able to get back to NJ and hade to stay on the

streets in NYC. it was not good there was one shelter there where it was on a island and one rule
was there was no hugging people allowed there I said goodbye! then took the next bus back to

Manhattan I did not want to stay there anymore. as I stayed in my