The Truth Hurts, shanta bernard [book club recommendations txt] 📗

Ok I may sound messed up to yall yeah I do chanel messed up I think about all the wrong doing I have done to her but she have done something to me that I just could not let go. Better yet it wasnt like I couldnt let it go I could't forget and yeah she said it was a mistake and yea I told her that we was good but at the end of the day see what yall female dont get is a woman reguardless if she is ugly or not she don't need to work hard for a nigga she can look like SHIT its gonna be some nigga out there that is going to wife her up tear that shit down all day.

Now with a man we gotta work...lie to these bitches make them seem as if they the number one and only in your heart if not you not getting nothing so Chanel when we first met I had to work hard as a bitch for her and she made me wait months for some pussy. Man she was bad I remember when I first saw her I worked at international bank on Main ST and she came in with her stone washed jeans on with her fly ass mui mui shoes on in red and black and her red and black prada bag and her red valentino shirt with red lip stick to match her hair blown down and yes it was real. When I mean I remember this day I remembered this day to the T when I saw her she was like looking at an angel the fell from the sky...she was thick in all the right places she was 34,24,38 man I never seen nothing like this chick she didnt have on no makeup at all. She was beauitful inside and out just lip stick to make them full lips shine.so she comes up to me and wants to take money out of her account I'm just stunned when she talks she is humble not rachet like them bitches im used to. we exhchanged numbers for the next couple of weeks all we did was talk on the phone all day and night when she wasnt at work.

 We learned so much about each other i found out that she was a lawyer and worked at one of the most top law firms for the city and she does not go out like tha,t she has no kids, shes been single for five years since her last man left her all she worried about was working an trying to own her own law firm one day she did it so much that she secluded herself from going out enjoying herself and the finding love. When i found all this out about her i was kiind of ashamed being that i was a NIGGA that lived in the hood worked at a bank so i can put the money away i was getting in the streets, that was my cover up it was a good job but it was nothing like the money i was getting from hustling i didnt know how to break my life down to this woman whether if she was going to accept me for me or if she was going to just throw me back where she found me at. I decided to take it slow learn more about her before i could bring the real me into this relationship.

The first date we go out to one of the famous restarants there is you know a nigga trying show you not the only one with money. I take her to chops lobster bar being earlier in the week while we was talking that she said she loves seafood we order and get drinks and talked about the past and the future what we like about each other. She tells me the horrible growing up she had without her mom and her dad was a hustler from the same hood i get money in. How he loved her so much she lived so i 'LAVISH' life when she was younger he gave her anything and everything that she ever wanted until that day came he was taken from her.  He was killed in the street shot in the head, when you getting it hard out here envy is going to be on everyones mind and you can get laid out and thats what happened. When they finally caught the dude that killed her dad he wasnt served with anytime cause he claimed it was a self defense plus he had so much stuff on people in the hood that they cut the nigga a deal. From that day on she knew she couldnt let stuff like this happen to our black community it dont matter if he was the biggest drug dealer in the world she felt like no one has the right to take someone life thats up to the system to decide. while she was speaking to me i knew she was the one that i wanted to share the rest of my life with. Yeah she was sexy as hell and yes i wanted to tear her down but it wasnt about the sex at this time it was about me learning her in the inside.

While im getting to know her we chilling almost everyday we have off but when we finally made love it was like heaven her ass was round perfect u sweeze it it was like pillow in her hand her pussy was so when and smelled like flowers as i licked her clit from top to ass back i lover evey moment of it her titties was so round and perfect they was like a 36 c cup and she rode me all night and it was like some white people shit i seen on tv how she moaned and the first time i made love to a bitch. For months eveything with chanel was going well i eventaully told her about my life and how i was a drug dealer and she respected it she just stayed a distance from my part of town cause of her reputation i had the best of both worlds i have my classy lady that was down and loved me more than life itself cause i was all she had and she was all i had. I eventaully let her meet my sister and my mom they fell in love with her instantly and i was in love. One year past i stopped going out hustling had my man rob hold down the fort cut him a percentage and just worked at the bank full time now we moved in together and i was ready to buy her that perfect ring that she had showed me in the store. Yea it was 15k but you know what nothing was too expensive for chanel money didnt buy this relationship cause she had her own and i save so that i had my own also so we didnt have any issue on that side.

For days chanel was working late for about a month she was working on this big "CASE" a woman was killed by the poilce by accident when they was trying to catch a man  running when he was on the corner selling drugs. They was chasing him and simone the woman that was killed was in her early twenties and just had a baby and brought her first house with her newlywed husband she was coming out of the grocery store and she sees this young man running right past her. He throws something on the floor and the cop shoots thinking he is pulling out a gun instead of him hitting the man the young woman got shot in the chest and dies 3 days later. So chanel have been working with her husband to try to get justice for his wife. Day and Days she is in the office til 3 am some days than some days i dont even see her ass at all, only she comes and changes and go back to work me being who i am and knowing that we had the best relationship i didnt think nothing of it until the trial was over but she is still missing for some reason our relationship was on the fence she were arguing non stop she doesnt communicate with me anymore i feel like she sheltered me out of her life and im sitting here thinking what the hell did i do to her. I loved her more than life itself and i was confused i stopped a lot of my shit and made too many sacrafices for this chick.

So i decided that i wanted to take her back to the place that we first fell in love at. while were sitting there it was quiet dead slience most weirdest feeling that i felt with her. I felt like i was sitting with a stranger. While she was eating her food im asking her how her day is going and she is giving me short answer no type of conversation where sipping our wine she is looking at the time like she has somewhere to be. See i am a very observant man and this shit is not right but you know what whatever it is will come to light either way. I sitting here asking her whats going on why have she been acting distance from me so we can just get straight to the point. But as usual bitches be lying nothing wrong im good just a lil tired thats all with this fake ass smile on her face. As im looking at her facial expression i already knew she was lyin. So i went off why the fuck is you lying for bitch for the five months you been acting wild stupid crazy and while im going off it hurts me cause i never seen myself acting this way towards her she was my heart. But i had to unless she wouldnt of never said anything to me. Her jaws dropped she never expected for me to go off and i kept on going. Letting her know how i have been watching her ass go in and out of the house hardly come in dont say nothing working late all fucking night and than she just broke out in tears and told me everything and my heart fell to the floor i sound like a bitch for saying this but yes she fucked me all up.

But yea she been fuckling with this nigga for almost 3 months just chilling . After all that we've been threw and having such a good time all she can do is look me in my face and cry saying she so sorry she didn't mean for this to happen i just looked at her with hate this was the most hate that i felt in a long time for a bitch.I took that ring i purchased from the store and fucking threw it at her and told her thanks very much for fucking my life up not for just you but for every bitch that comes in my life in the future, it dont matter if i treat you like a queen or like shit which i should of but i thought i had something different and you know what i didn't you just another thottie ass bitch that live in the suburbs and drive a fly ass car and got hella dough you not better than no one bitch fuck you suck my dick and never call me