The Truth Hurts, shanta bernard [book club recommendations txt] 📗

While I sit here and think of all the bullshit that I've been threw with this man, He cheated mentally abused me maybe physically but not that  much and I stood by his side 100% ride or die and he is having a baby with someone else after he KNOWS that I cant have any kids. I dont know how to feel about the situation I am numb as I look at the clothes I burned in the front yard......But you know what, I am better than that this I need to let him go 6 years of drama and its time for me to do me let loose imma hit my girls up and go out for some drinks before I do something that I would regret in the long run. As I sat here on the phone with keesha explaining once again how he fucked me over and why I can't forgive him like I said fifty million time before to her, and also forgave him. She has been my friend since 8th grade I'm 38 now so she know all the details and the tribulations that we've been threw...Kees girl he did it again this time i am threw girl you know  that chick that live on the eastside we saw him with a couple of months ago that he said that was his 'HOMEGIRL" from school why she pregnant....."OMG" keesha said,  he crossed the line this time I understand that sometimes you think you should stick in there with him and lord knows chanel you've been there I have been that shoulder you cried on and he have the nerve to get the chick pregnant THIS NEEDS TO STOP imma need you to let his ass go. Than its his falut why you can't conceive if he wouldn't pushed you down the stairs a couple of years ago than you could of had a baby already.  Keesha started to cry.... I watch him destroy your life chanel and never said anything your too beautiful inside and out for him to be doing you like this Chanel. Keesha I know... when I said im done im done for real this time it is time for me to move on you know how many niggas holla  at me that have money cars which life is not about all of that but he dont have half of that. While I'm talking to keesha my heart just hurts its pounding im getting all kinds of flash backs, Keesha seriously I dont even wanna discuss it anymore i just wanna go to the mall shop for something to wear so we can go out tonite girl out with the old in with the new.

2 Years Ago
Where are you going, why everytime your friends calll you your up and running like you dont live with me and you dont have a relationship you was just out there five damn mintues ago when am I going to be able to spend some time with you. Glen I cannot be in this relationship with you and we dont spend no time together you run the streets all god damn day when I come home from work your not here I call you nonstop and you dont answer see you the next GOD DAMMIT AFTERNOON saying "you was chilling with your friends  last night got to drunk and past out" like I never heard that before. I am tired you think I'm fucking playing you can go, we've been together for four years already and it has been rocky you can get out I take care of my bills on my own i dont need you here..... Bitch shut the fuck up first off I dont be running the fucking streets I be taking care of business trying to hustle and keep money in both of our pockets you think I like you working and taking care of the bills by yahself when I had a job and cant get back on my feet... NO thats why if I can get any kind of money I'm on it 24 hrs a day before I met you I was a hustler and working I changed I calmed down for a minute but guess what I need to make money. I see you everyday sometimes a nigga nuts need to breathe you never give me no space chanel everytime we talk you either talking about some shit that I did to you in the past or what the fuck I'm  doing to you now(GLEN GO INTO HER FACE) but the funny shit is u never speak about what you did to me like I forgot... bitch if you don't like it leave me the fuck alone when I leave and dont come back dont fucking call me looking for me. Than you are  annoying all you do is complain and than wanna know why I dont wanna spend no time with yah nagging ass....(CHANEL)you just gonna walk out on me like that huh like I dont mean nothing to you, (GLEN)yes I am I have shit to do like I said you popping all that shit like you so better than me HUH WELL YOU NOT you fucked up worst than I did and you will never leave me thats why you been here all this time while I fucked you over and you never left cause you know nobody want you so sit yah ass down and chill out while I go out and take care of this business oh and give me the keys yo yah car ..... and so i did and I watched him walk out of the house I cried all night and like usual he didnt come home damn.....

                                             GLEN

Whats good yea I'm outside come on. As he sits in the front of this yellow house a dark skinned woman thick in the waist with her pink skirt on and white halter top holding her fendi back her long jet black hair pulled back in a ponytail as she walk down he's looking at her like damn. She gets in the car, what the hell took you so long I called you over an hour ago and you now just coming glen looks at her. Tiffany you know I just can't come and hop to when you want you know I'm with Chanel that shit be a fight and a half to get out the damn house. You call me all day everyday for dumb shit you wanna go out to the store, or to eat to chill like I still gotta woman at home even tho she not my wife I've been with for six years and I still gotta answer for this shit. Do I look like I care about yah girl at home I told you I like attention when we first met if you wasnt with giving me that attention than you can keep it moving I'm way to fly and have too many niggas that wanna get with this so if you cant get on the back of that bus than leave it alone. I am not holding no gun to yah head telling you we need to be together or feel like imma kill myself if you leave me(smurking) that's what chanel is for.. the drama I dont do...... I cause it and keep it moving so we going out or not cause?  If not I'm dressed I can find someone else that wants to go out that is not complaining about there bitch at home. As I sat there jaw dropped wanting to slap the shit out of this bitch but I cant she too damn fine and that pussy be wet like a motherfucka when I'm tearing that shit down everyday. Ma let me explain something to you first off dont fucking talk to me like that and yes we going out an yea you did let me know that you needed attention but damn not this much you better be glad you fine with some good ass pussy cause if not girl I would of went off on yah ass like 15 minutes ago.

 Where you wanna go anywhere pick a place we can chill all night. Baby I wanna go to the bar on Cladon ST get me some wings and some drinks dance a lil bite with my daddy than come home and take care of that ass as she took her clean manicured nails and ran it from my ear lobe to the back of my neck sent chills down my spine. Aight ma we can do that. As we drove down Main st I had to stop and get me some dutches from the store so can i smoke me something before i get to the bar cause there's nothing like some drunk and high sex its not gonna take this bitch too many drinks before she fucked up so let me get myself prepared. Babe imma bout to run in this store real quick before we get there you want something from the store, yea imma go and get me something to snack on real fast didnt eat anything today and need to fill my stomach before i start to drink. So we gets out the car and my man chad n them on the strip getting that bread i slapped them up copped me another ounce of that loud while shorty was in the store im just asking my boys hows shit going in the hood. When she got out the store we went straight to the bar ready to turn up..... while were in there she dancing to lady saw "got yah man" she on her third drink i realize shorty dont got on no panties in the middle of the bars floor whinning singing the song ass just moving like some jello in a cup i wanna eat... damn as I am looking at her my dick is hard as i mothafucka i go walk up to her in the back and grab her small ass waist and put my dick print in the middle of her ass daddy ready to go we in the moddle of the floor just dancing and some bullshit just blew my high. This chick name keesha comes up to me "my girls bestfriend" all up in my shit like who is that where is chanel she asked me i told that bitch to mind her damn business, its all good glen cause imma tell chanel all thats going on. Tiffany ass turns around and tells her dont worry boo im just borrowing him she ll get him back after he eats my pussy tonight as soon i turn around keesha slaps the shit out of her and tiffany goes flying to the floor as soon as she goes running to jump on tiifany the bouncer is carrying her ass up outta here man i dont know what to do, imma have to go home and hear this shit from chanel  keesha gonna fuck everything up for me but right now i cant think about that i need to figure how tiffany gonna let me slide my dick in the wet pussy tonite before i go home and have to deal with before i go home and deal with this shit imma have to hear....sheesh