Awakend, Brooke .M. [best free ereader txt] 📗

Before She Came In With A Rather Sour Look on Her Pale Face. “You Are Pregnant My Dear, 6 Weeks Along To Be Exact” She Stuttered The Words Noticing My Pain. I Nodding In A Thanks And Walked Out. I Grabbed Codies And Hand. “What She Say?” He Asked. “Its Just The Stomach Flu She Said” I Stammered. “Okay”, He Kissed My Forehead. I Looked Back At The Pregnant Mothers In The Waiting Room. I would be Them In 8 Months, Big, In Pain, Soon Giving Birth. A Tear Ran Down My Cheek, I Quickly Wiped It Was So Codie Wouldn’t Notice And Forced A Smile For The Rest Of The Day. I Couldn’t Tell Him. I Thought For Sure Birth Control Was officiate But There’s Always That 2% Chance, Figures I’m The 2%. I Stumbled My Walk. Codie Found My Sudden Change In Emotion Worrying, So He Laid Me To Bed And Kissed Me Goodnight. If Only He Could Feel My Emotion, If Only He Could Hear My Thoughts. I Cried Myself Till I Was Dripping Wet. I Was Tired From All The Stress. I Decided I Would Tell Joey First. I Opened My Closed Eyes And Texted Joey Rather Quickly “Tomorrow, meet Me At The Tree House I The Woods Down The Street, Its Important Joe I’m Really Scared”. My Phone Started To Ring From Joey Calling. A Tear Fell On My Phone While I Rejected The Call. I Cried Myself To A Very Quick Sleep And Waited Till Morning. What Was I Going To Do? What If I Tell Codie And He Hates Me? I Have Never Been So Scared In My Life. When My Eyes Were Drifting Off I Dreamt The Same Nightmare Three Times, Each Time Waking Up In More Tears Then The One Before. What Was I Going To Do. I’m Not Totally Against Abortion, But I’m Not Sure I Want A Baby, Im 15! And Codie is 16. Im Really Scared and It Doesn’t Help Knowing Codie’s Mom Doesn’t Like Me Much. I Would Be Totally Alone If He Rejected Me On The Off Chance Anyway!. Thoughts Raced Through My Mind As I Got Only Few hours Of Sleep.

When I Awoke In The Morning I Had Almost Forgotten it Was Friday. Another Nightmare, Another Change, Another Death. For The First Time I Seen Myself Die. I Seen Myself Die and Codie Didn’t care. I Couldn’t Believe It, it Killed Me Inside. The Tears Flew Down My Cheeks, As I remembered My Nightmare. I Could Feel My Heart Pounding Like A Kick Drum, It Felt Like My Stomach Was Going To Come Out My Mouth. When I Caught My Breath, I Ran To The Bathroom Covering My Mouth feeling The Urge To Puke Up Everything I Ate The Night Before. I Felt My Hair Get Brushed Back, I Smiled A Quick Smile Still Feeling My Lungs burn, I Was Happy Codie Was Here For Me; But When I Turned There Was No-one There. There They Came. The tears Flowed Down My Face As I Thought, What if I Was Alone? What if I Was Rejected By Codie? I Paused And Began Puking Again. When I Was Finally Finished I Pulled Back My hair Into A Bun, Rinsed My Mouth And Went Into My Room. I Put on Some Tights, Short-Shorts Over Top, And A Tank Top. My Converse Were Knee High And A Head Band Rested Over My Messy Bun. I Walked Down To The Kitchen, But Took A Quick Turn When I Seen Codie. I Grabbed My Bag And Walked Down The Road To School. I Felt The Pain beneath My Chest, Feeling Dizzy. I Grabbed My Blade From My Bag And Slit It Across My Wrist 6 or 7 Times. I Collapsed On The Street Right There Crying The Every Ounce Of Water In My Body. The Birds Were Chirping, The Trees Were Rustling, And My Wrists were bleeding. I Sniffed And Took It In, Got Up And Walked Down The Street A bit More Till I Hit School. I Walked To The Doors And Rolled Down My Sleeves Hiding The Blood Dripping Down My Arm. I Wiped My Eyes And Walked Down The Hall. Codie Still Loved Me, I Still Loved Him More Than Anything In The Whole World, We Were Still Together, I Was Just To Scared of Loosing Him To Tell him Of Our baby. To Tell Him We Were Having A Baby. I Seen Him In the Halls That Day, In Class, At Lunch. I Avoided Him, I Seen How it Broke Him, How He Felt Guilty, But He Did Nothing Wrong. How He Felt It Was His Fault That He Did Something, But It Was Just Me. When It Was finally after school, I Walked Straight To The Woods, Straight To The Tree House And Waited For Joey. It Wasn’t Too Long After A Rustle In The Bushes, And then An Appearance From Him Startled Me. As He Climbed The Step He Sat Beside Me, And My Smudged Eyes Dripping And Intense Amount Of Water. With The Worried Look On His face, He Held Me Close. I thought… This Is the First person I Tell. I Held My Belly And Took In A Deep Breath, Holding It In I Spoke.
Time To Tell Everyone.

I Let out My Breath and Sat There as I Was Drenching Myself and Joey in My Black Colored tears. “Joey, I’m so…I’m So Scared” I Stuttered. He Looked Into My Eyes. Then Down At My Hand On My Belly. He Didn’t Catch On. “Tell me What’s Wrong, Please I Can’t Stand to see you like This” He Sheared A Tear. “I’m Pregnant” I Balled My Eyes. I Cracked, I Cracked Right In front Of Joey And Started To Die From Loss Of Body Water. His Eyes Lit Up In Shock. I Felt Sick To My Stomach, Like I Was Going To Throw Up. Non The Less, I Did. Puking Out The Corner, Joey Holding My Hair Out Of My Face. “Stop, I Don’t Want You To See Me Like This Stop” I Said Between Breaths. “I Don’t Care Allie, you’re my Best friend, Whether you Like It Or Not, When your Sick, And With Me, I’m The Night In Shining Amour” He Rested His Head On My Back. I Held On To the Ledge of the Tree house Window, And When I Re-gained My Insides, I Sat Back down Wiping My Mouth. Joey Looked At Me And Held My Wrist Flipping It Over. “You Can’t Do This Anymore, Your Having A Baby Right?” His Eyes Filled Up. “No Matter What, Im Here For You, Have You Told Codie yet?” He Paused As the Question Sunk Into My Brain. “No, I Haven’t Told Anyone, Just you, Is that Bad?” I Questioned My Approach On this Whole Baby Thing. Was I Doing The Right Thing By Telling Joey First? I Sat There And Let out A Sigh. I Was Relieved That Joey Didn’t Reject Me. I Told Him About What I Thought Codie Would Do… His Response? “Are You Fucking Crazy?, Codie Loves You more Than He Loves His Own Life, He Will Defiantly NOT Reject, Leave, Walk Away, or Run From you Allie, He Just Wont” He Almost Shouted. The Strengthening Of His Voice Scared Me, but I Knew He Was Right. I Didn’t see it Before, But I Should Have known Codie Loved Me, Codie Would Never Run. “I No, I’m Going To Tell Him Right Now” I Nodded. I Took out My Phone, Texted Codie and Told Him to Meet Me and Joey about 10 Minutes into the Woodland Woods. I Received A Text Not Even A Millisecond After I Sent Mine Saying “Ill Be There In Five!” I Could Tell My How Fast It Came, And The ‘!” That he Thought I Was In Danger. It Was About Time I Told Everyone, About Time I Told Everyone… The Truth. When Codie Rushed Between The Trees, I Seen Him In The Distance. He Climbed the Stairs And Kissed Me With Intense Passion. His Cold Lips Pressed Mine As He Wrapped Him Arms Around My Neck Holding Me And Kneeling Beside Me. “what’s Wrong? You Avoided Me Today, Why? Is Everything Okay? Why Do I Smell Puke? Did you Get Sick Again? Babe Tell me What’s Wrong!” He Got Louder. I Could tell He Was Worried For Me. All His Questions. “Codie, I’m Pregnant, Sorry For Avoiding You, Everything Is Not okay, I Did Get Sick Again, And Im Just Really Scared!” Tears Swarmed My Face Again, Lots Of Tears. I Answered All His Questions. “Pregnant?, Really? He Questioned. I Nodded. He Hugged Me Tight And Kissed My Cheek. “I Can’t believe it!, Were Having A Baby???” I Nodded Again. He Smiled. “You’re Not Mad, Your Not Going to Leave Me, Or Run?” I Was Worried All This Time For nothing. He Shook His Head No Quickly. “Of Corse Not!” He yelled. “Told You” Joey Slipped Into The Conversation. I Laughed. I Let Out My Deep Sign In Relief. Thank God I Wasn’t Going Through This Alone. “How Far Along are You? He Asked. “About 6 Weeks, Ish…” I Stuttered. He Kept Telling Me it would be Okay, But I Wasn’t As Scared Anymore, I Would Have Codie, And Not To Mention Joey, I Would Be Set For Whatever We Decide. After talking About The Plans We Had, Figuring Out A Couple Names, We Walked Home To Tell His Mom. We Wanted To Keep It, We Wanted To At Least try To Be Parents. When We All Sat At the Coffee Table, We Told Her Together. She Seemed A little Angry, But A Huge Visible Smile Spread Her Face When We Told Her We Wanted to keep It. This Whole “Telling Everyone” Thing Worked Out Better Than I Would Have Ever Thought. I Was Thinking The Worst When Really the Best Was Happening Right Before My Eyes. The Day Was Still Young, And After Talking For A Good Hour, Codies Mom Agreed For The Wall Separating Mine And Codies Room, to Be Torn Down. One Big Room, A Couples Room. After The Workers Smashed It Down, We Cleaned Up The Mess And By That Time It Was Getting Late. Over The Weekend My Morning Sickness Faded, Me And Codie Bought A Brand New King Size Bed, And Re-Painted the Room. Codies Mom Went All Crazy On Building A Nursery. She Bought A Crib, A Playpen, Diapers, Wipes, Formula, Little Teddy Bears. She Even Bought A Car seat, And A Stroller. She Had Money To Spend And Something To Spend It On. I Was Happy I Told Everyone. I’m Also Happy Were Keeping ‘it”. I Went To Sleep That Night With Codie Holding My Side, Touching His Hand To My Belly And My Hand To His. My Nightmares Are Getting Worse, Gut Retching Worse. They Seem Longer, And More Vivid each One; But life Seems to Be Getting More Real. I Don’t Get Morning Sickness Anymore, That Stage Is Done, But now I’m At The Stage Of “Miss Bitchy”. Just The Other Day I Told Joey To “Fuck Off” When He