What if i love you, brea isomee [highly illogical behavior TXT] 📗

i begin to try and comfort her but she just says she's fine and walks away , so after ten minutes of trying that i give up . Maybe she really is fine . Yea right ! She's hiding something . . . . . something i know i'm not going to like at all .

I picked a purple bikini swim suit and hold it up so Destiny can see but of course she's not paying any attention . " you want this , Dez ? You will look sexy in it ."

She just grunts and goes back to looking around the store in a rush . I sigh , once again . She is really about to piss me off . I'm trying to spoil her a little and take her to the beach later on as well so she can lay out in the sun and do all the other shit girls do but she's not paying me any mind . I slammed the hanger that's holding the swimsuit back onto the rack and as soon as Destiny turns her head in the opposite direction i swiftly sneak from the store .

What else do you expect me to do ? Be ignored all day long ? Be cluelss as to what's got her jumping all over the place uncomfortably ? Hell no , she can do that on her own .

I spotted a baby store in a distance , that's where i need to be , i thought to myself . I can buy some baby stuff in neutral colors like yellow or something , or maybe i can just buy a pair of baby shoes , hell i don't know ! But i do know i need something to take my mind off of Destiny or i'm going to explode in anger . That girl is cute though , Gabriella , light skin , nice long hair which is longer than Destiny's , baby hair that frames her forehead . She's got a nice sense of style too . I don't remember her from when we were younger though , maybe because Destiny never mentioned any of her friends to me . For all i knew all of my friends were the only friends she had but i guess i was wrong . Maybe that's where she was all those nights when she wasn't home .

Drifting in and out of thought and in and out of awareness , i ended up stumbling over air a few times and even accidently bumping into a few people .My mind is just not fuctioning right , i know something is wrong , hell , my whole body can feel that something is up but i can't put my finger on it .

When i exited the baby store , bag in hand , i spot Destiny standing in a crowd of people going back and forth around her . She looks so lost , like she's going to cry at any minute .

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-Destiny-

I'm watching Damon walk from the baby store , and right behind him walking from the same store is Maceo . God , they both see me ! They're both walking over . Damon in front of Maceo , Maceo smiling as wide as can be and Damon more than slightly frowning . They both have bags from the baby store meaning they both bought the baby something . I smile a little on the inside thinking how sweet they are but then i realize once again that OH MY GOD ! THEY ARE BOTH WALKING TOWARD ME !

What do i do ? What do i do ? What do i do ?

Okay , i'll just walk over to the escalator and get out and disappear into the crowd . Uh-oh , too late .

Maceo jogs around Damon and up to me before i can do anything and Damon stops dead in his tracks a few feet behind Maceo giving me the strangest look .

" Destiny , wassupp ? I was calling you earlier outside ."

" yeah , uh , uh , i was kind of in a rush ."

" well , that's cool . But look , i got you something . " He hands me the bag from the baby store . I take it and i'm instantly smothered in a hug from Maceo . His arms are wrapped tightly around me and i feel comfortable like i belong . Next he whispers in my ear " not tryna break yo relationship up or whatever but , i just had to give you this before old dude got over here . No sweat , okay ? You mines for real anyway ." Then he kisses my cheek lightly and swaggers away as if nothing ever happened . Now Damon , he's just watching me in utter shock . No , not shock , anger . He's angry at me . He drops the bag from the baby store and calmly walks off in another direction .
Chapter eight -

-Destiny-

-3 MONTHS LATER -

First day of my senior year in high school , yay ? No , nothing is exciting about it . D'Shawn goes back to college today and Chelsey decided she's moving to college with him so he can be closer to his child , and closer to her too of course . Her mother didn't have a problem letting her go , she is actually quit happy to have a screaming baby and a teenager out of her house . So , i'm losing my brother and my best Friend at school . Hopefully we get new students .

Then , Damon isn't speaking to me . He hasn't spoken two words to me since that day at the mall . Every once in a while he'll rub and kiss my belly but other than that he keeps to his self . He'll stay out of the house for days at a time and not telling anybody anything . My mother is usually at work most of the time but she knows , she tries to comfort me and things but it doesn't work . I need Damon like i need air to breath or like i need water to stay hydrated . Ever felt like that ? No ? Me neither .

He's breaking my heart to pieces and breaking me as a person without even knowing it . But at this point i don't even think he cares .

I've been hanging out with Gabriella though , she's coming to my school this year which i'm kind of excited about . And Maceo really is her step brother and he's really sweet . Me and Maceo have been getting closer and closer lately , He really is gaining a place in my hear but it'll never be as big as Damon's spot .

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I put on a pair of sun glasses with cheetah print on the rim , a cheetah print shirt that hangs off my shoulders and a pair of cut up jeans with black flip flops showing off my perfectly manicured toes . " i look . . . . . . fat ." Blah ! I'm making myself sick . This is all a part of pregnancy , i know that but i've never been this big in my life , i'm new to this completely .

A knocking came on my door and it swung open " hurry - " Damon's words were caught in his throat as he watches me , looking me up and down like it'll hurt if he moves his eyes from my body . He hasn't looked at me like this in a long long time . He entered the room , walking over to me slowly he drops to his knees laying his head on my stomach . We remain like this for a while , him lifting up my shirt placing kisses on my slightly bigger stomach , rubbing circles all around my stomach .

I want to pull away so bad and tell him that he can't touch me , i want to scream at him and beat on his chest , i want to make him feel horrible . . . but i can't . This feels too good , too right . I can feel the love just pouring from him to me . Why can't it be like this always ?

" tell me Dez , who is he ?"

" who is who ?"

" do't play with me right now . " he stood up looking into my face desperately " who is the nigga that's taking you away from me , that got you chilling with him all the time , that's got me going fucking crazy ."

" Maceo is nobody . . . Just a friend ."

" a friend ? I'm not stupid , Destiny ! I know it's something else ! So help me god , if he is calling our baby his own i will - "

" stop it !" i screamed " he is just a friend okay . He likes me , that's all ."

He sighed pulling me into his arm and letting his chin rest on the top of my head " i love you , Dez . "

" you sure got a funny way of showing it ."

"i know , it's just that . . . i was pissed . Just thinking about another man with you . Destiny i swear , he bet not touch you or anything . And when this baby is born i don't want him around it either . Okay ?"

I shook my head yes . I have no problem with that . And anyways , Maceo knows we're just friends although he treats me like his girl when we're together .

" now , let's go . I'll drop you off at school then i got a job interview . Jamal said he'll pick you up for me later on ."

Now , maybe this school year won't be so bad .

Before we left i went to sneak into D'Shawn's room and jumped on top of his body which is laying underneath the covers in his bed . He flipped me onto my back and climbed ontop of me tickling me to death . Making me burst out into fits of laughter and tears begin to roll down my face . I'm not sure if the tears are happy ones or if i'm really going to be sad to see him go . Both i guess .

When he finally stopped tickling me we both sat side by side on the bed . " you know , Dezzy , another long year kiddo and you'll be up at college with me because we both know that Damon's ass ain't never coming up there to keep me company , " we both laughed " we can go to frat. parties together , you know . I can fight the college niggas off of you -"

" Shawn , i'm not going to college . Not with this baby on the way . I figure i'll just get a job after high school . Yeah , that's all ."

" Destiny , you've got dreams . I know you do . Let me hear some . Tell me just how you used to tell me when you were little "

" i want to dance , " i said barely