36 days later, Katerina Rose [new ebook reader TXT] 📗

Days passed and Daniel and I didn't get any moments alone to talk. I didn't really want to talk to begin with, I felt like I needed to be with him again but I couldn't figure out if he felt the same. At the same time my head was spinning from all the past crap we had been through, maybe I was being stupid to think I could trust him again?

Alex decided to give the band a day to stop and get out of the bus in between venues. It was much needed, Ally had been driving me crazy with her girl talk about Levi. Things I didn't want to hear about the kid I consider to be a brother.

The bus finally pulled to a stop in a hotel parking lot. We were told we had the rest of the night to hang out, sleep, shower, whatever we needed to do. Alex got himself a room down the hall from my band so as to keep an eye on us. He's such a woman.

Ally and I got a room together but I instantly wish I hadn't. Having her on the bus talking none stop in my ear was already driving me insane.

I decided to take a shower after lugging our bags to the room and settling on who got which bed. She laid down to watch tv and I got some peace to get in the shower and relax.

I came out in a towel and my hair dripping down my back. "I forgot my hair brush" I said coming out of the bathroom, looking up to see where ally is... Only I didn't find her I found....

"Shit... Tyler!" I screamed "get out! I'm indecent!!" I backed up back into the hallway that connects to the bathroom.

"I'm sorry" he laughed, and searched for my hairbrush around the room "Ally is with Levi I wanted to give them some space, she looked pretty irritated I was still in the room" He found the brush "I have your brush can I bring it over there or are you going to scream at me again? Because technically I cant see anything"

"Just toss it into the hallway" I called. I couldn't see him from where I stood. I could hear him laughing though.

"Cass seriously...." he walked over to the hallway. Full view, handed me the brush and smiled "You even look cute in a towel"

"Back off there skippy" I rolled my eyes and went back into the bathroom and shut the door.

"Can I stay a while?" He called through the door.

"Seems as if I don't have a choice" I called back.

"Acting like you hate me... aren't you adorable" He laughed and walked away from the door.

I walked out fully dressed a moment later. Jeans and a tank top. Hair still dripping wet.

"You know I can get your room back? I can go down the hall and inform Alex of the goings on in that room" I smiled grabbing my make up bag off my suit case a few feet from the bathroom.

"No please don't wake Alex up, I feel like he hovers over all of us, I'd rather let Levi and Ally do whatever it is their going to do than have to listen to that grandfather tell us whats right from wrong one more second"

I laughed. "He means well"

"He should relax more" he said.

"Oh I agree..."

"Besides do you really want Ally in here talking your ear off more about Levi??" he added.

"How do you know she does that?" I stepped out of the hallway and looked at him.

"Oh Levi does it to me.. You'd think the world started and stopped with that girl" He rolled his eyes and sat down on my bed

I stepped back into the hallway "Gah, She does the same crap, drives me insane, no one is that perfect" I put a cream in my hair that gives my hair a natural curl when it dries and started brushing again.

Tyler walked over to where I stood. He leaned up against the wall and watched me "Well, I think they just met their perfect match, its kind of cute I guess, It doesn't happen to a lot of people"

"True I guess, its cute in a Naive kind of way" I smiled and started applying make up.

"Arn't you going to bed, why do you need make up?" he asked.

Avoiding telling him I had plans of going to see if Daniel would want to talk to me tonight, I just shrugged.

"Girl thing?" he smiled

"pretty much"

"So tell me.... why don't you believe in soul mates" he asked.

"I don't know, seems kind of juvenile to assume one person can make you happy when they do nothing but disappoint you over and over ---- " I trailed out and realized I had said way too much.

"Talking about Daniel I assume" He stated

"Just talking..."

"I think you can do better than him" He leaned in and started picking up random pieces of my make up for closer examination.

"Oh really?, How do you figure" I asked knowing I would regret it later.

"Well it seems like he should of been able to make up his mind by now you know? I mean he's been back and forth with you and then he got married and divorced---"

"Annulled- and he was drunk--"

"And you make excuses for him" He shook his head.

"What are you getting at?"

"I feel like he should be old enough now to make up his mind, and he has you this close and he's still done nothing" - "seems wasteful"

I looked at him.

"If it was me I would of made a move by now" He picked up my mascara and twirled it around in his hand

" If it were you?"

"Yeah If Daniel and I switched places for a day"

"Well this conversation took a turn" I went back to doing my make up and trying to pretend he wasn't inching closer to uncomfortable ground.

"I don't know what his deal is, but you keep going back to him so I guess your just as indecisive and self sabotaging as he is"

"self sabotaging?"

"Yeah, how many times are you going to stick your hand in that fire before you realize it hurts?" he tossed the mascara down on the counter and walked towards the beds.

I followed him "excuse me, that's my personal business"

"that you air for everyone to hear, sorry I have an opinion on your stupidity" He snapped.

"what the hell is your problem"

"Why would you keep running back to someone who doesn't know if they want you? Why would you do that to yourself?"

"You act like this is a choice! " I snapped.

"It is! Cassie! You always have a choice!" He threw his hands up

"Whats my choice!?" I yelled

"You could choose me!... Gah your so dense it hurts!" He yelled "I don't know how much more damn obvious I have to be! but you choose him! You'd rather chase than be chased! I don't know whats wrong with you! Or me!? that I still try!?".... "You know what, just forget this whole thing..." he shook his head and walked out.

"What" I whispered to myself watching the door slowly close.

I grabbed my coat and keys and walked out a moment later. He was no where to be found in the hallway, I wondered down to Ally and Levi's room and beat on the door.

Levi came to the door shirtless, his hair was a mess.

"Look I'm sorry to bother your teenage dream moment here but I need to talk to you guys because something just happened" I sighed.

"Can it wait?" Levi looked irritated.

I paused... "Ugh, I guess,... but use protection the last thing we need is another juvenile running around"

I walked away from the door and heard it shut behind me. I walked down the hallway and out the back door.

Tyler was standing out side of the door.

"I don't know how to respond to what you've said" I started as I stood beside him.

"You don't need to, I was out of line" He sighed "You have things going on, I can't just step into everything and expect to win this one, He's clearly got something more than I'll ever have"

"We have a history" I said.

"Yeah I've heard"

"You've heard the heart breaking parts, he wasn't always like that, he was my first love"

"Thought you were engaged"

"Jason was a distraction, and it took me too long to realize that's all he ever was to me" I shook my head "I've lost time, I've been distracted, and spoiled every chance I've had to make this right, I have a chance now, Daniel and I both do, I feel like I owe it to myself to figure this out. and If its not meant to be then it won't happen but I wont know till I try" I sighed hoping he can understand.

He half laughed.

I looked up at him.

"I've seen the way he looks at you while your on stage singing, Or how his eyes always find you from across the room, and vise versa"--- "I'm the idiot for assuming I could come between this" He turned around and walked back inside.

"If Daniel and I don't work I'm swearing off boys after this..." I whispered to myself, "I'll just become a nun" I turned around and went back inside.

I went back to my room and went inside shutting the door behind me and locking it to be alone with my thoughts.

I slipped my coat off and came into view of both beds. Daniel sitting on ally's bed looking up at me.

"Hi" He smiled.

I melted.

"Hi" I responded and stood still.

"I thought I'd come down here and see you since we have free time" He coaxed me over to him.

I sat on my bed and faced him. "Oh? What do you plan to do now that you've seen me?"

"Well it depends"

"Depends on what"

"On what exactly your thinking"

"At this moment I don't know"

"That's a first"

"I think we should talk---"

"I understand Cass we said friends" he held up his hands. "I'm okay with that"

"Well, ... I don't think I am" I looked at the floor, and then looked up at him.

He half smiled "oh?"

"I don't think I can just be friends with you,... I've never wanted to be just friends with you" I continued.

He stayed silent, just smiling at me.

"I don't exactly trust you though, and I don't know how to fix that"

"Well you don't,... I have to fix it" He said, leaning forward.

There was very little space between the beds, he rested his upper body on his arms, that were resting on his legs. He stayed still as if to invite me to come forward.

"How are you going to fix it?" I asked coming closer.

"I...don't exactly know other than to just be here for you" he whispered as our faces got closer.

"There are always road blocks in front of us" I replied with the same volume he used.

Our faces were so close I could feel his breath on my face.

"Look around, there's no blocks here..." He smiled.

I paused... This was everything I had been waiting for. For as long as I could remember, just him and I, and no blocks. No boyfriends, No fiance's, no Girlfriends, no high school, no band problems no nothing. He looked so good, his jeans and hoodie, it was a safe feeling when he hugged me I longed for that feeling again. but as good as he felt when he was close and we were good, He could make me