36 days later, Katerina Rose [new ebook reader TXT] 📗

feel like an outcast in a second if things went sour. This was a toxic relationship, or maybe it was everything I needed in my life.

"Cassie" he whispered.

I was pulled from my thoughts.

"You have the power to hurt me too" He said. "This isn't one sided, I know this is what I want" He put his arms on either side of my hips

I couldn't resist him.....


I leaned closer. His lips pressed against mine, soft and sweet. My heart beat faster and his hands began to circle my body.... I wasn't going to stop and analyze this. Right now I was that teenager with her high school crush. He finally put his guitar down, took the blinders off and noticed me... I had to let this happen or I'd kick myself later....

He slipped his fingers under my shirt and pulled it off with a swift movement. I pulled on his hoodie and he pulled it off over his head. I grabbed his neck and began running my lips over it. He leaned into me and laid me back on the bed. As he leaned over me I pulled his shirt off over his head and tossed it across the bed. I slid my hands down his back. He picked me up and put me farther on the bed. Laying straight on the bed now he was above me running his mouth down my neck and towards my chest. Every inch of me lit up with his caresses. I could feel my passion for him coming forward. I had harbored it for so many years there was no telling how far I was going to let this go on. I had no intention of sleeping with him. At least that's what my head said, my body screamed a very different story.

He sat on his knees and began unbuckling my belt, and then my jeans buttons, he slid his hands on either side of my hips and leaned down to kiss my stomach.

A knock on the door startled us both. I pushed Daniel back so hard he lost his balance and fell off the bed.

"Cassie?".... Alex voice rang out.

"Shit" I whispered... searching for my shirt and pulling my jeans together to button them as I headed for the door.

Daniel still on the floor at this point.

"Cassie its Alex, I cant find Tyler I was wondering if you had seen him?" he called through the door.

"get back, get in the bathroom" I whisper/yelled At Daniel.

He griped, grabbed his shirt and hoodie off the bed and headed for the bathroom.

"Coming!" I called

I quickly put my shirt on and fixed my mushed hair. I opened the door and prayed to God he couldn't sense what had just been going on in here.

"Have you seen Tyler?" he looked worried.

"no?"

"I've been calling him for a while Levi said he never came back to the room?"

I came out into the hallway with him, Ally and levi standing in the hallway now..

"No I haven't seen him, - I mean he was in my room earlier but I haven't seen him since then"

"He was in your room?" Levi asked "what for?"

"Well he was---bored" I said, not wanting to inform Alex he was kicked out by Ally.

"Well get your coats we need to find him" He said as he headed back down to his room. "meet me outside!" he called over his shoulder.

When his door shut behind him I looked at them "I didn't care to inform him of your guys indiscretions" I said looking concerned.

"Don't worry,... it didn't happen" Ally held up her hands.

"Speaking of indiscretions" Levi pointed behind me.

Daniel stood behind me now having just come out of my room.

"Cassandra..." Ally smiled and covered her mouth.

"Shut up both of you,..." I pointed at them.

"I should get back to the bus" Daniel whispered "I'll call you later" he said and walked down the hallway.

I watched him walk away.... his jeans fit him well, and his hoodie had writing on the back. His shoulders looked broad and I wanted to jump his bones right now in the hallway..

"Whoa woman, don't drool right here in the hallway" Ally snapped her fingers in front of my face.

"what?, I wasn't drooling"

Levi laughed. "No seriously what happened"

"Nothing happened" I snapped.

"Alex is going to be back here in a second we have to get our coats" Ally pushed Levi towards his room.

We went into our room and grabbed ours. "nothing happened huh" she pointed at the covers shifted. I admit, that looked like it was more than it was.

"Nothing happened I swear" I sighed

We grabbed our jackets and went outside to meet Alex.

"Okay Levi and Cassie go ahead and head to the bus see if you can find him Ally and I will go downstairs in the office and see if anyone has seen him" he sighed "meet back here in 10 mins"

They walked off. Levi and I headed for the bus....
Chapter 4

We searched for Tyler for what seemed forever. I had all but given up and assumed he'd gone home after being rejected when I wasn't aware he had feelings for me. I had made it all the way down the street and began walking back to the hotel, when I reached the bus and heard people yelling from the back side of it. I walked around and saw Tyler and Daniel throwing their fists at each other. Daniels band mates were cheering him on and Levi was standing to the side watching, amused as it seemed.

"Oh My God whats going on!?" I got close enough for them to hear me. The group of guys froze and looked at me.

"Why are you two fighting,..." I paused. "Wow, did you just have a guy fight over a chick." Knowing full well I was the chick I was speaking of.

No one said a word.

"You know what, both of you just stay out of my hair, your nothing but a huge distraction anyway... carry on, hope you rip each others brains out.... well their probably already gone anyway" I threw my hands up and started for the hotel.

I heard them call my name I kept walking.

I found Alex coming out of the hotel doors "Oh your idiot prodigy is over there whaling on your other brilliant idea... way to go Alex, score one for you" I walked passed him, and slammed the hotel door behind me.


The remainder of our Band break was spent in silence. I focused on writing new music and I kept to myself. When we returned to band practices things were still tense and cold. Not even Alex was really speaking to any of us. Maybe it was just better that way.


Days passed and we finally went back to our normal routine on the road. We did shows and we went back to the bus in silence. I didn't speak to Daniel or Tyler even though they both tried repeatedly to get me alone. I realized every time something good happens in my life I let a guy mess it up.


I sat in my bed strumming my guitar while the bus drove over night again. Everyone else seemed to be fast asleep. I kept writing to clear my head of any distractions.

A tap on my door interrupted my thoughts and Tyler stood in front of me. I'm not sure how he made it past Alex all the way back to my room but I gave him a little credit for attempting it.

"Can I talk to you?"

"Whatever it is, I don't want to hear it" I put my hand up to shoo him away.

"I'm so sorry, you don't even understand..."

"Your right, I don't, but I do understand the drama ends now so, find your way back to your side before I wake up Alex" I put my head back down to focus on my guitar.

"I think I'm going to go home at our next stop" He said.

I looked up "Quit?"

"Clearly I've caused more problems than good here and I need to just step out of the picture"

"Oh for the love of God can't anyone just get past the drama? That's all this is, this is high school crap I don't have time for it. Either you want to be in this band or you don't but don't quit because of me, or Daniel or any crap that's going on that's called being a quitter" I snapped.

"I don't know what else to do--"

"You suck it up, you get out on stage and pretend like everything is fine, and when this is over we will either part ways friends or enemies, but until then you are not permitted to leave this band under any circumstances unless it's a legit excuse like a death in the family" I half smiled even though I felt like tearing his head off.

"Ok" he mumbled something else and closed the door as he walked out.

I got a text message a few seconds later. It was Daniel.

"Oh My God doesn't anyone sleep around here" I huffed as I opened the message.

"I need to talk to you, this silence is killing me, Please let me talk to you"

I turned my phone off, put my guitar on the floor turned my light off and went to bed... I realized he probably saw my light on from his bus because they were driving behind us. "Clearly I have to set an example" I sighed as I laid my head down and tried to sleep.


The next stop we made was halfway through our tour. Ally and I went into the field house we were playing at. It was our biggest stage yet. I was completely excited and nervous.

We walked out on the stage and saw the sea of stadium seating, all empty but just as terrifying as if they were full of faces looking up at me.

"Oh wow, I feel like this is the big times" Ally said grabbing my arm "I'm freaking out"

"Me too,... this is crazy"

She twirled around on the stage "This is so awesome!"

I sat down on the stage and stared out into the crowd picturing what this evening will hold for us. A sea of faces, a distant band, how did things get so messed up in such a short period of time.

Next thing I knew Daniel sat down right next to me.

I started to get up and he grabbed my arm "No, Your going to sit here and talk to me"

I looked around, Ally and run off, clearly she's a terrible friend.

"What is so important that you could want to say to me now?" I snapped.

"I can't believe your ticked off about the fight, we made it through everything else..."

"everything else?"

"Your engagement,... My marriage.... The band, the break ups, the craziness,...explain to me how this is the worst thing that's happened thus far that would cause you not to speak to your best friend anymore"

"your a distraction" I looked at him.

"Ouch"

"You know you are,... and I'm a distraction to you, I think