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we are better off without each other romantically, can we just not..."

"We were so close---"

"And look what happened"

"If it doesn't rain sometimes, you don't remember to appreciate the sunshine" he smiled.

"Seriously, metaphors right now?"

He shrugged.

"I'm calling a truce,... I'll talk to you but we're not romantically linked okay? I just cant afford a distraction right now, this is technically my tour, do you understand how huge that is for me?"

He nodded "You've waited a long time to have a solo thing I know...I've been around"

"So can you understand why I don't want to mess this up with boys, and drama and crap that shouldn't be a thought in my mind right now?"

He nodded again.

"Look, I'm not saying that sometime in the future we can't but I just can't right now..."

He nodded a third time.

"We can talk about this after tour,... when I have a clear head" I finally finished talking and walked off...

Part of me wishes I hadn't just burned this bridge with him (for now), the other part of me is glad I did. It was either career or boys... right now It had to be my solo project... there was no question about it. I just hope it stays this way...
Chapter 5

Weeks on tour can really wear a person out. Everything had settled down, I was happy to be completely focused on my music. The band seemed in sync with each other. Our crowds were massive, our fans were crazy, I loved every moment of this tour. I realized my mental block was from the boys. I didn't have to set Tyler straight, he pretty much stayed out of my hair as best he could. I did find him and Daniel speaking on more than one occasion though which was slightly off putting. I had promised myself not to care though, it was more important I make it through the last few days of this tour so I could go back to my life. Alex had promised me a free Christmas, no tour, no studio time and I couldn't of been more excited.

We had two more shows before this tour was over. I was pumped, everything was perfect. This was the tour I had signed up for.

I was in the auditorium tuning my guitar when I heard Ally walk in. She was clearly angry at something, or someone.

Huffing and stomping around stage like she wanted to punch something. She was causing my tuner to jump so I turned around.

"Hey, woman, I'm trying to be productive here, if you must stomp at least do it off stage" I shooed her.

She crossed her arms and gave me a glare.

"Jeeze, what are you so pissed at?"

"WHO!"

I rolled my eyes... "Trouble in paradise babe?"

"Oh My God he's such an asshole... Levi has been talking to his ex!"

Has she learned nothing from my love life?

I laugh... "You'll have that"

"Are you going to laugh at me or are you going to show me some girl sympathy here!?" she throws up her hands.

"I'd love to become a feminist with you honey,... believe me I'll be the first one on that train, but Levi is like my little brother I'm sure he has a good reason for whatever he did"

"He talked to his ex!"

"Did they do anything else?"

"Well no he's been with me.."

"Was it texting or calls?"

"Texting..."

"So have you read these messages?"

"no"

"Did you ask to?"

"no" she's looking more irritated by the second..."Why are you trying to ruin this!"

"Ruin what? I'm trying to help you here,... Levi isn't an asshole, just ask to see the convo or something, I'm sure it will be okay he's crazy about you"

She huffed at me. "Should of had problems when you hated guys... you would of been more help"

I laugh... "yeah my complete lack of caring for guys in general has really mellowed me out"

"Yeah well it sucks"

"sorry?"

"Did you choose between them yet by the way?" she asks me point blank.

I sigh, lay my head over my guitar and let my hair dangle... "I'm not choosing" I mumble, tired of hearing about my love life.

"You know your going to have to right? They've been talking about it"

I look up at her "What?"

"Oh See NOW I have your attention..."

"What do you mean their talking about it?"

"trying to figure out who your going to choose?" She smiles.

"Like I'm torn between them or something?" I roll my eyes.

"Well its a clear choice right?"

I glare at her... "There is no choice"

"Oh My God woman, ...Clearly it's Daniel.."

"Its none of anyone's business... I don't need this crap, now if you don't mind, take your teen angst and go back to the bus I'm trying to tune here..."

She sighs and walks away...

"Choose..my ass" I whisper to myself as I restart my tuner.

A few hours later I was walking off stage with my guitar around my shoulder listening to the crowd scream for more.

"That was a great set, you sounded Amazing Cassie, seriously, best I've ever heard" Daniel raved when I walked backstage.

"It felt amazing,.... I'm a little sad I only have one more show left to do tomorrow"

"I know right? It feels like this went fast" he smiled "You did a great job though, I'm really proud of you" he hugged me.

"Proud of me?" I laughed.

"Yeah, when we were younger, sitting in my garage I always knew you had the talent for this... you had more drive to make it than I did"

"Look at you, your on this tour with me" I smiled.

"Yeah, almost all I could ever ask for" He smiled and stuck his hands in his pockets.

He looked really cute and innocent in that moment. His torn jeans and white T-shirt. his hair was scruffy and messy tonight. Their set had been pretty intense, jumping around and what not. All the boys looked like they had really had fun out there. There was something in Daniel's eyes though. I wasn't sure if it was just him reminiscing about our past? He kept looking at me. He had my eyes locked.

I felt my heart start to race again. I knew where this was going to lead. Why was he the only one my heart did this for ?

Why couldn't I just let go of him already?

I heard Alex calling my name and our stares broke.

"Great set! We need to get you to that table, people are getting restless to get your autograph!" He wrapped his arm around me and took me down the hallway.

The only thing I wanted to do in that moment was take Daniel into the back room and relive that fire I felt for him just a few years ago in his garage. Those were the moments I fell in love with him. Everything would of been good and then I met Jason and everything went to hell and a hand basket.

How did our relationship get so messed up? Why couldn't we just make it work? Make it last? So many pressing questions on my mind. Right now all I wanted to do was talk to my best friend, but I entered a room full of fans instead....


3 hours later we had reached the end of the line, I felt like my wrist was going to fall off. Alex didn't normally let people stay in line that long but we knew it was the final days of the tour and really wanted to create a buzz. Wanted our fans to know we cared so they would keep us going and we could tour again. This wasn't just my dream, this was a dream for this band, the fans always had to come first, even if I didn't feel like signing 200 autographs...

I headed back down the long hallway, threw my hair up in a messy bun and slid my fingers along the wall as I walked. I could see the door and the bus from where I was. I was taking in this experience as I walked.

"You used to do that a lot when you were younger" I heard Daniel's voice behind me.

I smiled. "my hand on the wall?" I asked looking back at him.

He nodded. "I didn't understand it, thought maybe it was a nervous habit"

"Nope, just a habit" I smiled.

"I know this is going to sound pretty stupid, and I understand if you say no but would you want to join me on my bus tonight? I kind of want to talk to you for a while like old times?"

I looked at him.... Hesitant.

"Just friends I swear, I just miss my best friend... and I know after this tour I won't see you for a while"

I cocked my head. "why?"

"Well your going home but I'm going back out on the road"

"You are?"

"Yeah, we got picked up for another tour"

"wow that's amazing... but you'll miss Christmas?"

"Well my dad understands... its not like Christmas has ever been a big deal in our house anyway"

I nodded...

"So?...will you? for old times sake?"

I smiled "Yes"

He looked relieved.

"Okay, I'll go tell Alex"

"Pfft Yeah good luck with that"

He laughed and ran ahead of me down the hall and out the door.

I turned around to see the empty hallway behind me,..."its almost over" I sighed...

Chapter 6

We reluctantly got Alex to agree to let me stay on Daniel's bus this evening. Mostly because Daniel begged. We had to convince him it was just as friends, though I saw a twinkle in Daniel's eye that made me nervous.

The buss's headed off to our final destination and I sat on Daniel's bed with him and our guitars while his band slept in the front of the bus.

"You remember that time in class when you fell asleep and fell out of your chair?" I smiled. We had spent the last half hour talking about old times. It felt almost normal between us now. I had missed my best friend for sure.

"Oh yeah! Jason totally tried to cover for me, saying the chair was broken..." His voice went flat at the mention of Jason. He didn't mean to mention him I could tell he felt bad.

A brief pause...

"I didn't mean to--"

"Its okay... " I cut him off "I swear, its okay"

He half smiled. "How are you doing with that anyway?"

"Well, I'm good actually, I mean we don't talk at all now but I think its for the best"

"It threw me off when you guys got together... and then engaged" He trailed off..

"yeah?"

"Yeah, he never