36 days, Katerina Rose [red queen ebook txt] 📗

I was staring at him.

“Shit---“ I suddenly said letting reality slip into my head. “Shit shit! Jason.. Shit!” I slipped my flip flops back on and took my waddled up hoodie, unlocked the door, turned around and snapped “Don’t follow me”. I opened the door and took off down the hallway instantly wanting to turn around and run back into him. Shit, this was a mess.

I found myself back in the bus moments later out of breath. Alex, Levi and Kat all sitting in the common room looking at me.

“Where have you been?” Alex grilled me.

“I went for a run around the auditorium? “ I said thankfully feeling sweaty and out of breath to further make my point.

“And Daniel?” Kat asked.

“I thought he was asleep? He was asleep when I left? “ I said “Maybe he’s getting breakfast?” I said realizing it was almost 7 am now.

“Well, go get ready we have to talk about this set list” Alex said looking less than satisfied with my answers.

I walked to the back of the bus and heard the door shut behind me. I assumed everyone had left the bus but I was wrong.

“You smell like him” Kat cornered me. Obviously pissed.

“Who?” I asked.

“Seriously Cass don’t play stupid, You were with him weren’t you? “

“Look crazy I went for a run”

“then why is your tank top on inside out?” she said getting closer.

Kat was taller than me, and if she wanted to I knew she could do some damage, I had never been afraid of her until this moment. But I did what any normal girl would of done- faked it.

“Can you back up your in my space?”

“YOU didn’t answer me” she got angrier

“Seriously? It was dark when I got dressed I couldn't see anything, I got up at 5 am Crazy”

“Why don’t you just come clean?”

“Why don’t YOU just back off”

“You cant have him Cassie, He’s mine”

“You have a claim on Daniel? I Think I missed that memo”

“HA! You knew I was talking about Daniel”

“Are you kidding me? Who the hell else would you be talking about?” I snapped.

“You cant have him!”

“You don’t own him” I laughed at her.

“So your just going to have him on the side of your impending marriage!” she shouted.

“Shut up! I Don’t have anyone on the side!” I yelled back

“your damn right! I’ll be dammed if you take him too!”

“Too? What does that mean!??”

“You know EXACTLY what that means!”

“Humor me” I looked at her,. Testing her limits.

“You stole him- You know what you did”

“If your never going to let that go kat, you should just quit the band because I cant take hearing this for the rest of my life”

“should have been MY LIFE! That should be MY RING!”

“Seriously!? I didn’t Steal Jason! He asked me out!”

“You were never supposed to be home that day!”

“I don’t understand what something back in College has to do with this crap”

“You cant have both of them!”

“I don’t have Daniel!”

“You may have yourself fooled, or even this whole damn band, even Jason! But I know whats going on here and I’ll be dammed if you get everything” she snapped and stormed out of the bus.

I laid back on my bed and groaned… My phone vibrated next to me.

“Lets talk” Was all it said, Daniels number popped up.

I clicked my phone closed. “lets not” I whispered to myself.

I closed my eyes and all I could see was his smile and I just kept reliving the last hour over and over.
Chapter 2

A few days had passed. Daniel and I hadn’t spoken and the ice between kat and I was as frozen as ever. I spent most of my time with levi and Alex going over the set list and tweaking it each night so we didn’t get into a rut during this tour. I decided I wasn’t going to talk about that night with anyone especially not Daniel, and every time he entered the room I dodged his eye sight and left when I could.

We had been driving all night, and I was lying on my bed in the back with my laptop on skype with Jason. Hoping seeing his face would make me less inclined to feel this lingering desire for Daniel just a few feet from me. I could see his body asleep in his bunk from my bed and my eyes glanced over every so often against my own will.

“So are all of you getting a long okay? That bus seems like a small space with too many people in it” Jason chuckled.

“Yeah its’ okay, we’re already all like family you know” I said, and then remembered that kat and I currently hate each other. Details aren’t necessary to Jason though.

“Well, have you thought anymore about the wedding plans?” He asked.

“No actually things have been kind of crazy here” I said. Then feeling bad instantly,
“Yeah I assumed as much, so I kind of volunteered abbey to help you out with it?” Jason said.

“Abbey? Your sister abbey? Doesn’t she have like a busy life?” I smiled, hoping I didn’t come across as freaked out.

“Yeah but she said she wanted to help, she knows you have a lot going on and since we want to do it when you get home in a few months I thought she could help you know, get a list going?” Jason said “I just want to help you “

“Yeah I know, That’s fine I guess sure.. tell her thank you” I said, and glanced up to see Daniel standing in the doorway of my room. “I gotta go though okay? The bus is asleep and I don’t want to wake anyone up, I kinda need some sleep too” I sighed. Hoping Daniel would get the hint.

“Yeah sure babe, call me tomorrow and let me know how your set goes, I love you” He said
“Sure I will “I looked up and couldn’t tell Jason I loved him with daniel’s eyes on me.

I closed my computer and tossed it to the side. Hoping Jase didn’t get mad for me not saying I love him later on. Deal with one problem at a time.

There was a door to block off each section of the bus. And mine was now closed with Daniel inside.

“You didn’t tell him you love him back” Daniel said sitting on the end of my bed.

“You were staring right at me.” I sighed and lay back crossing my arms.

“It seems I have to corner you to get you to even look at me now” he responded.

“I just don’t have anything to say”

“Cassie you always have something to say” he smiled. “So why don’t you just say what your feeling and we can go from there”

“Why don’t you say what your feeling----nevermind, Nevermind! I don’t need to know” I put my hand up realizing I didn’t want to complicate my life.

He grabbed my hand. “You know how I feel about you” he whispered so the others wouldn’t hear him.

“Daniel---“

“You can’t push this down forever cass I felt everything with that kiss”

“Just the kiss?” I sighed and put a pillow over my head “im so stupid!”

He crawled up beside me in bed and picked the pillow up “Actually, yes, just in the kiss”

I glared at him “Theres no way”

“Do you know how long I’ve been waiting to kiss you?”

“Daniel---“

“no seriously cass I’m not bullshitting you, ive been waiting a long time”

“We tried the whole dating thing back in highschool remember? We failed, why do you think it would work now?”

“We never dated cass, you ran away from me and accidentally ran into Jason”

“Why does everyone think that was an accident!?”

“what?”

“Oh and btw your girlfriend threw a shit fit the other day thanks for that”

“What?”

“Kat” I whispered.

“Kat threw a fit?” he asked.

“Yes”

He paused and looked around for a second like he was thinking.

“no? …No I have no idea why she would do that”

“no idea..? because she couldn’t possibly have a thing for you” I sat up.

“Cass—“ He tried to grab my arm and pull me back down.

“Don’t---“ I pulled away from him.

“Cassie seriously I don’t want anyone el----“

“No… don’t do that…Don’t tell me pretty things I cant do that again”

“I’m not lying to you”

I started to stand up and realized I was only wearing a tshirt and my girlie boxers. Not exactly the type of outfit I wanted Daniel to witness me in, in light of these circumstances.

“Please go” I sighed.

“Cassandra” he used my full name, that’s when I knew he was being serious. He sat up on the bed and grabbed me.

I fought to get out of his grip when my heart was telling me to give in. I kept my eyes down and tried to think of the commitment I made to Jason. One I had already broken but if I didn’t make it any worse maybe it would just go away.

I struggled in his grip for a few moments and he pulled me closer to him. He whispered and his lips were so close I could feel his breath on mine.

“You can fight me, you can fight this, but I won’t give up on us, I felt everything I needed to in that kiss. I’ve been in love with you since middle school and I won’t just let this die, but at some point I’ll get smart and walk away I just hope you realize what you want before that” He kissed my cheek and pulled himself off my bed shutting the door behind him.

I sank down into my bed and felt my tears welling. I brought my hands to my face and took another look at my ring. It still sparkled. Princess cut, clean pretty, everything I had waiting for, but was Jason?

The tears rolled down my cheek and I closed my eyes.


I wondered into sound check the next morning, in my jeans and