36 days, Katerina Rose [red queen ebook txt] 📗

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“Cassie?” – I heard levi’s voice sneak up behind me.

I stopped playing and looked up.

“Hey, Alex asked me to come get you, the bus is going to pull out soon, no one knew where you went” He sat down next to me on stage. “Are you okay?”

I nodded

“You havn’t really spoken to anyone in a while, you don’t seem okay” “he looked concerned.

“Im okay” I lied.

It wasn’t his job to make me feel better, he was younger, I was supposed to be the role model, the responsible one. This band had to move on and so did I.

“If you’re so okay then why are you sitting out here in the dark with your guitar playing that song Daniel played for you before he left?”

I couldn’t look at him. I couldn’t respond. I just started strumming again.

“Cassie” he put his hand over the neck of the guitar to stop me.

“Go back to the bus Levi I’ll be there in a min” I sighed.

“CJ why are you still here” he asked.

“The band---“

“Why are you still here” he asked again, leaning in so I couldn’t dodge his eyes.
He picked up my hand with the ring on it “Why” he held it up “None of this means anything to you anymore, the biggest part of you took off and your just sitting here like theres nothing going on”

“What am I supposed to do??”

“Didn’t you always tell me, that you won’t let me hook up with a stupid girl because you wanted me to wait till I found someone I was meant to be with?” He half smiled “And though I hate you for cock blocking me constantly I have to admit I hear you when you say that, I want what you have”

“Jason and I havnt talked in----“

“I don’t want what you and Jason have, I want what you and Daniel have”

“we don’t have anything”

“Not now you don’t because you let him leave! I don’t understand you! You preach all this stuff about waiting for the right person, and you know its not Jason, damn even I know its not Jason!”

“Levi you don’t understand---“

“Oh are you going to use the ‘I’m too young’ excuse? Because that’s crap and you know it”

“Go away”

He stood up and snatched my guitar. “So when you sing all that crap about love, you don’t mean any of it huh, some role model” he walked off.

“Levi! My guitar!” I yelled.

He was gone. On his way back to the bus no doubt. Ugh, I didn’t even want to think about the bus. Another long journey to the next auditorium to play for people who all believed in love, suckers; It’s all fun and games until someone walks out on you. Why is it my responsibility to bring him back? He told me he wouldn’t give up and that’s exactly what he did.

Within 2 minutes I had stood up and headed back to the bus. I wondered down the hallway slowly, pulling my hood up over my head. Just had to keep walking because at the end of all this I was still going home, still going to marry Jason, and whatever Daniel and I had is gone now.

I reached the bus and passed kat, alex and levi without saying a word I went back to my bed and shut the door. I grabbed my laptop and headed to facebook. I knew it wasn’t the best way of contact, but maybe I could find out where he was at least, if he cared, if he missed me, if he had moved on.

Daniel’s facebook page pulled up and his ex girlfriend Kristy was all over it, telling him she was so happy he was home, she hoped to see him soon, and she was so happy they were friends again.

My eyes welled up with tears.

To the right of my screen was a time line on facebook, it showed me a post done by Jason to kat days before. I hadn’t checked facebook in a while so maybe they assumed I wouldn’t check it now. Jason had written kat and asked how I was and why I wasn’t speaking to him. Kat had replied I was broken up over Daniel leaving the band, but she’d be happy to explain anything else to him over the phone. Jason wrote her back and said he would call her soon. There were no more posts and that was days ago.

I could only imagine the crap Kat had filled his head with just to get back at me. I picked up my phone and saw I had no missed calls, no text messages, nothing. That wasn’t like Jason. Come to think of it it had been a few days since I had actually spoken to him? Had I been so knee deep in my Daniel crisis I didn’t notice he was ignoring me? And not the other way around? What did she tell him?

I text Jason

“It’s been a while; I thought I’d c what was going on?”

I put my phone down and lay back on my bed. My heart was anxious; I could just imagine the things she had told Jason.

My phone jingled, it was Jason.

Just a text message

“We will talk when you get home” was all it said.

My heart filled with fear, and that fear turned to rage as I realized everything was Kat’s fault. She had fought over Daniel. She couldn’t have him so she caused him to leave. Now she was interfering with Jason so I was left with no one.

I got off the bed with a rage bubbling over inside of me. I opened the door to the hall and headed for the common room.

I found Kat asleep on the couch, and alex on the other side. Levi was asleep in his bunk and frankly I didn’t care who was around to see what was going to happen next.
I grabbed Kat by her hair and pulled her up to face me.

She screamed in pain and shock from being asleep. She reached for her hair and then realized it was me. She quickly shoved me to the other side of the bus. I fell back on Alex who was talking to his wife on skype.

Screaming ensued

“You couldn’t stand it could you” I yelled as I got off of Alex and stood to my feet facing her.

“What are you talking about?! Cassie?! What’s wrong with you!”

Alex stood up getting between us.

“You couldn’t stand that I had him and you didn’t so you had to call and screw everything up!” I yelled

“Which boy are we talking about here?” kat sneered “Do they even have names anymore? Or do you just call them Thing one and thing two so you don’t confuse yourself, I’ve always wondered how whores do that”

I ran towards her full force, I caught alex off guard and he wasn’t quick enough to grab me. I pushed her back into the couch and began hitting her with everything I had.
I got a few shots to her face before Alex pulled me off of her. I stood up to see I had given her a bloody nose. ‘that will do for now’ I thought to myself. I was proud I had at least done that, she was taller and no doubt stronger, but I caught her off guard so I got my shots in before she could react. This had been building for so long; I just don’t know what took me so long to clock her.

Levi stumbled into the common room as Alex pushed me to the opposite couch and stood between us.

“Whoa. What happened!?” Levi asked looking at Kat, now dripping blood.

“That Bitch hit me!” Kat screamed.

“You couldn’t just leave them alone!” I screamed, “You couldn’t have either of them so you took them both away from me!” I got up.

Alex pushed me back down.

Kat got up and levi pushed her back to the couch.

“Neither one of you are leaving this room!” Alex yelled at both of us.

“I didn’t take either of them!” Kat yelled at me.

“Oh so Jason doesn’t speak to me for days as a fluke? I’m not stupid!” I yelled

“You ignored Jason! He asked me why!”

“And what did you tell him! Everything?!’

Alex looked at me “what exactly was there to tell Cassie?” He crossed his arms.

I didn’t say anything

“Why don’t you just tell him Cassie, at least we’d all know the truth “

“How far are you going to go kat? If you get Daniel are you going to tell him you slept with Jason while I was with him? And if you get Jason are you going to tell him that you fought me tooth and nail for my best friend!?” I screamed.

“By the time I get either of them they wont want anything to do with you, your seeing to that yourself!” She yelled back

“Someone tell me what the hell is going on here before this whole tour is cancelled right now” Alex yelled

Levi interrupted “They’re both fighting over Daniel, and its kind of stupid because Daniel left to stop this mess, but neither of you care about this band, this is some sort of girl battle, and I get to be caught in the cross fires! Did either of you stop to think that maybe I need this band? This is my big shot!? I didn’t learn to play drums for kicks! I wanted to make something of myself! And you guys are just throwing this whole thing away!” He screamed and slammed the door to the hallway.

All 3 of us fell silent for a moment.

“I quit” I said.

“You what?” Alex looked at me. “You own this band you cant quit”

“then its over”

“did you not just hear Levi?” He snapped “Your ruining that kids chances because you two are fighting over a guy that hasn’t called either one of you since he took off, am I right?”

“I don’t want to do this anymore alex, im not in it”

“Why?, because you got your heart broken? Or because your only with Jason because you don’t want kat to have him? Or because your in love with your best friend who took off on you?, you guys act like I don’t know jack shit but you’ll be surprised what I’ve picked up on”

He looked at Kat

“You’re the reason Daniel left, he couldn’t handle the pressure you were putting on Cassie, he wanted her to have this dream, because he’s in love with her, He’s never cared anything for you but you can’t see that past your pride because you didn’t want cassie to have the one thing you’ve wanted, or was that Jason? I can’t tell with you anymore because you flip flop back and forth so much”

"You know whats the worst part of this whole situation? Is that I actually know any of this shit! Or have to deal with any of this! This is a band! My number one rule was