36 days, Katerina Rose [red queen ebook txt] 📗

no one dates inside the band! but no one listened to me and look at the mess we are in now ladies!? Congratulations! Maybe next time someone will listen to me!"

He let the silence hit us in the face like a ton of bricks. He sighed and ran his hands through his hair. I knew he was frustrated.

Kat and I both looked down at the floor. I felt like a 4 year old.

he finally spoke again.

“I’m going to fix this problem right now, this tour is over, we are all going home, we are going to take a break and separate from each other. As your manager I will call you in a month to see where this band stands. Daniel included. We need him on this band, quite frankly I’m tired of refereeing everything, and I miss my wife and she’s going to have the baby any day now so I’m going home to have a normal life, I suggest the two of you do the same thing. And if in a month we can all get over our issues we will try this again”

He sighed and walked to the front of the bus where the driver is.

The room was silent for a few moments. I looked at kat, who was looking at me.

“That’s it then” she said.

“Maybe we all need some time apart” I replied and walked to the room to pack my stuff.

Something needed to change because as it stood, my life was a wreck.
Chapter 5

My alarm went off and I crawled out of bed. 8 Am, I had to stop getting up so early. It had been 2 weeks since I had been home; I’d barley spoken to anyone, and Jason had been out of town so I hadn’t even seen him.

The band separated and I thought I would feel relief because I felt like my heart wasn’t in it anymore but all I felt was depression and sadness to have something I loved so much end like that.

I wondered into the closet, and emerged with my yoga pants and a tank. Grabbed my tennis shoes and headed out for my run. It wasn’t something I was fond of doing but something that often helped me clear my head and straighten things out.
I had only been in my apartment for 2 weeks but I already missed my bus terribly. I missed the smell of fast food everywhere and listening to levi play drums on everything he could find with his sticks. I missed Daniel writing and humming to himself constantly, and Kat spending hours in the bathroom putting on too much make up. I know we were all in a horrible fight but they were my family and I felt like I needed to change this situation I just wasn’t sure how.

Three days grace was playing on my ipod as I ran; it was that same song Daniel had played on his last day with us. I admit I was slightly addicted to that song before he played it but now it was on repeat daily. I began to have memories flash back of Daniel telling me I carried this band, and I’m the reason he stuck around for so long. Maybe that was the problem, I wasn’t worth it to anyone anymore? And not in a self pity kind of way, but maybe everyone needed more of a part in this band than I had given them?

I made it back up to my town house doorstep and stopped for a breath. There were a dozen roses laying at the door and no one in sight.

I picked them up and took them into the house searching for a card inside, but nothing. My heart skipped a beat at the thought of Daniel sending them as a means to break the ice. Maybe he was ready to talk to me now, since he had dodged my phone calls and texts for weeks.

I laid them down on the counter and my phone buzzed. It was Jason.

“Good morning” he greeted me “Did you get my flowers?”

My heart sank a little. They weren’t from Daniel.

“Oh yea, they’re so pretty” I replied covering my emotions.

“Well I thought maybe we could have lunch?” he asked.

“Are you coming home early?” I asked walking around my house picking things up. It was only moments I was bored in my house that I realized I was quite messy.

“Actually I’m home right now” – I heard his voice, but not through the phone.

I turned around and he was standing in my bedroom doorway.

My emotions were more surprised, but I wouldn’t qualify them as good. I felt bad not giving him the initial response to his arrival that I’m sure he expected so I quickly changed my tone, smiled and embraced him.

“So lunch?” he kissed my cheek.

“Yes that sounds great actually, let me jump in the shower and get changed” I said pulling away from him.

He held onto my arm and kissed me more, “let me come with you” he smiled. “We haven’t been together in a while I’ve missed you”

I pulled away and walked into the bed room “Tonight I promise, right now I just really need a shower” I grabbed some clothes out of my drawer and shut my bathroom door.

I stood there a moment, sighing. I knew this was falling apart. I wasn’t drawn to Jason like I used to be. This wasn’t the same as it was, I didn’t know if he felt it but I didn’t know how to end this without hurting him. I looked down at my hand; I hadn’t even bothered to put my ring on to go running. Most people wouldn’t find that weird, I’m sure, but if your newly engaged why wouldn’t you wear it every chance you got?

I jumped in the shower and rinsed off. Getting out I quickly put my clothes on and threw my hair under my dryer. I applied my makeup and when I was finished I reached for the door handle of the bathroom and stayed still. I closed my eyes and silently wished that on the other side of the door Daniel would be standing there waiting to greet me. I opened my eyes, Opened the door and Jason sat on my bed watching T.V.

I knew it wasn’t right that I wished for Daniel to be here, I knew it wouldn’t change my relationship with Jason, I was going to have to change that at some point myself but for right at this moment, I just needed to see Daniel, and I knew that was too much to ask.
Jason and I went out to lunch; as I approached the table I saw Levi and Alex, then Kat, and as the table came into full view I saw Daniel. His blue eyes sparkled as he looked up at me, a half smile that held so much behind it I just wasn’t sure what yet.

“Um Hi?” I said as we reached the table.

Alex stood up and hugged me “Hey, I called Jason and asked to arrange this, I thought we could have a band meeting”

“Band meeting?” I asked looking over at Daniel. “Did I miss something?”

“Well, we’ve discussed it and we want to try this again” Kat said getting up to hug me too.

Levi hugged me and lead me to the other side of Daniel to sit down.

Jason stood at the end of the table, when alex welcomed him to sit down he declined and said he’d be back to rescue me in an hour.

“Why didn’t you just call me alex?” I asked

“Well, you’ve been kind of hard to reach lately” Levi chimed in, “you haven’t been answering your phone at all”

“Well I thought we were taking a sabbatical?” I questioned.

“Well, I’ve talked to everyone and they all want to try this again, if you’re willing to Cass but you’re the lead so you’re the final decision” Alex looked at me.

“Well, actually I’ve been thinking and I don’t want to be the lead anymore” I looked at Daniel, “I think it would do us all some good if we heard you more” I said

“Wait---So does that mean you’re in?” Levi sat up in his chair and leaned over the table towards me.

I smiled “If we can make changes yes”

Alex spoke up “I think a change in lead is an excellent idea”

“What if I don’t want to be lead” Daniel finally spoke.

I sighed “You’ve already established you can do it, and I’ve never heard the crowd be more enthusiastic towards you than the night you left” I said.

“I thought we were going to pursue other things Alex, it’s not a good idea that we jump right back into this”

Kat sighed from across the table “Look, I’m sorry for all the bad blood between me and Cassie, it was my fault, it’s not her fault, we can go back to this, and I’m okay with everything”

“I don’t think I’m ready to do this again right now” Daniel looked at Alex “Maybe later, but not right now”

Alex looked at me “and you?”

“This isn’t a one woman show, we either all do it or none of us do it” I said.

Levi groaned “there goes my life up in smoke again, thanks guys”

Daniel held his hands up “Why don’t we take the next few months and work on new stuff, I don’t want to do another tour for a while”

Alex nodded “Yes absolutely, we can take time away from touring, that’s no problem”

“I’m sure you’d rather spend time with the new baby huh?” Kat asked with a smile “how is she?”

“She’s great, we named her Madyln” he said and started pulling out pictures.

I looked at Daniel and he glanced over at me, I still couldn’t read him, if he was mad or happy to see me, he wasn’t showing any emotions to me at all.

Levi held up his hands “Ok before we get off track with the baby pictures, are we all in agreement that we are continuing this band?”

We all nodded.

Alex “Okay, I’ll come back to you guys with some tour dates for probably 6 months to a year from now, does that sound fair?”

We all nodded.

“in the mean time I expect you 4 to be on top of