BLUE DEVILS, CLOUIE JIM AGACOSCOS [black male authors .TXT] 📗

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Agonia........................................................3

Blue Devils...................................................4

Chant for Happiness......................................5

Cold.............................................................6

Declaration of Love........................................7

Futile............................................................8

I am.............................................................9

In Solitude...................................................10

Inner thoughts of a Jester.............................11

Is it too much?.............................................12

It comes at night..........................................13

My Girl..........................................................14

Still...............................................................15

The Sea.........................................................16

Thoughts........................................................17

Valuable.........................................................18

Where to?......................................................19

Why I love rainy days.....................................20

Withered Leaf................................................21

Withered Leaf (cont.).....................................22

How True......................................................23

When You're Gone.........................................24

F.V.C.K.............................................................25

REVERSE......................................................26

HOW I WISH...............................................27

TIRED OF WAKING UP..................................28

AGONIA

Thoughts of loneliness

doesn't seem to break apart

even though the heart's

always yearning for

happiness and for love.

what does it feel to

have real joy on yourself

cause I've been stuck

in my sorrow and pain

longing to be free

in my own prison cell.

~melancholy

BLUE DEVILS

 

 

Gloomy and dark

and sorrowful nights

sadness, it's like an

ambush in our lives

you were happily going through

then suddenly, it strikes.

 

It will slowly kill you

mentally and emotionally

with discomfort

it will make you feel useless

and it will make you feel tired of everything.

~melancholy

CHANT FOR HAPPINESS

 

 

Gloomy feelings

let me go

I don't want

to associate with you

you make me feel

I'm worthless too.

 

Joyous feelings

come to me

you're one thing

I ought to be

when I have you

I feel people

wanting me.

~melancholy

COLD

 

 

Stunning stars in the midnight sky

with the cold wind blowing from the south

makes me remember the best mem'ries

of us lovers,

from the time we've first met

and those joyful moments.

You're the one who taught me

to not fake my smile and laughs,

to the time when we have to say goodbye

to each other, I guess forever.

Your picture pops up randomly every time

in my mind and throwbacks

those beautiful scenes that makes

me feel happy and sad.

Sad, because I know that those will never

happen no more.

Happy, 'cos I've experienced the most

beautiful thing that'll happen

in every man's life

that is being in love...

truly.

~melancholy

DECLARATION OF LOVE

" Oh I see no other woman

as beautiful as you

your fairness, it makes every

other women envy you

you've got that smile that every

men who could see it will surely melt

I'll give you my love darling

please take it

I'll give you my best my love,

so we could make it

answer me yes , I beg your love"

 "You're the man that makes

my heart beats like a drum

when I see you I feel joy and fun

my world pauses when you were there

boy, only you among all men

makes me feel like this

babe, you are the one who could

give me real happiness...so yes"

 "Yes thanks my darling you gave me that

now I'm the happiest man alive

I'll give you all you want I promise

I'll give you all my love, this is my pledge

let's be happy darling

let's make love

the world is ours tonight."

~melancholy

 

FUTILE

 

I always fail at every thing I do

I'm a no good man

no matter how hard i try

I always fail, I do

failures have drowned me

into the depth of sorrows

I've been stuck into this pit of loneliness.

it's been dark and scary in this abyss.

I've been screaming,yelling for some help

but no one seems to hear me...

help me!

please throw me a rope of hope

and pull me up...

help me!

please don't let me make the death as my last resort.

~melancholy

 

I AM

 

 

Always thinking

what is my worth.

was I born to be

together with despair?

sadness consumes me everynight

sometimes i couldn't bear

what would I do

to escape this pain?

a little more

and I'm gonna be insane.

How should I end this?

should I tie a rope

and hang myself?

or pop a pill

and sleep to death?

~melancholy

IN SOLITUDE

 

Thought you were the one

who could pull me up

but it ended up

leaving me alone in the dark

why'd you do such a thing

didn't you know how much

hurt it brings?

Here I am longing for you,

missing you and waiting for

your presence to come along

feels like wanting you, liking you

and loving you is my agony.

Didn't you love me?

why'd you leave me?

ah! I'm a burden anyway

until when had i to deal

with this vanity?

Everytime I find myself

in solitude

I'm feeling empty.

~melancholy

INNER THOUGHTS OF A JESTER

 

 

I had the jokes that make you happy

made people laugh at every party

I do tricks that made the

children filled with awe

while the others drop their jaws

"He's so happy while he give people joy"

you opined.

Well,this time,for you

I speak the sooth,

behind this mask I wore

behind this bright smile

is a sadness I've always endure.

It is a dark,heavy cloud above me

that anytime would fall

but as I wander my eyes afar

I saw these clouds slowly creeping

above you all...

so I put on my mask again

I made you laugh to forget the pain

I put a smile on your faces

to brighten up your days,

so you won't have to feel

this funny jester's pain.

~melancholy

IS IT TOO MUCH?

 

We held it's other's hands

firmly in the past

afraid of losing each other

and breaking apart,

wishing everyday...

'til death do us part'

but it wasn't in my knowledge

I am gripping to tight.

I was too scared to lose you

I ended up hurting you

now you've left me all alone

all promises are gone

can't blame you though...

'cos I