Collection of poems, JB [online e book reading .txt] 📗

When Angels Cry

A sadness of great
filled with love and hate
but can there be
any worse tragedy
what could cause such a thing,
what consequences could it bring
so sad that the world begins to die
that's what happens when angels cry.

These creations of pure
Angels from the world obscure
they're perfect and out of reach
and the pain no one sees
Their pain is the worst of all
when they feel their tears fall
all hatred and embellished lies
that's what happens when angels cry

For their sadness
beyond me
and the rest of the world
if can not be
They watch no longer as life
goes by
that's what happens when angels cry
They spread their wings but
can not fly,
that's what happens
when angels cry.

A sadness of great
He's living his life too late
he's done with this world
now we all can relate
we lie in bed and wonder why
All that's good has to die
in our hearts he cannot die
he lives forever as
the angels cry.


An Ode to Beauty::

Dear Faithful, passionate, mended heart,
where for in which we Begin--

A tragedy not spoken by my still beating?
A travesty unseen by the Unseeing?

A care unworn by time Untold,
for in Ages long past,
in a Time where we'd never grow old.

An endless summer to idle reverie
ever unbroken our sun basked fantasy,
of a time where never we ended this Dream.

The spring's breezed kiss a lasted memory,
and our Autumn's first Mist the only remedy,
to the Burning, yearning, Passionate Heart;
the thirst a flaming embattlement awaiting the Start;
a call from the Walls and a carry to Arms
all in the notes of an Ode to Beauty.


Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow


Yesterday I saw you flying,
with the white clouds passing by,
you were dancing with the wind,
you were glowing in the sky.

Today I saw you walking,
with the leaves that rustled on,
you came up with the sunset,
but you were gone by dawn.

I wish that by tomorrow,
I can see you here by me,
so I can close my eyes and feel,
what I used to have to see.


Explanation (if you wish to read it): The first stanza is of a person who has the image of his loved one set high in the sky, she is unreachable yet like a dream. In the second stanza, she gets closer to him yet is still just a dream, a wishful hope, that he cannot reach yet she seems to be approaching him. The final stanza wishes for her to become a reality so that he will no longer have to use his eyes to appreciate beauty.


Broken Butterfly

Broken butterfly, you flew too high
You had to be higher then us all
You were so close you could almost kiss the sky
Everyone knew you’d fall

Broken butterfly, I had you at your prime
Before your colors turned to gray
Before the sparkle fell from your eye
Before your wings decayed

Broken butterfly, I couldn’t make it in time
I couldn’t save you from yourself
In my dreams, I go back to rewind
To see if I could have helped

Broken butterfly, tell me why
A life so beautiful became a tragedy
You had no one, read your letter of suicide
But you were wrong, you always had me


Sleep (a different kind of prayer)"

Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray for you, My soul to keep
As I lay upon my bed.
Can't rest my mind, nor rest my head
Loneliness now sinking in
I was not supposed to end
I feel the pain, pain so deep.
It stays with me, through my sleep.

Now I lay me down to sleep
I ask for you not to weep.
Bitter regret I may taste,
But never will I forget your face
I try to lay very still
But you took my heart, and free will
I'm sorry if I let you down.
But don't you ever, ever frown.

Now I lay me down to sleep
I wish the monsters not to creep
As I lay me down to rest
I wish for you not to cry,
Even when you say good-bye.
I ask for her to treat you well
Cause you shall never ever fail.

As I lay me down to sleep
I knew those pills would make
me weak
And as I die before I wake,
I wish for you, my soul to take.


Change

It seems I am at fault
and that my words hurt

That all my angry words
Seem to run you through the dirt

I know I ask a lot of you
I know you do it all

Just know I appreciate what you do
Everything great and even small

I know I yell and fuss at you
And you stand and hear me out

When I curse and swear at you
You never scream and shout

So when the weight got to much
You were ready to throw it away

I pushed our friendship too far
I now I am put to the test today

And now I may lose my best friend
If I loved you I would change for you

You don't have faith in me that I'll change
So to prove it that’s what I'll do


The outsider

help me if you can
just that this
is not the way
I'm wired

so could you please,
help me understand why
you've given in to all these
reckless dark desires

you're lying to yourself again
suicidal imbecile
think about it, put it on the fault line
what'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this, why do you want throw it away like this
such a mess, why would I want watch you

disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
what's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence
narcissistic, drama queen, craving fame and all this decadence

lying through your teeth again
suicidal imbecile
think about it, put it on the fault line
what'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this, why do you want throw it away like this
such a mess, why would I want watch you

disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
what's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die
they were right about you
they were right about you

lying to my face again
suicidal imbecile
think about it, put it on the fault line
what'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this , why do you want throw it away like this
such a mess, over this, over this

disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time
what's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die
if you choose to pull the trigger, should your drama prove sincere,
do it somewhere far away from here


Promises

When I was lacking sight
A doctor came to me and said
"I can promise you better vision"
She fixed nothing
She lied to me

When I was lacking belief
A friend came to me and said
"I can promise you a good day"
Mood never changed
He lied to me

When I was lacking money
A woman came to me and said
"I can promise you a good job"
She never helped me
She lied to me

When I was lacking academics
A teacher came to me and said
"I can promise you a passing grade"
I failed the class
He lied to me

When I was lacking love
A guy came up to me and said
"I can promise you everlasting love"
he gave up on me
he lied to me

When I was lacking truth
I went up to them and said
"I promise you nothing"
They believed me
I kept my promise


Watercolor

This watercolor landscape
Drips behind my eyelids,
Melted by tears
I refuse to shed.

The sun hasn’t come up for days.
It’s last remnants
Lie at my feet,
Echoing the radiance
That has since been forgotten.

The broad face of the moon
Hangs lower everyday.
It swings slightly
In the breeze,
Brushing ancient dust
From the horizon.

Freezing rain lingers in the air,
Having lost the ambition to fall.
My frosty breath
Clings to the droplets
That remain suspended,
Much like the tears that won’t
Dare traverse my icy cheeks.

This scene clutches my heart
Crystallizing the blood
That tries desperately to keep me alive.
Who knew a dream world
Could be so agonizing?
Who knew a dream world
Would be the death of me?
Who knew it would end this way?


Facade
They tell me I can't
Treat people the way that I do.
I don't see why not.
I'm the only one who wakes up
Next to me or can help at all.

They tell me I can't
Tell people what I think is true.
I can't see reason.
I need to tell them so I do
I don't care what they want to hear.

They tell me I'm weird
But believe that I'm not to me.
I am just perfect
I'm perfect in every way
Or I would do something to change.

They tell me I'm nuts
But believe whatever you want.
I'm all that's left
I'm the only one who loves me
Can you blame me for loving me?

They tell me to breathe
But I just can't when I'm bleeding.
I hate myself
More than you could ever hate me
I can't blame you for killing me.


Evolution

Dark nights and starry skies
Light on the horizon
Shadows fall and yet the sun shines bright
New endings and old beginnings
Repeating history's plight

Our dreams are lost with all the hurry
Our thoughts so jumbled we lose the meaning
The greatest minds of our generation
Are lost in each gunshot, smokey night

We complain that life is dull and repetitious
Most couples are like strangers passing in the night
Our chaotic world has torn us too far from our soul mates
All is dark and dreary in this new human light

We live in a new world where the individual reigns supreme
Yet with all this new power we wield, we lose sight of our dreams
Is this what we shall become? Lonely, uncaring beasts?

Or will someone, somewhere find the key
Perhaps late one night within their dreams
To make the future hopeful and bright


Thought of an Angel

Noticing you from near,
gazing from afar.
Bodies so close together,
yet I know not who you are.

Desiring such beauty,
longing sweet tender lips.
I close my spoiled eyes,
placing hand upon your hips.

I whisper to your ear,
you turn and bear a grin.
A smile as an angel's,
laying kiss upon my chin.

You motion with your hand,
drawing to you near.
That's when you whisper something,
lingering in my ear.

We confess our love,
as if it's meant to be.
But then I open my eyes,